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Updated on November 24, 2008

 As from today things are going to change.


Don’t ask me why. It is just a feeling. Maybe because of the dreams I had the last few weeks, maybe because of things I have read, things I found out. I don’t know or I can’t tell. Things that were hidden from me, are in the open now so I can respond to it. Knowing my gut feeling didn’t cheat on me. Knowing it was all well and it will all be alright. Secrets revealed. Secrets of life, of those living, inside of me, inside of you. They are in the open now so I can clean up the mess.

I will put that smile on my face, wipe away the tears of the past and do what I always wanted to do, will go where I always wanted to go, be with those I always wanted to be with for the last few years.

Strong again, happy again. Being myself again. I will love him as I love myself, love me like he loves me. Fill the cracks , make it whole again, make me whole again, make us whole again. Believe it again, try again, start over again. I won't give up when it's not given up on. The only thing I’m giving up now, is putting down the words that are spinning trough my mind, words floating from my heart, words dripping from my soul, words from me.

My mind, my heart and my soul are forever yours………….. and mine


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    • Kind Regards profile image

      Kind Regards 

      9 years ago from Missouri Ozarks - Table Rock Lake

      Lazur, You're an excellent writer. I loved reading it. Kind Regards

    • drpastorcarlotta profile image

      Pastor Dr. Carlotta Boles 

      9 years ago from BREAKOUT MINISTRIES, INC. KC

      How wonderful my love!!! This is the way I felt when I rededicated my life to my God!!! I am set FREE!!!! No matter what!!!!! I am sooooooooo happy for you!! Praise God!!! STAND!! STAND!!! I'm praying for you!!!!!! My friend!!!!! Luv Luv Blessings always to you and your.....

    • Lazur profile imageAUTHOR


      9 years ago from Netherlands

      Thanks G-Ma, I hope so and believe so:D Big hug for you and everyone who is with you now

    • G-Ma Johnson profile image

      Merle Ann Johnson 

      9 years ago from NW in the land of the Free

      Awww very beautiful my dear...and can feel the love spilling from your sweet caring, wonderful heart...Is so nice you feel so good and it makes me feel good too...Much,much more to come to such a lovely lady...G-Ma :o) hugs...with tears running down her cheeks.....


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