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When the Muse Fails to Show Up

Updated on October 16, 2015

It Finally Happened

After one-thousand articles on HubPages…..

After two-thousand articles for customers….

After three novels…..

After countless short stories…..

After four years of writing five and six days per week….

It finally happened…..

The muse left me.

I woke up one morning and I didn’t have a clue what I would write about.

I woke up that morning and couldn’t care less if I did write.

August 20, 2015 was the day.

And it scared the hell out of me.

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A Little History Is Necessary

I’ve had my share of jobs. I’ve worked for fifty years and trust me, there have been some clunkers and some winners in the job pool of my past. I learned from them all but there are some I have no desire ever doing again. Shoveling pig poop at a farm immediately comes to mind.

Teaching was the highlight of my work history. For eighteen years I dispensed book learning with life lessons and I loved every minute of it. I would wake up in the morning eager to go to work, and how many people can say that? But the day came five years ago when the passion was gone, so I quit teaching and became a writer….and loved it!

I had replaced one passion with another. I was riding a winning streak in the employment gambling hall. I loved writing, I had an inexhaustible supply of ideas and I developed a loyal following of readers who actually thought I had some talent.

I was in literary heaven.

And then the muse left me.

Like a junkie jonesin’ for the next fix, only to find out his supplier left town, I was figuratively shaking with the cold sweats.

My muse left me.

I was two-thirds of the way through my fourth novel and suddenly I didn’t like my characters. I could see a scene but was unable to translate it into words. Every article I wrote sounded like blah, blah and more blah. I had become a cut-out replica of myself, a one-dimensional facsimile of the writer I once was.

I bored myself with my tripe.

What the hell was I going to do?

This symbolizes my stale writing. I had become a shadow of my former self
This symbolizes my stale writing. I had become a shadow of my former self | Source

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A Simple Solution

I walked away.

“God, grant me the serenity, to accept the things I cannot change; the courage to change the things I can; and the wisdom to know the difference.”

I remembered lessons learned long ago, lessons about acceptance, lessons that told me when the going gets tough it’s all right for the tough to step aside and allow change to happen.

My wife, Bev, actually held the key. She told me I was still as creative as I always had been but I just hit a wall and was suffering from burn out. She told me to walk away from my writing and go feed the chickens, and when I was done with that go build a shed, and when that was done go work on the other projects that needed doing before winter arrived.

Well my daddy didn’t raise an idiot. I’ve come to trust in Bev’s wisdom, so that’s what I did. For three weeks I did very little writing. I satisfied customers and met their demands, and I wrote articles for HubPages that required very little creativity, but for the most part I just worked on our urban farm and shut my brain down. I got my hands dirty in the soil. I shoveled and dug, cultivated and harvested. I went for walks. I breathed in and breathed out, took care of our critters and thanked the gods for the great life I have. I enjoyed family and I bathed myself in the knowledge that life really is so very good.

And then……

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Silently in the Night She Creeps

That’s how it happens sometimes, at least for me. I was in bed, allowing my mind to float free after a busy day, when much to my delight the muse returned. I envisioned the tough streets of a dirty city, the struggles of its inhabitants, the daily grind of living life on life’s terms. I saw each character, I felt their pain, I heard their cries, I was totally plugged into their struggle.

And it felt wonderful.

My lover had returned!

“Where have you been?” I silently asked her.

“You were boring the hell out of me,” she replied sweetly. “I needed to get the hell away from you before I died of a terminal yawn.”

“Well I’m glad you returned, my friend.”

“Don’t celebrate yet, Billybuc. I’ll only stay if you promise to quit resting on your laurels and actually try to improve as a writer. No more coasting, Big Boy. Strap on some literary balls and soar to new heights, or I’m out of here with tomorrow’s trash. And try learning about balance, while you’re at it. Man does not live by writing alone. There’s a big world out there and you need to step away from the computer and live it. You don’t have to spend your entire existence writing. It’s all right to actually live life AND write. Now get busy or I’m hitting the pavement and I won’t be back.”

Our Old Nemesis

Was it writer’s block? A rose by any other name is still a rose, but personally I think it was simply a matter of burnout. I had written too much. I had become a clone of myself and in truth, I had become complacent. I had become satisfied with mediocrity and maybe a part of me was totally disgusted that I was settling for less than my best.

