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From Forties to Faith: a poem

Updated on July 2, 2020

art & poetry by Brian Loewer

From Forties to Faith: a poem


He's got a good side, but he's feeling so dark.

A bit of guilt flees with a bic flick spark.

Dying conviction with just a few hits.

No need for change, he's high as sh*t.

Feeling dead with no fire to burn.

Body alive, as a dime bag burns.

The high wears on, running it's course.

And the high wears off. Buyers Remorse.

Kick the habit? Or keep fueling the flame?

He drinks down a forty, and laughs without shame.

Conviction and guilt are just words to control

Ignoring the tugs inside of his soul.

Unable to control the urge of his chase.

The highs leave him running in place.

Satisfaction is gone, but the habits remain

Monotony of life is warping to pain.

He continued his route.

Daily doing his thing.

Up till the night,

of that startling ring.

--

"Accident? Dead?

I saw her this evening.

I was just at her house...

This can't be happening!"

- -

He collapsed to the floor,

tears filling his hands.

legs of mush,

he lost the power to stand.

Tears falling in silence,

He called an old friend.

“Dear Lord! I'm here!

I can't do this again!”

His lips trembled with wreckless abandon.

Weak. Then peace. Then standing.

He poured out his bottle.

And flushed his bud down the pot.

Crying, "Jesus, it's all I got..."

And so he prayed again,

like when he was young.

Believing In the power

of God and his Son.



More Poetry by this Author:

Whiskey and a Bible

Monster in the Frame

The Driven Man

Sunday Brunch





© 2011 Leone Vidoni

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    • mloewer profile image

      mloewer 

      8 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      This one killed me. Love it bro.

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      JinnyMarte 

      9 years ago

      Yes I remember reading it before your revision. But I didn't comment on it. Sorry about that. It was as great before as it is now Brian... ;-)

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Yeah I revised this one Jinny. Changed it quite a bit, including the title. So I'm not sure if you had read it before or not, but thank you so much. I'm glad you like it.

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      JinnyMarte 

      9 years ago

      Well I am ashamed that i didn't read this before. Or did I? Was this revised? Anyway, I love it. It is a reality for many and I find it easy to relate to. Lives have been touched by moments like this and the fact is, it never gets any easier. Very deep and touching. Couldn't help but to feel very moved by this. Awesome work! As always... Skills!! hehehe

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Haha.. Thanks Crystar.

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      Crystar 

      9 years ago

      Hey there LVidoni5. You've expressed it very well. Good job! And the artwork is SKELYGEOUS.

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Ha yeah I feel you Simplicity. Well it's a couple combined experiences... So I guess I'd say it's based on some true stories.

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      Simplicity4All 

      9 years ago from Rhode Island, USA

      hahaha I wasn't necessarily promoting getting high, however sometimes people need a little inspiration and hey if it works....is this a true story?

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Thanks True! Well the poem I was just looking back on a time in my life, and the painting I did recently. Thanks for the encouragement in my work!

      Hey Simplicity, thanks for reading. Haha yeah True.S.S comments had me laughing pretty good. Lol yeah I wasn't promoting getting high, I was just refering to the time my poem took place. But no doubt artists make interesting stuff when there blitzed.lol --Take care, Brian

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      Simplicity4All 

      9 years ago from Rhode Island, USA

      I like your poem and the honesty behind the words but I have too say the comments are also pretty hilarious and enjoyable. And the government thinks that getting high is an issue, yet look at all the beautiful art and writing that people can produce under the influence..can't say ive ever come up with anything inspiring while I was intoxicated although I may have given people a good laugh...

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      When I first read your poem I just skimmed the picture, but now I see you painted that! Amazing!! Talented you are! I see sadness and emptiness in it. This must of been a hard time in your life. Take care and keep painting and writing I think it is a part of healing.

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      V you're Awesome. It was actually my 1st painting and so I was surprisingly pleased with it myself... So thanks a bunch for the good words.

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      V Qisya 

      9 years ago

      Nice poem, Brian! Beautiful painting. Love it!

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      It sure was! Nice talking to you too.. enjoy the night.

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      Well good night it was nice chatting and reading your poetry. Take care.

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      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      Was it in there?

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Wow that is just too funny! I had to look it up on urbandictionary. Learn something new everyday I guess.

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      Oh it means that you say too much about drug dealing or anything like that. Like being to obvious about any crime. Maybe it is just Canadian eh? I don't know.

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Well one of us has got to be high, cause I'm still confused. Lol. Is "heat score" a term in Canada or something. Cause I aint got the darndest clue what it means..haha

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      Oh, I'm just being paranoid. LOL

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Ha yeah... well I'll take your word for it.. and what may I ask is 'too heat score?'

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      Oh and I am really not high. I'm just naturally like this.

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      LOL, I'm too heat score. I could say more stuff that would be funny but I better not since I'm new and all. But that is a good rule!

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      LMAO... You know what they say... 'Don't hub when you're high' -Ok no one says that.. but I never thought I'd have a discussion about bud prices on the hubs. Haaha aww too much :D

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      No I was just saying that a gram is 10 bucks here too. I don't know what I was saying and no I haven't been smoking any. LOL

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Thanks True.S.S. Really appreciate the nice comment. LOL, what do you mean, Prices of weed are the same? Were you asking what a dime bag was or asking why I only bought a dime bag?LOL

    • Trueshortstories profile image

      Trueshortstories 

      9 years ago from Canada

      Absolutely beautiful, you are an awesome poet. I could feel and taste while I was reading it. Thank you for sharing parts of your soul. Voted up and everything except funny. Well I guess the prices are pretty much the same everywhere and dime bag? LOL

    • LVidoni5 profile imageAUTHOR

      Leone Vidoni 

      9 years ago from Portland, Oregon

      Dee thank you so much for reading. I'm glad you liked it!

      Sky my thanks to you as well. Ah yes... we all have our night stages. Both your comments & compliments are a gift, So thanks again.

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      Sky9106 

      9 years ago from A beautiful place on earth.

      Well,you captured it to the plan big fellow , I could see the flames , as I remember the days past , my day and nights. hard for others to believe, looking back at the life of those I left and what they received.

      Bless great job.

    • Dee aka Nonna profile image

      Dee aka Nonna 

      9 years ago

      Honest, raw, powerful. Enjoyed this very much.

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