I want to go home...
Home is where the heart is...Home is where my memories are whether; they be good or bad. Home is where I can put up my feet without any hesitations. Home is where I can cry out loud if sad or laugh out loud if happy. Those 4 walls can take in all my nonsense without judging me. I can be myself and be a natural and care free and no worries about what those 4 walls will think about me...WHY? Why do I think that home is where I am my coziest and safe?
We all are taught that the walls are non-living things made of bricks and cement. These non living things have no feelings and do not need air to breathe and water to hydrate. Non-living things are going to stand stationary (unless hit by a natural disaster) without a blink. Maybe knowing that the home we live in; the walls that we are free in; are deaf, dumb, blind, and without feelings so, we can be as free as possible; since our little secret won't be spilled out thus, we have a "don't care" attitude within those 4 walls. Those 4 walls cannot give me comfort since it does not have passion, emotions or a heart.
I wish I had the same "don't care" attitude towards the world and be as clean as I would be sitting at home than outside; with no pretexts of someone judging me and I getting perturbed by their remarks. I should be ME when I am outside of the house just as I am myself when inside the 4 walls. This kind of attitude will make me happy and content in whatever situation I am in and I don't have to go rushing into those 4 walls of mine where I have to rewind myself and go through the series of events which made me feel uncomfortable.
Life is short, and Time is money. Ask a patient who has been given couple of months to live and he will tell you the essence of time and life. Why do we have to live in that pretext of being judged. We are individuals and we gotta have a different opinion and that's what makes us different and unique. We can be as free in the world as we are in those 4 walls and believe me, life will be more fun loving and less stressful.
I know I am going to work on those guidelines and show the world my true colors so; that at the end of the day, when I am heading home. I am NOT going home with a heavy heart but a happy and content one who is going to those 4 walls to rest and take up another day with a different new challenge.