I know my muse was thoroughly disgusted, so she packed her bags and hit the highway, in search of a writer who was willing to do anything to be the best he/she could be.

I’m grateful she returned and gave me one last chance.

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Lesson Learned?

Or not! I don’t claim to be the brightest bulb in the package, so we’ll just have to wait and see. Right now I feel good. Right now I’m back running on all cylinders and the creative juices are flowing. I’ve written some pretty good stuff the past couple months, and my new novel is just about done in rough draft form. My muse and I are working well together and I’m grateful for that.

I’ve written like a man possessed these past four years. I know the clock is running out on me. Even if I live to be ninety, my most productive years are very limited in number, so a part of me wants to crank out as much as possible in the next few years. But still…..

Man does not live by writing alone, and I need to remember that. I need to remember that it’s all right to walk away occasionally and actually live the life I always write about. Who knows? By doing so, I just might become a better writer.

2015 William D. Holland (aka billybuc)

“Helping writers to spread their wings and fly”

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      Bill Holland 23 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Lawrence. If I'm still writing into my nineties I will consider myself a very lucky man.

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      Lawrence Hebb 23 months ago from Hamilton, New Zealand

      Bill

      The muse knows when it's time for a break. Glad she came back to you as I really enjoy your stories, by the way age is no barrier as some of the funniest stories have been when the over nineties (yes I said over 90s!!) have been up to mischief with hilarious results and the teenagers looking on like stunned mullets!

      Great hub, and take the breaks you need, your muse will love it!

      Lawrence

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      Bill Holland 23 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Sha, I've found my muse to always be close by. It's just a matter of me being receptive and a good host. :)

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      Shauna L Bowling 23 months ago from Central Florida

      Bill, she's here with me. I need to send her on an errand to Father Time. I need an extra satchel of the precious stuff.

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      Bill Holland 23 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Reynold Jay, I promise to keep it in mind and if in need, I'll give you a holler. What a generous offer, my friend. Thank you!

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      Reynold Jay 23 months ago from Saginaw, Michigan

      I figured that--I'm too busy to write!!It got pushed into a holding file. If others complain of running out of steam, send them to me. I'll get them busy in a flash. I moved on to children's books ( as you were kind enough to view and comment) and will never get back to this one.

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      Bill Holland 23 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Reynold Jay, thank you for those kind words. A heroine thriller novel? Maybe you should write it. I would take you up on that offer but I have three novels right now in various stages....thank you!

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      Reynold Jay 23 months ago from Saginaw, Michigan

      It is good that BEV is there and gave you good advice. This HUB made me laugh as you always do as you are such a free writing spirit that simply is a great writer. If you ever need a heroine thriller novel outline, write me and I'll send you one. (Bet you never need one).

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      Bill Holland 23 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Sha, if I see your muse, I'll ask her very politely to get a move on. :)

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      Shauna L Bowling 23 months ago from Central Florida

      I copied and pasted it to my Hubs folder, Bill. My muse and I will put it to good use when she speaks stronger than time constraints try to hinder us.

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      Bill Holland 23 months ago from Olympia, WA

      I agree, Sis! Hers was a wonderful comment.

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      Shauna L Bowling 23 months ago from Central Florida

      Bill, I think you're right; I need to write a hub centered around the theme of my comment.

      Paula, thank you!

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      Paula 23 months ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      Bill...hope you don't mind, but I need to let Sha know....if there was a hubby for the single-best "creative" & amusing comment.....she has won HANDS DOWN!!!

      Sha...really wonderful response to bill's topic!

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      Bill Holland 23 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Sha, there's a hub in this comment. Beautiful...write it, my friend,and thank you for sharing it with us....again, beautiful!

      bill

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      Shauna L Bowling 24 months ago from Central Florida

      Bill, my muse left me for a while too. She got burned out on the pressure she felt to work her magic for others' dreams and gain. It was too much weight on her shoulders to carry the burden of the financial strains of owning a home. She didn't like commercial writing - it put a noose around her creative neck and she was choking to death. So she walked away to a place where the air was free, unencumbered by financial responsibility. She left me a note that went something like this:

      Dear Sha: you know I love you dearly, but we can't go on like this. I can't breathe and you're a bundle of nerves. We've been pals for as long as I can remember. Ours has been a relationship of pure joy and freedom. We work well together. You listen to me and I you. But there's another voice in your head. It's screaming so loud I can't think straight. It's gotta go or we're done. Think about it my friend. Don't let the ogre come between us. With sincere love, Your Muse.

