The Struggle With Depression - a poem
The Struggle With Depression
Some days I really struggle with depression
I know it won't last,
I know this depression will pass
And I know I will thrive
But still...
Some days I feel stuck;
Stuck in my mind,
Stuck in the pit of my depression
It's hard to be positive on days like this
When I go to bed,
I hope and pray that I'm happier in the morning,
But sometimes that doesn't happen
Some days I wake up feeling the exact same way as I did the night before:
Depressed,
Worthless,
Heartbroken;
I wake up feeling burdened
Feeling as if I'm locked back in the cage that swings to and fro in darkness
I rise from my bed and
I stand up feeling a massive weight on my shoulders
I hate feeling this way
I hate feeling depressed and worthless
I just wish this depression would leave me for good
I wish happiness would stay and
My depression would flee
And never return
But I know life isn't like that
Life isn't always fair
You always don't get what you want
And life isn't easy and smooth-sailing
I hate my depression so much
I hate when I feel trapped in my mind;
The feeling of confusion, paranoia, and uncertainty
The uncomfortable feeling of my racing thoughts
I hate the feeling in my stomach
I hate the weight I feel on my shoulders
I hate the weight I feel in my chest
I hate the feeling in my throat;
The feeling of wanting to cry but unable to
The feeling of dry tears coming from my eyes
But even though I have my own depressed, bad days
I gotta hold onto the hope I have found
The hope that I will grow and thrive
The hope that I can help others
The hope that my God will work everything out for my good
This hope is the only thing that saves me
This hope keeps me going
This hope gives me the ability to endure and carry on
I know with patience and perseverance I'll be alright
-Nick Wolf 1/28/2014