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The Eby Way:

Updated on June 9, 2012

Challenge, Release, Heal

I’ve been back from my nature walk for a while near our home in Cave Junction, Oregon.

The sky is clear and blue; temperature must be around 83 degrees with a slight breeze.

I wore my straw hat to protect my neck and face from the sunshine. And I always use my black, walking stick; carved with a mysterious sandal-colored, wizard face, who wears a long, flowing beard.

Today, I want to write an article about the power of love, life challenges, and healthy ways to meet these challenges.

My wife and I are looking forward to celebrating our thirty-first wedding anniversary in December. I will be turning 60 on September the 6th. We’ve made plans to spend a few days at the Mill Resort in CoosBay, which is on the Oregon coast. This is one of our favorite places.

We have been through much together. I thought I would share with you one of my dark secrets: my beloved Susan suffers from chronic mental illness.

For more information on this significant life challenge, let me flash you back to April of 1987. The struggle with her mental illness had endured over the course of our first ten years of marriage:

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The alarm rang: It was 5.45 in the morning; soon I’d have to get up for work. I was feelings rather snug in our warm water bed on this cold April morning in 1987. Susan as usual had rolled over on her side by the opposite end of the bed with her back towards me.

I had learned that I couldn’t hug her when she was in that position. If I tried she would usually wake up and shove my arm away.

Last summer, I remembered learning from one of Susan’s personalities that Susie had married me not Susan. Susie was warm, sensual, and sexy. Susan, in contrast, was more intelligent, sensitive, and sharing; but had trouble expressing and receiving affection.

As I lay there thinking about our struggle, Susan rolled over facing me. I knew that I could hug her now. I thoroughly enjoyed embracing Susan. With my arms around her, we start to talk:

“Gary, I’m feeling pretty agitated,” she said, holding her arms close to her chest while grabbing and letting go of her wrists over and over.

“What’s up Sweetheart?”

“Gary, I feel trapped—trapped.”

“Trapped?”

“Yes. Marge is going to trap me in my lies. I am making all of this up. I’m a liar.”

“Honey, Marge has told you that your personalities are real. You trust her; you love her. She wouldn’t lie to you.”

“This can’t be happening, Gary. I don’t believe it. My dad couldn’t do those things. I’m making this all up to explain my behavior. I am just crazy.”

“I know this stuff sounds pretty bizarre. I believe your dad did those things. I’ve seen other dads that did it to their children. Honey, you’ve got to believe this. If you don't, you won't get well."

“I won’t get well then. I’ll only believe it if my dad confesses.”

“Why should your dad confess? He’s either a very sick man who will protect himself, or he is blocking all of the memories too.”

“How do you know I’m not making this up then?”

“Sweetheart, ask Marge.”

“Yeah, I guess I could.”

“Can you tell me more about your session with Marge yesterday?”

“I was there for an hour and a half. I don’t remember most of it. Marge had me do some mental tests, like figuring out mazes and things. She asked Lois to come but Lois didn’t. I did the test myself then Lois came, but she wouldn’t tell Marge she was here. Marge found out later and had Lois do the tests.”

“What else happened?”

“I don’t know. Gary, I’m sick of all of this.” Then Susan stopped talking.

Susan got up from the bed for a moment and shook her head. She was frowning and her shoulders were hunched over. She looked angry but confused. She just let herself fall back into the bed. I knew she had changed again, and sleeping seemed to help.

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So, how did we survive all of this? Well, I will tell you more about it in the future if you are interested.

For now, I’ve decided to go on a walk again. I cut through the path in front of our lovely home that takes me to the nearby golf course. The terrain is hilly with rolling verdant, manicured mounds.

Scattered Ponderosa Pines, mighty Acorn trees, and Blue Spruce decorate my view. A cascading fountain in the middle of the course refreshes my stride. Purple-green colored mountains encapsulate this glorious vision.

My walk takes me to a road behind the golf course that climbs gradually up a 45 degree incline. I feel the pleasant burn in my hips and legs as I dig down with the walking stick to increase the pace.

Before I enter the pine scented woods, twenty-seven wild turkey’s cross my path. The adult birds waddle and bob, protecting their baby chicks by their hyper vigilance.

