The Greatest Thing- Journal Challenge, Day 10
I saw the greatest thing today. Today I saw that in the aftermath of my consecration and newness of mind, “I have enough time to do everything that must be done and I’m loving it!” I adopted the affirmation from the facebook status of Internet Business Coach Sandi Krakowski many months ago, but today it came to life for me as truth in action.
I woke up energized, choosing to address present needs on the spot instead of following my usual morning practices. So upon going to the bathroom, I gave it a much needed cleaning that I didn’t have the energy to do the week before. Then, I was compelled to wash my hair while in the shower. I didn’t worry about being off schedule and was elated to find that not only did I have time to complete my usual practices of journaling, bible readings, exercise and meditation; I ate breakfast and had a few minutes to spare before the 7:00 a.m. prayer line conference call. It was the greatest thing to me because I woke up with so much energy following the week long consecration after feeling like I could not make it through at times. Combined with the fact that my present morning choices did not sidetrack the maintenance of my spiritual practice schedule was major for me. I was hyped.
However, by mid afternoon the energy level petered out and I began to shut down. And then I saw the hardest thing today, which was my struggle with the choice of not journaling to post publically. I struggled with how it would look, what some people might think and how I would feel. I saw that I can be intense, complicate things and put undue pressure on myself. I made a hard conscious choice not to write today even though I had committed to this 30-day journaling challenge and the committee in my head was against it because I decided that it was more important for me to lighten up and be okay with the choice, independent of anyone or anything else. In revisiting my objective for doing the challenge, I am still committed to completing it while honoring where I am in each moment of my process and deeper understanding of myself.
Today I saw the greatest thing and the hardest thing in me and it was good. I take responsibility for the choices I make and I am okay with who I am, what I do and the results.
NOTE: Write Here, Right Now: 30 Day Journaling Challenge day 10 completed on day 13. Thank you God!