      I missed her greatly when she left. I did some soul searching and discovered that I love to write - on my terms. And hers. We're free spirits who work best without external pressures bearing on us.

      As much as I hated the thought of it, I went back to work. Funny thing. She came back. She rides with me when I'm travelling to my new day job and she's always within reach. I feel her breath and find comfort in her whispers. We have no worries. We're back to where we belong, riding that free wave of creativity, writing from the heart with no thoughts of filling the check book or making someone else's dream come true.

      Our life together is back on track. Now we can breathe.

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      True words, Flourish. I'll try not to look at the minute hand today. :) Thank you!

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      FlourishAnyway 24 months ago from USA

      Don't think about the clock. None of us have a true idea how long we have and it just causes undue stress. Glad she returned.

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Sis, I think your muse showed up there. When I'm done with her I'll point here east and tell her to get her butt in gear. :)

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you for that, Deb! Keep going out there...keep seeing for all of us. The world needs your articles about nature.

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      Paula 24 months ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      bro....My muse called this morning. She tells me she's lost, but having a wonderful time not having to bother with me!

      It's worse than this. Her sense of direction is as horrendous as mine. I'm looking at a long lonely road, showing no signs to Inspiration Lane!

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      Deb Hirt 24 months ago from Stillwater, OK

      Exactly. There's a reason why I am always at the lake, and I have been telling you that for years. Yes, I work, but I also let my mind go, and drink in the inspiration that is there and enjoy those candid moments with nature. There's a lot out there, so take time to see it with both eyes.

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      We shall see, Frank. I suspect you are right. Thank you!

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      Frank Atanacio 24 months ago from Shelton

      wait for the mailbag, I bet you your muse is coming back in a special package my friend.. special delivery :) chin up.....

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Thanks, Denise. Your comment falls under the heading "Misery Loves Company." LOL

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      Denise W Anderson 24 months ago from Bismarck, North Dakota

      Welcome to the club, Bill! We all have times when we have to take a break and then come back rejuvenated. For me, it usually comes with a sick feeling in my stomach, and aches in my head and legs. It says to me, "Slow down, you move to fast, got to make the mornin' last..." I, too, have to walk away and let well enough alone for a time, then come back later. Take care!

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Sis, I'll be laughing the rest of the night. How about this: I just check in with you and Bev from now on, whenever I decide to take on a new project? That should help greatly to avoid this ever happening again, right? :) If I can't count on you and Bev to cover my ass I really am in deep doo doo. :)

      Thanks for watching my butt!

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      Paula 24 months ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      Bro, My my, at first I took a little jump back! Just as quickly I thought, "Good Lord, he's come up for air!" Bout time buddy. What luck that our muse sometimes knows better than we do.

      Your accomplishments and your "numbers" alone are enough to baffle the average free-lancer. I think you nailed it....you were somewhat like The HULK of Hubpages for four years non-stop. (I know at one point I mentioned wanting to breathe for you)

      It was all worth it of course and just that bit of a break, some physical labor & fresh air and VIOLA! You're back to your pen, on a second honeymoon with your muse.

      Not I, bro.....my usual snail pace is just fine with me. My muse is just as much of a slacker as I am since retiring. We get along just swell. I'm so slow, I just woke up when I read the words, "three novels!" Looks like your poor excuse for a sister needs to get herself to Amazon.

      This time around, remember to take care of bill so your muse doesn't poop out again! You two are connected you know!...Love, Sis

      (Way to go Bev......they all must learn that the WIFE knows best!

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Audrey! I'm a slow learner. I should have seen the burnout coming but I didn't. Thank God for Bev. :)

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      Audrey Howitt 24 months ago from California

      I hate this saying, but am going to say it anyway: "Welcome to my world." Scary isn't it? I spent most of my summer goofing around with my husband and daughter for the same reason--I edited, but I needed to just live for a while--glad your muse is back! And write-on!

