H.O.W. Humanity One World And My Val.
I am dedicating this hub to my dear friend Bill Holland who writes under the name billybuc.
and also to one sweet angel;my beautiful sister Val.
Well here I am at 6am on New Years Eve enjoying my very first cuppa of the morning.Dai has work today but will have a day off tomorrow ;which will be a great start to our brand New Year.
What will this New Year hold?? I am sure that most of us are asking ourselves this question!!!
I have already published a hub on my New Year plans.
I feel good times ahead;my heart eager and spirit ready!!!
Bill is a very important and dear member of my hubfamily plus a great friend.
He has recently formed the wonderful group H.OW. Humanity One World.
Check out here:-
Tomorrow January 1st I have undertaken to begin a great challenge ; follow the link below to find out how you can also take part.
It is so worthwhile and will eventually become a daily part of our lives.
I will now share with you one beautiful angel who sings so sweetly up in heaven;my sister Val.Some of you will already know all about Val from previous hubs.
Before I go any further I want to stress that while this story is sad and tragic it is not a bleak story of failure and sadness ; oh no it is a story of care,love and triumph!! After reading you will realise why I have also dedicated this hub to my Val.
A story of how even though my sister may not be here in person she is more than ever right here by my side and in my heart .Always guiding me on and now also at peace herself!
Let me tell you a little about our early life.
We both grew up in a small seaside town in Wales (only 20 miles from where I now live).
However she was brought up by a grandmother and therefore escaped most of the abuse that I suffered.
She sang at Eisteddfodau (Welsh talent competitions) all over Wales and won so many prizes as you can see in the photo below.
She was my big sister by three years and I grew up in her shadow;usually called Valerie's sister instead of Eiddwen.
This I can honestly say I never did mind as she was the one person in my life who made me proud to be me!!!
I can remember at our school Eisteddfodau there was not a sound to be heard as her beautiful voice filled the hall and I sat there beaming because this was my sister!!!
I also remember how she would always find out whenever I got up to mischief and would scold away!!Ha ha!!
So fixed in my memory will always be her happy smile;her laughter and her bubbly personality which made everyone fall in love with her!!
In later years Val graduated from the London Royal College of Music and was then married to Colin whom she had met at the college.
Sadly her marriage broke down and then her music was not enough !!!
So many thoughts of our childhood came back to haunt her and even though she had not suffered much abuse; the whole situation she could not cope with.
She subsequently suffered two nervous breakdowns and our roles were now reversed!!
I was the main one looking after her ; she remained in the London area throughout all this with only the two of us keeping in touch;we had both disowned all other members of our family.
We stayed in contact through phone calls and letters.
However it was often difficult to keep in touch as she would sometimes disappear and I was hundreds of miles away bringing up my six children.
So sadly in 1999 she took her own life!! Oh how my heart grieved!!
In the last ten years of her life she had spent most of her time at 'The Roselands Resource Centre' in 'New Malden', Surrey;a drop in centre connected with The Mental Health Association.
They spoke highly of her kindness and care for others; even through her own suffering she would never tire of sitting with others;talking to them and helping them in their quest to find and live their dreams.
I remember a time when she was so sad as a friend had passed away and she felt she should have done more to help him.
She was taking violin lessons as she had only ever played the piano; and also spent time busking on the streets with her recorder.
Again she was loved by all who knew her!!
I know without a doubt that she is with me today as she has been since that day back in 1999.
She gave me strength after her death to leave my abusive marriage of 26 years.
I feel her presence daily and know she is guiding me towards the path which I am now taking.
She may be gone from this world but is always by my side and in my heart.
I can feel her enthusiasm about Bill's H.O.W. and now she is telling me to carry on with the support, care and kindness she had so unconditionally given at The Roselands Resource Centre.
My one wish since joining HPs has been to share my story in order to help others and the support I have received from you all has been priceless.
It is with great positiveness and good vibes that I will travel into this New Year of 2013.
A journey of lessons learnt and new beginnings; a new era!!!
As one door close another opens.
Here's to you Bill and may H.O.W. be a great success and will help worldwide !!
Will help to teach and show that even through all this cruelty and sadness in today's world there is still beauty,care,and unconditional love.
Share this wonderful venture with all around you.
God bless you Billy.
Another great read which left my heart full of warmth and led me to compose the poem below:
I know you are with me
each and everyday
helping me on my way............................
H.O.W. would have warmed your heart
in Billy's heart you would have found
a kindred spirit
sharing love all around.............................
With your legacy in mind
and your warmth in my heart
great times ahead
we are never apart................................
May this wonderful path
flourish and blossom
and fill the world with a beauty
so rich so awesome..................................
Thank you so much Bill for H.O.W. and I will share all around including at a local Mental Health group which I plan to visit in the New Year and hopefully will be able carry on with Val's good work also.
Val was and is one of my guardian angels indeed and always will be.
I was really torn in two about publishing this one today on New Years Eve;part of me just wanted to share a funny story to make everyone laugh going into the new year but then my other half took over and I knew I had to as this is what my life is all about. I haven't shared it with sadness;I have shared with pride and honesty from my soul.
I travel into the New year a stronger person and my path ahead so right and so accessible!!!
God Bless you Billy my very dear friend and here's to bigger ,brighter and greater times ahead!!!