You might ask, “But what is the first step to handling life challenges in more positive, healthier ways?”

I smile, and take in a deep breath, thankful for love, life, and the omnipresent nourishment of my soul that surrounds us all.

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      andrew 

      8 years ago

      abused by my older brother for 55 years tried different things but i still suffer thks andrew

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      Money Glitch 

      8 years ago from Texas

      This hub gave me a delightful chuckle because I think it is important to be able to recognize Suzie from Susan within our love ones. There would be fewer divorces if people could recognize those little changes within each other that can make live run a little smoother. Rating back up!:)

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      Lawrence Carroll 

      8 years ago

      Nice to be in touch Gary. Let's connect sometime.

      In strength

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      James 

      8 years ago

      I would like to feature you on my network which you visited recently. I have a feeling I am meant to do this so I am honoured to offer you this feature. I am here on Hub pages but would do this through my network, just join up and we can discuss it there (no catches, I represent Angels Launch not a marketing company).

      Hope to see you there where we can get your message out.

      James

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      michael 

      8 years ago

      Hello Gary,

      Just found your comments on my site made 1-2 months ago. I appreciate it so much and from my brief look it's a wonderful opportunity for you to serve successfully to the community.

      Just one small thing on my firefox browser and your hubpages website I could hear properly your video which I was so keen to know more about your healing work.

      Look forward to hear from you more.

      My e-mail address you could find on my site.

      Warmly,

      Michael.

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      Peggy Woods 

      9 years ago from Houston, Texas

      Happy Birthday to you and Happy Anniversary to a couple that have figured out the most important things in life despite any obstacles thrown in their path. Hope you enjoyed your romantic getaway.

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      VioletSun 

      9 years ago from Oregon/ Name: Marie

      It interesting that a mental health professional met and fell in love with a woman who has multiple personalities due to childhood trauma, and yet, how perfect; both of you are teachers for one another. Would be wonderful if your wife would one day wake up with one personality, finally integrated and at peace. I cannot imagine what it must be like to not know what expression of the mind/personality we are going to be in the next minute.

      Enjoyed reading your hub; you have a way with words.

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      Gary Eby 

      9 years ago from Cave Junction, Oregon

      Lisa, you're a great friend. Don't worry about the small stuff. I always appreciate your inspiring thoughts. Namaste...Gar.

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      Lisa J Warner AKA Lisa Luv 

      9 years ago from Conneticut, USA

      OH BOY and above that word wasn't suppose to be hate--but hesitate=)to bed 4 me=)

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      Lisa J Warner AKA Lisa Luv 

      9 years ago from Conneticut, USA

      LOL-- Sorry for the poor spelling above--I saw one I wrote right instead of write--I didn't use a spell check--not that it would had caught that any way--I am very tired tonight=)

      SWEET DREAMS--

      Ps. I am glad you told me about your writing--I am like 4000e-mails behind just on yahoo alone=)eeek!-a wee bit overwhelmed-to say the least=)Please never hate to let me know-You would always be doing me a favor to get a chance to read your writing--cause really you are amazing! Ta!

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      Lisa J Warner AKA Lisa Luv 

      9 years ago from Conneticut, USA

      WOW GARY--

      WOW--

      First as I am reading --I am thinking this guy needs to right like for something like NATIONAL GEOGRAPHIC--Than I am thinking how lovely you and your wife share the excursions and you can write about them and how purfect.

      Than you blew me away with purfect, excellent, touching, (did I say purfect?) writing!

      Not to mention you and your wife are dolls..!

      BIG HUGS TO BOTH OF YOU--she and you are big time saints to say the least in many ways!

      HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!

      &

      HAPPY ANIVERSERY TO BOTH YOU LUVVY DOVVEYS=)

      May God Always Bless You With All There is To be Blessed With....

      PURE LOVE

      Lisa

      PS. So happy we are connected--you are a major blessing--

      PSS..LOL Aren't I lucky I am such a pest to be friends with cause it is such a great treasure when I end up with a friend like you!

      Night Dear

      PEACE OUT=)

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