The Inadequate False Notion and the Cure -Don’t Expect Too Much

Calling and calling, your phone calls are in excess

I have begun to feel like you don’t get the mess(age)

That I’m occupied and can’t talk, honestly, busy to boot

Maybe I’m working hard to take home some loot

You keep texting and asking of my whereabouts

You’ve got honestly no clue some of the cards I am dealt

You think your presence is the only thing I live for

But I guess you don’t know that my life includes much more

It scares you when I push you away

You beg and you plead, “please baby stay”

You apologize and get withdrawn, but to me it is just a con

Cus’ I’ve heard it so many times

Seriously now, have I heard all your lines?

Every time the same routine, but all you say is that I am being mean

You apologize for upsetting me but come on, don’t you see?

The words you spew don’t work on me

For they are yesterdays remarks and they don’t mean a thing

Only would if you were the king

And all your peasants would look up to you cos’ you ruled the place

You like being cherished and coddled like a child

This is why I shiver when your number is dialed

For you are needy and insecure

The way a kitty cat goes “purrr”

You’re terrified and you’re weak, especially when you act like this

And don’t think it will go away with a single kiss

You suffocate me and it makes me sick

And this hatred I’ve created for you makes me feel like a prick

I wonder out loud how we’ve become this

Can’t you see, we’re opposites and never agree

I don’t ask for a lot, as strange it that may sound

I want to be listened to after an overwhelming day

I want to speak my mind and have my sorrows taken away

I want to complain and have you believe

In my hopes and dreams and work-place schemes

Why don’t you…

Laugh at my stories, for everyone else thinks they are swell

Instead of Mr. Stoneface looking like you’re suddenly unwell

You don’t have a fever but your face says something’s up

As right now you look like a little, ill pup

Why don’t you try acknowledging what I say

Give me some feedback on my day to day

Wholeheartedly listen and show in your eyes

Show me it’s me, who you idolize

Flowers to my house oh, what a surprise

I should expect them by now, this sweet demise

Every time you feel hurt, like I’ve pushed you down

Then you make me queen for a day and you give me a crown

But it doesn’t last long; it’s a sad love song

I’m unappreciated by you, no matter what I do

Everyone else thinks I’m great, why not you, mate?

One last thing before I finish

One last thing I’d love for you to diminish…

You don’t have to eat around the clock

But every time I say no you start to balk

I tell you “no” only because I care, but all I get is that irritating glare

You degrade people and hate

You won’t ever debate

You can be rude and crass and are the first to judge

And then of course you will be the last too budge

You’ve got a hard head and won’t ever change

For you haven’t thus far, and now you just think I’m deranged

All because I expect too much

I expect the woman at the store to not be grouchy but polite

And then I get upset when she starts to pick a fight

I expect the snow to not fall today

As it is only one month till May

3-6 inches they said was forecasted

White snow falling here, other territories being blasted

With nuclear explosions and people in grief

Everyone somewhere has got their beef

How about we all just take a chill pill

People fighting over oil and land and the importance of it all- nil

I propose a toast to stop expecting so much

Like remember that movie, think it’s called Dutch?

He expected the boy to be perfectly behaved

But what he found was a boy who needed to be saved

Before we all get hurt worse and damage our inners

All around the world is a never-ending list of sinners

Everyone has their uniqueness and things that make them tick

Some people laugh at things that make others’ sick

If you don’t expect how people should act

Then you won’t get let down – that is a fact

You won’t falter to the floor, waiting to hear more

You won’t lose faith in your firm, when you don’t get a promotion

For you wouldn’t have created that inadequate false notion

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