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Staying Sober One Day At A Time-My Story
Well here I am happy as can be and alone again in my garage, just me and my beer. This is where I spent a lot of time doing the drinking thing. I was alone because no one could bare to be around me when I drank.
I didn't think I was doing anything wrong so why is everyone avoiding me? It took a lot of years of abusing alcohol to finally figure out the true picture of what exactly was happening to my world.
Yes, I look happy in that picture, but deep down inside I was miserable, frustrated and a very lonely person. Sure, everyone was around me and spent time with me only when I wassober. I just didn't get it to why people were so against me drinking. I felt just fine and didn't think I was drunk at all any of the times people would say, "haven't you had enough"?
I was basically blinded to the outside world. I was living in my own little world of addiction and never saw it. I was in denial so bad that I didn't think I had a problem, only the rest of the world did.
Have you ever had a day that all you thought of the entire day was getting home to get that first of many drinks? No matter where I was and what I was doing the alcohol was always in the back of my mind. The demons in my head would be begging for their feeding of their alcohol. They ran my life, they controlled my thoughts, my actions and came close to destroying my family and possibly being the death of me, if I were to continue the way I was going.
There came a day right where I was sitting in that garage that something came over me. It felt like a voice was trying to tell me that I was doing wrong for myself and my family, and if I wanted to be around this world for awhile longer I'd better make some huge changes in my life.
I thought to myself "do I want to live the rest of my life being alone as I am now, or do I want to be around the people that love and care for me so much and be sober"?
I wanted to be clean and sober and to be able to live a life of sobriety, but I didn't really know just how to go about it. I finally said that I have an alcohol addiction and I want help. I asked myself "do you think you can beat this addiction alone"? My answer was YES I can conquer this on my own, but I will need some help from my family and my God in Heaven to succeed.
I knew I could achieve anything in life including sobriety with the help and guidance of God. At that moment I began to ask for his help and guidance to get me through this journey in a safe and healthy way.
I had many dreams and goals all through my life that I could not achieve due to my addiction to alcohol. By surrendering to my addiction and becoming clean and sober I knew that in time I would be able to accomplish things that I could not have done being addicted.
I had to think positive that I would be able to do this and Staying Sober One Day At A Time would be all I could do. I didn't want to think how I would feel tomorrow or next week. I wanted to live each day one at a time and take every moment to enjoy life as it should be, SOBER!
It has taken a lot of hard work but I was determined to conquer my addiction and to be able to live life to the fullest with my family.
If anyone has the desire to become sober, you can do it, if you have the willingness, strength and determination to success. Don't be embarrassed of your addiction, call out for help to your family and most important ask God for his help because he loves you and will help you be able to live the life he intended for you to live.