Letter to Myself

Dear fragile child, please don't be so sad

Dry all those tears streaming down your face

Never let anyone make you feel bad about your body

God made you, and that makes you perfect

You will eventually learn to love your body when you get older

You just wait until you get older, you'll see what I am talking about

Oh, and all those little boys giving you such a hard time, will grow up as well

Karma is going to bite them back, for all the years of torment they put you through

So don't waste your energy or your time on their peaty comments and put-downs

Just be yourself, and love who you are, because your life is about to change

As you know by now, something has changed your life forever

But please don't hate anyone else, because you are in so much pain

Don't push away others, who just want to love you

Stop taking your pain out on your parents, and others around you

Please stop falling behind in your studies, you are too smart for this

You went from an honor roll student to making flunking grades

This is not going to stop your heart from breaking, it is just going to make it worse

You are about to make some very bad choices in life

You need to stop blaming yourself and feeling so guilty

Please talk to someone about the way you feel

I also want to tell you, what happened to you was not your fault

But your self-esteem is about to lead you down, a very dangerous pathway

That is going to be much worse than this

You have hidden so many dark secrets, for so many years now

People have no idea, what you have been through

You have let people walk all over you, for years now

Stop trusting all the wrong people

But please love the ones, who do love you

You are so beautiful, how can you not see that

Stop starving yourself, and putting yourself down every day

Because the fast weight you lose from not eating, is going to come back quick

Please, I am begging you to talk to somebody already

Your time is very precious

I wish you were able to understand that

Sometimes during your early twenties, you will go through another tragic event.

You will be violated and humiliated

By someone you thought was a friend, and a close companion

This act of violence will almost destroy you

What is about to happen to you, will be devastating

But it will not be your fault, dear young misguided bird

None of it, You will hear from others that you are at fault

But that isn't true at all, I just wish you loved yourself more

It was not your fault what happened when you were younger, and it is not your fault now

You are going to be in some pain the next few years

Your faith in people is going to be demolished for a year or two

But you're about to finally talk to someone

The burden you feel will be forever lifted

You are about to have a good heart to heart with God

He is going to give you all the answers you have been searching for

You are going to be forever changed when you realize his love for you

As you start talking to God more and asking him for guidance

He is going to heal you, and make you see things in a different way

Your faith in people is getting better as well

You are also about to meet the man, who is going to be your husband

You need to start opening up a little more to him

This man loves you, with his all

He will treat you better than any other man, you have ever been with

He will make you feel beautiful

You will start to realize yourself how beautiful, you really are

You will understand beauty starts within

Once you fully get a grip on all this, you will finally be able to love someone

Here is the surprise, the person you are going to fall in love with is?

YOU!!!!!

This is what happiness feels like

Love:

Your Future Self

I believe at some point in our lives, we all have things we need to look back and reflect on. In this poem I wrote a letter to my younger self, that expressed what I wished, would have been said to me. I am so glad that I let God into my life, he has changed me so much, so many doors have been opened up to me, and I have started to realize how beautiful life is.