Anxiety of My Soul - a poem
Anxiety of My Soul
The anxiety of my soul gets me trapped within my own mind
The questions that run through my head causes
This confusion of mine
The uncertainty of life places weight on my shoulders
The weight of life is constantly putting pressure on me
I know I'll be fine,
But this confusion of mine
Sometimes makes me feel like I've lost my mind
I try to take one day at a time
With a belief of patience,
I know I'll be fine
But my anxiety causes me to become fearful
My regrets,
My pain,
My past;
Constantly flood through my mind
Causing overwhelming, uncomfortable, anxiety within my soul
I do my best to ignore these
By repeating
"One day at a time"
"One step at a time"
But these self-motivating phrases, easily slip out of my mind
And get replaced with self-degrading, self-hating phrases
It's a tug-of-war in my mind,
A battlefield within me,
Filled with good and evil
A constant battle between my inner angels and demons
I have to stay positive
And I have to win this battle
By replacing evil with good
Even though this anxiety and confusion of mine
Places a weight on my shoulders
I know that I'll be fine
-Nick Wolf 6/16/2013