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Abandonment - a common fear shared by adopted children

Updated on January 27, 2015
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Reoccurring Dream

The whippoorwill's early calling
sounds from the edge
of the deepening woods
other dusk dwelling birds
swoop close to the trees and
then rise swiftly to silhouette themselves
against the midnight blue sky
catching bugs
I suppose

I stare up at the light
disappearing behind the ominous mountains
straining my eyes to find that last
leafy branch
high in a tree
still bathed in the sweet day's light

Across the Androscoggin
who's black waters rush over
granite bedrock
and the souls of families drown
during their Spring crossings
I hear the whine of sixteen-wheelers
speeding around mountain edges
heading west
rushing to catch up with the
withering day
the moaning echoes across the valley
bouncing off the sides until it's
swallowed
whole
by the forest surrounding me

The windows of the house
behind me
are black
except for the
last reflection
of the twilight sun
on the attic window's glass

The door is locked
everything packed
and gone from the kitchen fridge,
the beds made,
the fires extinguished,
shades pulled

The porch is now drowned in
darkness.

I barely see
the road,
each end of it
disappearing
into an abyss of black
only the slightest breath of orange
teases
from the top of the mountains

I curl
against the cold
and wait

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    • mbwalz profile imageAUTHOR

      MaryBeth Walz 

      8 years ago from Maine

      Well I don't know Burt personally, but I do have him on my lips occasionally - lol! We don't have all that much snow this winter (at least not here in Portland). It's the mid-Atlantic states getting slammed!

      Thanks for commenting!

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      Micky Dee 

      8 years ago

      Hi. I just came back for another read. Also a good friend of mine lives in your state. You've heard of him no doubt- Burt of Burts Bees. I haven't spoken to him in a while. I'm going to call him now though and see if he picks up. He doesn't live in the same room as his phone. He and his dog Pasha live in another dwelling. Snow is up to his windows at least. Thanks for your encouragement and I do enjoy your writing. I wish the best for you and yours.

    • mbwalz profile imageAUTHOR

      MaryBeth Walz 

      8 years ago from Maine

      Thank you so much Philip!

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      philip carey 61 

      8 years ago

      Beautifully written! I googled "Androscroggin" to look at pictures of it. And thank you for stopping by my hubs.

    • mbwalz profile imageAUTHOR

      MaryBeth Walz 

      8 years ago from Maine

      Thanks Micky!

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      Micky Dee 

      8 years ago

      Very nice. Thanks for the great thoughts

    • mbwalz profile imageAUTHOR

      MaryBeth Walz 

      8 years ago from Maine

      Thank you so much for the feedback Sage!

    • Sage Williams profile image

      Sage Williams 

      8 years ago

      Wow, I'm speechless. Deep, deep emotion. You captivate the feeling of abandonment so well. You seize the moment in all of your surroundings.

      I was really drawn into this poem. Awesome job.

      Sage

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