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Suraj, it's funny you mentioned that. It has become increasingly difficult to keep up with comments and responses of late. I'm hoping I'll get better organized so that isn't a problem. :) Thank you for mentioning that.

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      suraj punjabi 24 months ago from jakarta

      I always thought to myself when I see your activity on Hubpages,"the amount of comments this guy has to reply (and does it like clockwork), how long does he spend sitting in front of the computer and reply to them one by one? Let alone writing a hub once every few days and writing a novel. My God." I am not surprised you got burned out my friend. You need to take a break once in a while.

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Mary, I told my muse to give you a call, but usually she pays no attention to my wants. :)

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      Mary Craig 24 months ago from New York

      Listen Bill, could you have your muse call my muse? I think my muse needs a little talking to.

      Glad you're back on track though it's hard to imagine you ever being off track. I'm sure this'll be your best book yet!

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Very true, Jackie! Thank you, and I'll be by your new hub shortly.

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      Bill Holland 24 months ago from Olympia, WA

      Larry, I wish I had talked to you earlier. LOL Thank you!

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      Jackie Lynnley 2 years ago from The Beautiful South

      You are so right; everything gets old or rusty after awhile and when we come back even to old things they can look new again!

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      Larry Rankin 2 years ago from Oklahoma

      When my muse fails to show, I usually don't force it. I just move on to another creative venture, maybe build a spice rack.

      Very introspective.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Kailey! I believe the more we share the more we help others...that and love are my guiding stars. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you drbj! I don't know how my muse does it but I'm sure glad she does.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Bill. We are having a perfect fall day so far, so I need to get away from the computer and do a few odd jobs outside. Thanks for stopping by and Happy Sunday to you.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      I look forward to it, Jo! Thanks for stopping by despite your busy schedule, and we'll talk soon.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      It is a beautiful weekend, Maria. Thank you and I wish you the same.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      It's so interesting, Zulma, that others noticed it and I did not. I think there's a lesson there; now I just have to remember it as I go forth. Thank you for sharing that....you are appreciated.

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      social thoughts 2 years ago from New Jersey

      Very well said and written, Bill. So many of us go through these hard times. I've wondered if my own have been from writing almost nonstop for so long, too, and is really a burn out rather than a block. Thank you for sharing with your beautiful writing!

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      drbj and sherry 2 years ago from south Florida

      I love your creative Muse, Bill. How lucky you are to have a Muse who can come up with dialogue like: 'terminal yawn.' She is a keeper for sure.

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      Bill De Giulio 2 years ago from Massachusetts

      Hi Bill. So glad your muse returned. Apparently you are human after all. :) My muse comes and goes and I am okay with that. My day job is hectic as can be at the moment so my free time is limited and there is much to do to prepare for winter here. But, it's also my favorite time of the year so I get outside to enjoy the weather as often as possible knowing full well what is coming soon. The ideas are there and will find their way to written words soon enough. Have a wonderful weekend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Ann, thank you so much. It's raining today so I suspect the critters won't be seeing too much of me today. :) Emergency and I'm there despite the weather, but it better be an emergency. :) Happy Weekend my friend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Venkatachari M, I think I have decades of creativity that I didn't let out now demanding to be released. I have no logical explanation for it, but I'm very happy it finally showed up. I was running out of years. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you so much, Lori. Even if no one buys those books I'm proud of them. As for the farm, I'm just getting it ready for winter weather and hoping I didn't forget anything. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Maj, I'm howling at your comment. Way too funny! Typical male???? Well, offer him beer and pizza and he'll be back. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      John, I think it's HP and not your computer. There have been some weird things going on with that site. Anyway, laying on the ground watching clouds just happens to be a favorite pastime of mine....good to know I'm not alone in that activity. Thanks my friend and Happy Weekend to you.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Dora, it was necessary and I'm glad it happened. It woke me up to the fact that I can be much, much better. Thank you!

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      Jo Alexis-Hagues 2 years ago from Bedfordshire, U.K

      Well, Bill, all I can say is, it's good to know that you're human, and there is hope for the rest of us. ;)

      For me, the ideas are there, but the problem is writing them down. I've been pretty snowed under lately, but I'll be getting back on that horse soon. I saw that you've been pretty busy also, but I'll contact you soon.

