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Good Enough

Updated on December 3, 2011

Written on Behalf of Those in Our World Who Feel They Aren't Enough--You Know Who You Are

Will you ever really see me?

Will you ever really know?

And is it so important?
Am I worth the thought it took?

I guess it’s maybe foolish

That I want it to be so.

After all, I’m just a girl.

Just “someone” passing by.

We smile, we say hello, and part.

I’m nobody to you.

And is that what it should be? That

I am just another face?

A face, a smile, another person

Searching for what’s real. We live, we die

We go about our lives.

Our paths don’t cross.

And so why should I care when words of hatred tear my heart.

And why should I feel pain when you don’t care I fall apart.

And why should I take notice if your hands should strike my face?

And why should you take notice, if I leave this earthly place?

So when you lie, and tear me down, your words like knives, cut through my heart.

Why should I care? Why should I feel? It’s all a waste of time.

Change this, change that, change something else. God why I have to change?

Why can’t I stay? Just stay the same? Am I not good enough?

I cause you trouble, pain, and tears;

you laugh at me; you scorn my fears.

But does your hatred represent a truth or just a myth?

And should I change to be this way, or suffer in your wrath?

I know I’m not the smartest person that has ever lived,

I don’t have money, looks, or fame. I’ve lived a normal life.

Shut out from you, away from you, I’ve made my way alone.

So who am I to think that I can change the world that scorns?

I gave my heart:

You drained me dry.

I gave my trust:

You left me cold.

You took my soul.

I never cried.

You made me bleed.

I didn’t die…

(But how I wish I had.)

My fears, you mocked.

My tears? denied.

I wanted out:

You made me cry.

I said I’m scared:

You forced your will.

I said I will;

You didn’t care.

I’m just another person, true, I’m just another girl.

Black hair, green eyes, a crooked smile: I’m nobody to you.

My heart was plastic, nothing real.

My tears you never saw.

My pain, the misery of hate…

Why is it that I care when I am nobody at all?

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    • Cheeky Girl profile image

      Cassandra Mantis 

      7 years ago from UK and Nerujenia

      There is so much honesty and pain here, and what a great hub. You write so well and your words speak from the heart! Great hub!

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      Jonathan 

      7 years ago from Sacramento, CA

      I would argue that you do have looks! But about the piece; very nice, very heartfelt. Keep up the writing. :)

    • AshtonFirefly profile imageAUTHOR

      AshtonFirefly 

      7 years ago

      Thank you so much for your encouragement, Secretlies! Much appreciated, everyone :)

    • Secret lies profile image

      Secret lies 

      7 years ago from Redlands California

      Painfully beautiful in your reaching out to capture so many feelings. Beautifully done. Love the way love and pain collide.

    • Michele Travis profile image

      Michele Travis 

      7 years ago from U.S.A. Ohio

      Thank you for writing such a beautful hub. I need to read more of your hubs. I am trying to catch up on my friend hubs. This hub is so emotional, you have a gift when it comes to the abilty to write poetry.

    • AshtonFirefly profile imageAUTHOR

      AshtonFirefly 

      7 years ago

      Thank you for the encouragement, KeithTax :) and happy holidays to you!

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      Keith Schroeder 

      7 years ago from Wisconsin

      I like it. The style is different in ways, but still very moving. I enjoy emotional poetry most and you delivered. Send more.

    • AshtonFirefly profile imageAUTHOR

      AshtonFirefly 

      8 years ago

      Thanks for the comment and encouragement :) . i do realize that this is a very common topic; but I think that's also the reason I shared it; I feel it's something that alot of people can relate to :) Thanks for reading!

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      Carl 

      8 years ago

      I like this but at the same time I feel like I have heard it all before. It's still well written and would suggest to keep up the great work. Voted Up, Awesome, and Beautiful.

    • kittythedreamer profile image

      Kitty Fields 

      8 years ago from Summerland

      Wow...I've most definitely felt like this at one point in my life or another. Thanks for sharing this with us. Sad but innately beautiful at the same time.

    • AshtonFirefly profile imageAUTHOR

      AshtonFirefly 

      8 years ago

      Thanks everyone for your wonderful comments...I'm glad that you enjoyed it and that some even relate to it strongly. That was my whole purpose in writing it--to be a voice to those that couldn't maybe voice what they felt :)

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      Frank Atanacio 

      8 years ago from Shelton

      wow agonizing , but hits the mark.. Ashton, very well written piece.. :)

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      brandasaur 

      8 years ago from Planet X

      Aw! I really do feel the pain! It's so hard to be for granted, most especially, the very special person in your life. You gave them a very important place in your heart, but what did they give back? Pains, hatred and all!

      When you love someone, you don't need to change them to what you want them to be. If you LOVE them, you have to accept everything about them, even the worse thing they have, you have to accept it with your whole heart.

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      Disappearinghead 

      8 years ago from Wales, UK

      Now this I can relate to as someone who is fed up with denying who they are; weighed down with guilt about my shortcomings, when this is who I am.

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      anjperez 

      8 years ago

      Ashton, for days now i have been grasping for word how i felt. and your poetry created my voice. i am keeping this. thanks!

    • AshtonFirefly profile imageAUTHOR

      AshtonFirefly 

      8 years ago

      @Perspycacious--thanks for the advice! I'll give that a shot :)

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      Demas W Jasper 

      8 years ago from Today's America and The World Beyond

      Keep at this one! It is good and can be even better. One of the nice things about HubPages is that your submissions remain workable. These verses appear as free flowing thoughts deeply felt, at times with rhyme, most often without. Perhaps break it visibly into rhyming parts, and free flow parts. Each corridor has two directions, forward and back. The poem's young girl is still looking back, making it hard for her to truly move forward. If you feel she still can, fashion that into the poem's ending for a potentially more positive meaning being drawn from her experience. Just some thoughts.

    • AshtonFirefly profile imageAUTHOR

      AshtonFirefly 

      8 years ago

      Thanks for commenting...yeah...it's hard to know who to trust some times :/ but it will all turn out okay

      :)

      ~Ash

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      Joseph De Cross 

      8 years ago from New York

      So deeply done,

      I don't think reasoning and despair go along..and life with no passion is not good enough. You can trust only to the one that really deserves you...and as we get older we know for sure..who is the one!

      LORD

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