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AM THE BAD GUY

Updated on March 11, 2019

If I had the chance to make things right I'd give a moment and think things through. Because most of the times I actually am the bad guy, the villian. Am just consumed when everything is great on my side and what's mine. It's always been about me you know. I wasn't raised like that, but can you blame me? Pacts in the jungle are only of the same type, and amazing the only type I know.!

If I had a moment to express how I really feel, amen not sure I'll like what I'd have to say. Cause am blind to bad things and I don't wanna open my eyes just yet. Am afraid I'll even be avoiding my ownself. Am not proud of who I an most of the time. The real me kinda died when I lost people who were dear to me. And they took a piece of me that nobody can ever replace.

If I could change a thing or things ,well I wouldn't bother doing that. I don't wanna be that selfish and change history. I have learned that it's never about gaining, sometimes you loose too. ...
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And have talked to myself. Promised myself no more promises. Tore apart my wish list ,cause it's just wishes in one wish.
I even asked my heart to just beat and be blind to love. I told my mouth to speak but never make promises.

.. I told my brain to stay caged in that box cause thinking out of the box led me to nothing but pain, trouble, hurt and heartaches...

.. If looking out for myself makes me the bad guy trust me, I'll be baddest you'll ever see cause am tired of painting the wrong picture every time.
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Inkmade. ™

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    • Amani Utembu profile imageAUTHOR

      Amani Utembu 

      13 months ago from Nairobi -Kenya

      Thank you

    • Brenda Arledge profile image

      BRENDA ARLEDGE 

      13 months ago from Washington Court House

      I can feel the hurt you harbor inside but you must not let yourself live your life in a state of constant pain.

      There is so much in life...beautiful things you need to experience...i am sure your loved ones would want for you to share.

      Writing is good. Your point gets across.

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