Not My Everyday?

I want to stand on the mountain,

Looking far and wide.

Feels like I'm stuck in the valley

With an emptiness inside.

I want to see every rainbow

Span across the sky.

All I see is the falling rain,

Like a teardrop in my eye.

I want to hear a symphony,

One to move my heart.

The silence is so deafening.

Wonder when the music starts.

I want to live the "Happily"

That's "ever after".

I'm running through the final act,

In hopes of hearing laughter.

Is this to be my everyday?

This path of my life.

A man who seems so lost, alone.

Trapped on the edge of a knife.