~Life Commanded Me~
In life we are forced to make decisions that are sometimes hard to bare, but eventually life commands us to do whats right...
`Changes in life~
I tried to reinvent this perfect world away from kaos and confusion
hid myself beneath the layers of this fatal lie and disillusion
yet I found the more I ran the more life reeled me in
every door I tried to jam, Life busted the hinges and said here I am!
every window I tried to slam, Life bursted through like a broken dam
flooding my emotions, evoking my memory, forcing me to come full circle
Life! had commanded me
but the past wasn't done with me yet, memories of unresolved issues and regrets came cascading like a beast in the wind demanding I let hem in
unwed pregnancy, infidelity, promiscuous sex, low self esteem had even joined the team, in a run down shack on a road of broken dreams
yet to me I was the ghetto queen or so it seem, living ghetto fabulous on the ghetto scene, drapped from head to toe
ya' betta ask somebody if ya don't know, was the famous ghetto slogan and only a chosen few could hold them and load them
I dine on everything I could see that is everything the ghetto had to offer me, even had my own cleche'
"Two wrongs don't make us right, but it dam sure make us even, if you ain't doin it my way, brotha your leaven"
yes! so I thought I was living large and in charge, but my life was totally scarred and I was the only who couldn't see the bars
so I reinvented this perfect world away from kaos and confusion, but life in its infamous way came knocking one day
I stood there in silence as I opened the door, to face the rage that had kept me caged
lunged at the pain that once stole my peace, released the tears that never ceased, before life would set me free, I had to face my history
"Life! had commanded me