Stupid Thing To Do
It was a stupid, stupid thing to do
Wasn't it?
It was the momentary decision that would rule the rest of my life
It was the moment that changed history
And it has come back to haunt me ever since
I sit up at night, unable to sleep
I don't want to leave the house
If I'm out, I don't want to come back
I want so badly to pick up the phone
I was driving the other day and crying
I've had practice with that
And I looked over at the passenger seat
I wanted to see you there, to talk to you
Just like in the movies
But you're gone, you're not coming back
I wanted, I wanted everything
I want everything, I want you back
I want to stop crying and to understand
I want you to forgive me for not seeing what was right in front of me
I want to go back and bug the nurses and the doctors and do it right this time
When you ask me to help you, I want to know how
What to do
I want you to open your eyes and your heart to beat
I want you to breath and to yell at me and tell me how stupid I was
It was a stupid thing to do
To give my heart to you
And I know you will never truly leave me
But I also know you will never come back
I miss you more than I can say
There are no words
No one can prepare someone for this
And I need to know you forgive me
Because I cannot forgive myself
It was a really stupid thing to do
Wasn't it?
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