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Apart of my journey

Updated on April 4, 2010

So a journey I began in 1999 without even knowing I was a traveler.

My Mom passed away from Breast cancer, and I suppose this woke me up to some higher purpose. Her death really struck me, hit me somewhere so deep inside, I didn't believe it had an ending. I suppose it intrigued me.

Years passed.....

More people died, children were born, and life went on. I remained the same person on the outside .A mirage for the world to look upon, but inside so many changes, so many hidden places were discovered. I learned I have a talent or more so an ability to be many different people. To the world I'm Crystal. To me I'm a mystery. Now not to be discouraged I do have glimpses into which I really am. Who God purposed me to be.

So many times I lose sight of my sanity; there have been many dark days’ .Many manic nights. My heart and mind racing. My judgment blurred or more so my goodness absent from me. I now right from wrong, but at the same time I do not, or I have not. So should I chronicle my sins? Write them down as a reminder as of what not to do? No not now I'm not sure I or anyone else is ready for those many hurts. So I know my transgressions are behind me. I will now move forward. Leave the past right there. In the past. Learn from the hunting’s it brings me, and the people I love and never go back there again. God is my salvation.


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    • Sunshiney31 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago

      Thanks H.C Porter for reading apart of my journey ,much has been learned since I wrote this hub as putting things down on paper usualy does for me..And I will find what I'm looking for .thanks for your support

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      8 years ago from Lone Star State

      This was great- I can tell it took much soul searching and thinking about who you are to write this. I can also assure you, you are in no way alone in the way that you feel and think about the world and your place in it. I hope you find who/what you are looking for


    • Sunshiney31 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago

      Thank you Dori foryour interest in my thoughts.I love when God uses me for HIS PURPOSE.Just a question is unique good to you? Hub on fellow hubber!

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      Dorsi Diaz 

      8 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

      You have a very unique writing style. I like the way you have looked into yourself...and you asked some very good questions. Our purpose in life can be a very elusive thing. Everyday I ask God to use me to minster to others... it's amazing how He uses me when I am willing!!!

    • Sunshiney31 profile imageAUTHOR


      8 years ago

      thank you

    • Georgiakevin profile image


      8 years ago from Central Georgia

      This is a very interesting hub and one that took real soul searching. Your hub encourages the reader to souls search as well. One bit of advice is for you to be careful on making paragraphs too long. it makes it easier to read with shorter paragraphs. Well done indeed!


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