The Color of Green (Envy)

People try their best to hurt me with their lies and outrageous claims

I stand up because I have a voice, I have battled a lot worse than you

Climbing whatever obstacles

My tears may shed and hurt may ensue

but I shall remain stronger than you

I give of myself not for accolade or with expectation

I love freely and unconditionally because I'm after all me

I speak my mind

The time it has taken you to try and crush me is wasted you see

I am loved and admired by plenty

Your Jealousy spurs me on

Yeah, I'm opinionated

I have had to be

There is more to me than your vengeful eyes can see

I have weathered the storm but knew without question

I would come through unscathed did I mention?

I feel yet I am expected to silence that which bubbles and threatens to spill

That will never be

You tell lies as it relates to me and I hear the whispers, still I rise

You demean me with words

But you will never crush the spirit that within me

Your falsehood is a result of deep seeded Jealousy

For the Freedom and openness that you associate with me

You want what I have, you want to be me

You want my essence, the very heart of me

You call me vulgar, even crude

I accept that I have had to be

Pretentious!

I will never be the jezebel you pretend not to be

You hide your true self but eventually the real you will emerge

And one Day the two shall meet and it will be there for others to see

Until you see what you truly are

Your life will continue just as you

Pretending from Day to Day that you are

What your words speak as true

But your actions betray the reality that is you.

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Written in 2010 or 2011. The Title originally "The Color Green" it was the only point I can remember not recuperating from surgery. Fed up with the bullying of Friends and the outright lies regarding my sexual orientation, my religion, being cast in a light that really was demeaning and hurtful from People I did for, who really set out to tarnish my name. I smile now in memory because It really was the culminating point at which I started having a voice again. I'd lost it for a time, my ability to stand for Justice and fairness. So I guess I owe those People a debt of gratitude.