Reflections on my Journey of Weightloss
Enslaved to my Addictions
I have addictions - they are to chocolate and sugar. The more I eat - the more I want - I have become a real addict to these things. Lately I have been reading a lot about food and there addictive additives. Some of it seems like conspiracy theories. But and I am starting to believe that maybe some of them are.
So How do I know I am Addicted?
WANT - I WANT chocolate - there is no need for it - just a want - I will eat it in secret. I will hide it. I will eat my partners chocolate. I will eat the office chocolate and hide the wrappers so the boss doesn't see it. I mindlessly eat snacks while reading at lunch and then after lunch feel blotted and full and yet still crave more sugary or salty snacks. I can't ever stop at one piece of candy - unless it is 86% Cacao and even then I have more than one piece.
I think about chocolate - about buying chocolate. I can't have Easter candy for the Grandchildren in the house before Easter because I will eat it. If I buy 3 for $2 I will eat 3.
I will look for Candy at friend's homes or parties.
Addiction pure and simple.
How I am Dealing with the Addiction
I finally faced the fact that my weight problem is solely caused by my addiction to sugar. Sugar in snacks, candy and processed food. So for the last 7 days I have said NO to as much sugar as possible. Some of the healthy snack bars that I have had this week have had 7 grams of sugar and I am currently drinking a Dunkin Donuts coffee with flavor which is from syrup and is still added sugar. However, what is important about both of those items is that neither one causes me to go on a binge.
Mindless eating has been my downfall, so now I count all the calories - at my current weight I need 3000 calories a day to maintain it. I have been keeping my diet at about 1500 calories a day. Somedays I am a little higher but most days I am on the money. I have not deprived myself of eating. What I have done is balanced out my day instead.
For me, I find that eating more protein at breakfast and lunch keeps me satisfied. Nuts, or a Kind bar help me make it through the afternoon and that terrible "3:00 PM" hour when I want something to munch. Even though our kitchen is full of mindless snacks, I have restrained myself telling myself the outcome far out ways a moment of salty, sugary snacks.
Do you suffer from a Sugar Addiction?
Addiction - The definition
Addiction - The state of being enslaved to a habit or practice or to something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, as narcotics, to such an extent that its cessation causes severe trauma.
So How did I do you ask?
For the last 7 days I have lost 3 pounds. My breakfast have either been a smoothie, 100 calorie yogurts or sprouted whole wheat bread with almond butter. Sometime even a hard boiled egg is my breakfast. It might seem small to you but I think - why should I force myself to eat a bigger breakfast when I really can't stomach them. OH! and I always start my day with a glass of warm water with lemon. Lunch has been wraps, salads and even a Wawa Shorti. Dinners are whatever I am making for the family - which is usually healthy anyway.