I know I am struggling and it is not an easy way to live. I'm too old for this! My health has taken a drastic turn and I barely make it through most days. I am having a bad lupus flair with FM, chronic pain, insomnia and feel like a zombie. My dogs are keeping me alive as I know they need me. I'm one hurtin puppy right now. No doctor, no car, no $, no phone however, I do have a roof over my head and a great roommate. I'm so depressed and aggravated. I almost want to be back in my tent in the woods and let the coyotes eat me, poop me out and I'll grow into a tree.