Living with a Major Depression
I am a mother who is struggling every day with a depression so deep there were times I just want to end it all. When my 16-year-old son was killed I felted that my life was over, even though I had other children who needed me. To me my children were alive and my Edo was gone forever. It was hard for me to go on with life, or be with my family.
My bedroom was my shield I sat in the darkness of my bedroom with a bottle on the night-stand and a drink in my hands asking God while my child had to die. A lot of conflicting thoughts traveled through my mind, making it hard for me to get out of bed. I was stuck in a place I never wanted to go it was hard to let anyone in.
There was times I feel sad, lonely and overwhelm at the world, not wanting to share my pain with anyone. I could no longer live a happy normal life I was ready to do something to myself to take away my pain.
What is depression? To me depression is a lot of conflicting thoughts and feelings that travel threw one's minds, challenging them to the unknown. These thoughts are so deep they interfere with our over day lives, causing us to live in a world of uncertainty. Depression is a serious illness that affects one's behavior pattern, which could lead to acts of violence or a deep tragedy. There are no age limits to depression, anyone can be subjected to this illness. Some people go threw a stage of depression a few times, why others go through life-fighting and trying to win. Most people take drugs and alcohol to escape from themselves and others hoping things will be easier.
Is Programs and intensive Therapy the answer to This Illness" Depression".