Whatever Comes To Mind #7
Dreams and the future.
I had a dream last night in which I bought and gave a ring to my girlfriend. It wasn't an engagement ring but instead it was a promise ring. In the dream I seemed very happy after giving it to her and I gave her somewhat of a speech about the ring and what I mean by it. I won't tell the whole speech here but basically I told how much she means to me and that I want to marry her one day. When I think of this dream I am happy about the idea of it. I used to say that I never wanted to get married or maybe even have kids. Now I am considering possibly doing both in the future. I mean I know I want kids and I'd get married if I finally found a meaningful reason to do it and I feel like the woman I'm with is 100% worth it. My views on these ideas have obviously changed as I've grown. As for the dream of me potentially marrying my girlfriend, I would not mind this at all. If this were to happen in the future I'd be nothing but happy with how it turned out . But what I'm getting at is that I'm still only 19 and I have many years to figure all this out. I know a lot of people who would say that I'm way too young to even be worrying about matters such as this. Yet the future is drawing near everyday and I can't help but think about stuff like this. Everyday something comes up where I wonder about what I'll be doing a few months from now. Like how far I'll be in terms of what I want in life. It's. crazy how any choice, small or major, can affect the next day, week, or year. Ironically before falling asleep and having this dream, I was up, couldn't sleep because I was thinking about things like getting a car and/or starting to save money for one and looking for an apartment. I want to do both of these things and both of them will help me move forward in my life. Anyway... I think the future is what I make it and so far I've been making it great. I know what I want for the most part in many aspects of my life. I'm still making decisions everyday and there are several more to come. For now I'll just enjoy the present and anticipate what's to come, whatever it may be, I've got so much more years left to live.