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I Remember the Days When My Life Shone Like the Stars

Updated on December 27, 2012

I remember the days when I lived in the light,

So many said it was me shining bright,,

Compliments, , accolades...... I never believed them.

"They don´t know me", I thought," weak , insecure as I was."

Yet, on the outside I shone. They called me a Rock,

A Pillar for others to lean on, and I always let them.


It´s good they can´t see me now.

No longer a rock, ......but a rock smashed to pieces,

Out of my comfort zone,

Shining no light,

Lonely.... afraid.

The girl that only I knew I was,

All through the days that they saw me shine.


Life was so good, in the days when I shone,

Hard work was easy, My love knew no bounds,

Another lame duck to lean on my shoulder,

Never a problem, in those days when I shone.


Now I can´t seem to help even myself.

Crushed like a dry Autumn leaf underfoot.

Crushed in my heart,

Crushed in my soul,

Crushed even in my mind.


Yes, my mind I thought I would always retain,,

Yet slipping away it seems,

Mad I am going, is that the truth?

There´s nothing left, I've no more to give,

And each day I find more difficult to live.

Just to live.




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  • Dim Flaxenwick profile imageAUTHOR

    Dim Flaxenwick 

    5 years ago from Great Britain

    Thank you, Micky for such a beautiful comment.

    God bless.

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    Micky Dee 

    5 years ago

    You never seem dim to me dear Dim. True light really reflects from you to others like me. God bless.

  • Dim Flaxenwick profile imageAUTHOR

    Dim Flaxenwick 

    5 years ago from Great Britain

    Thank you Alastar., I´m trying to find the darned bulb .........

    Your comment is so kind... here I go crying again.

    Something inside me has died and I can´t seem to bring it back.

    Nevertheless your encouragement is much appreciated.

    Take care and thank you again.

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    Alastar Packer 

    5 years ago from North Carolina

    You still have a heart, Dim. Nothing would make me and many others happier than to see your spirit shine forth with hope and the promise in life, no matter one's age. The joyful things are there in you, I know it. Had this story on the e-mail to read and seeing you on the feed reminded. Turn on that new bulb my friend, I wish you to very much.

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    Dim Flaxenwick 

    5 years ago from Great Britain

    Dear Angela ,

    Your kind words are the most helpful of all.I´m sure you are not older than dirt but I loved the expression. Put a smile on my face. Also I love you for the things you´ve writen here.

    I shall try to use the illistration of turning on the new bulb.Thank you so much for your understanding and encouragement.

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    Angela Blair 

    5 years ago from Central Texas

    Sweet Dim -- such beautiful sentiments. Being older than dirt I've found one thing to be true (helpful or not) -- many lights have gone out in my life and I equate it as going from one room of life to another (and it took a long time to realize). When the bulb burns out in one room I've just moved on to the next room where there's a light switch and a new bulb -- the hardest part of this analogy is one must turn on the next switch -- which is definitely more than difficult. My heart understands your words and shares your pain -- prayers for you are on the way up. Best/Sis

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    Dim Flaxenwick 

    5 years ago from Great Britain

    Dear Minnetonka Twin,

    I appreciate your comforting comment, and I agree that hubfriends make a huge difference when we feel down.

    Thank you for saying you´ll keep me in your thoughts and prayers. I may never be the woman I once was but I can still lift up from the depths I felt when I wrote this prose. Take care and thank you again.

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    Dim Flaxenwick 

    5 years ago from Great Britain

    Hi Blossom......... Thanks you so much for your encouraging comment.

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    Linda Rogers 

    5 years ago from Minnesota

    Dear Dim-everything will be alright as life has a way of working out. I am so sorry to hear things are rough but know that your not alone. Many of us on hubpages have many ups and downs. I think it's a blessing we have each other to share our pains, losses and triumph's with. I will hold you in my thoughts and prayers that this will be a new year that is full of hope, promise and joy. God bless :-)

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    Bronwen Scott-Branagan 

    5 years ago from Victoria, Australia

    What a poem! You explain so well what it feels like to be down, and when one is down the only way to go is up - to a life where others can benefit from knowing that you share their experiences.

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    Dim Flaxenwick 

    5 years ago from Great Britain

    Thank you cleaner3,

    I don´t know what to say , since your beautiful comment is causing tears to roll down my face.

    I can only thank you for being so encouraging.

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    cleaner3 

    5 years ago

    dim.. it is always darkest before the dawn. words that come to mind for this write are very sad.. i can only try to tell you that there is a silverlining bin the dark clouds if you look for it. there is good and bad in every thing in all situations , in life and death . make the most of everyday for it is NEVER hopeless. with much love

    Michael

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    Tijani Achamlal 

    5 years ago from Morocco

    You are welcome.I was there too and I know how it feels like.

    xoxoxoxoxox hugs hugs hugs xoxoxoxoxox

  • Dim Flaxenwick profile imageAUTHOR

    Dim Flaxenwick 

    5 years ago from Great Britain

    James wolve,

    Your expressive comment has touched my heart. (therefore I must still have one)

    I cannot thank you enough for the encouragement this has given me.

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    Tijani Achamlal 

    5 years ago from Morocco

    Your poem has vast potential. I like the pregnant imagery ,the analogies and the metaphor.I really feel your pain and so sorry for the things to be ended in that way. Remember: strong walls shake but never collapse.

    Smile even through your tears, be strong even through your fears.Remember: The person who cares lot for others, is the one who needs more care than others. The person who makes others laugh and smile all the time, is the one who holds lot of pain in heart. The person who tries to be a good friend to all, is the one who needs a best friend for own. The person who always smiles and says I m fine, is the one who is broken at heart. But still strong enough to believe that at end everything is going to be fine.

    I voted up.

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