Lost Again

Green with envy, red with rage
A tiger pacing in his own cage.

Help is needed in order to deal
Searching to express all that I feel

The true emotions still lie buried
Scared and frightened a mask I carried

Vulnerable and weak afraid to seem
Hidden behind anger from low self esteem

If all is lost, can it be found?
Not sure how an idea like that must sound.

Tried so little and surprised in the end
What effort now could possibly mend?

The bad I learned is weighted more than the good
Hoping that now the balance tipped we could

The years came and passed so quickly
Lack of attention left connections so sickly

Refusing to give up no matter the cost
Before everything I love is completely lost.