      I'm glad to know that you're back on form.

      My very best always.

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      Maria Jordan 2 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Dear Bill,

      I am forever stressing self care with my students and those I love.

      So happy you are discovering the necessity of life balance...with Bev and your muse around to remind you 'here and there', you are golden.

      Have a beautiful weekend.

      Love, Maria

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      Zulma Burgos-Dudgeon 2 years ago from United Kingdom

      I don't know many people, writer or not, who hasn't gone through this. I've been there a few times. It makes me question if I was even cut out to write. It makes me dissatisfied with the stuff I had written that won me high praise. My husband has the same idea as your Bev. Don't try to force it. Just walk away. When your ready, you'll come back to it and you'll enjoy it more. He's right. (Don't tell him I said that.) I try to walk away but then the guilt starts. 'You should be writing,' I tell myself. So I do. And it's crap. So I look for excuses to avoid writing.

      It's only in the last few weeks that I've taken my husband's advice and walked away. I've started taking better care of myself. Less coffee while sitting in front of the screen and more time preparing better meals for myself. More walks in the park with my husband. Working on craft projects for the holidays. Little by little the desire to write is starting to come back. I've started a story that was inspired by a news article but I'm not forcing myself to write just to get some words on paper. I'm 2/3rds of the way through and am letting it simmer while I work on the ending. Is it going to be any good? I don't know. All I know is that I'm writing again and that is good. A strong work ethic is great, but sometimes the best thing you can do to stay productive is nothing at all.

      By the way, I've noticed a difference in the quality of your work lately. You seem more...present in the moment. Not that your previous stuff was bad, it just that you weren't there. It was like you had lost your voice. But now I can hear it again and I like what I'm reading. Glad to have you back.

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      Ann Carr 2 years ago from SW England

      I was surprised to hear your muse had left for a while. Burnout is inevitable eventually I suppose - if we don't have some time away from the writing. However, it's not really time away is it? When I'm doing other things, there is still a little part of my little brain that is taking notes about people, places and feelings. That doesn't mean I'm not totally focusing on the present, just that an automatic jotter is working within.

      You are a brilliant writer and that will remain but it's a good idea to get out and smell the roses once in a while, get some good solid exercise and refresh the body - refreshment of the spirits will follow, I've found.

      Good advice from you, as always. Enjoy your activities outside, enjoy your family, then enjoy your writing; it will sit quite happily behind them, watching and waiting to play its part.

      Have a satisfying Saturday, bill - run with the wind, talk to your 'critters' and enjoy your world, then tell us all about it!

      Ann :))

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      Venkatachari M 2 years ago from Hyderabad, India

      I don't think I have some muse at all. Otherwise, I should not be publishing a single hub in a month! May be too much casual and not caring.

      But, you have been publishing more good articles even during this period of your muse wandering away from you. I wonder how you pull on continuously. This hub is a good one with great message and advice. Thanks for sharing it.

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      Lori Colbo 2 years ago from Pacific Northwest

      Thank you for sharing this billybuc. I think we can all relate in some way. I think your urban farming is a great way to transfer your creativity. Soil, Sun, fresh air, and the smell of manure can be very cathartic. I love your posts on Facebook about your adventures. I hear excitement. Glad you're back in the saddle. Congrats on the New book coming out and the one you're writing.

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      travmaj 2 years ago from australia

      I am not amused with my muse. Clearly it has deserted me for pastures new, for someone more appreciative, someone with insight, wit, savoir faire, ( not you is it?) Anyway, he’s gone. He’s typical male. Have just visited New Caledonia and Vanuatu and he obviously wasn’t impressed. I’m not sure I want him back. Watch this blank space Bill - it’s all that’s left! lol and cheers.

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      John Hansen 2 years ago from Queensland Australia

      Bill, I am having problems with technology today. My computer and iPad seem to be possessed and are doing some weird stuff. I know I already left a comment on this great hub last night..but it has disappeared. Now when I started to write another because the first didn't show up..I find some totally unrelated text in the comment box that I did not put there or copy from anywhere else. Who needs a muse if your computer is haunted by a spirit :) Anyway, I heard you say countless times that you never suffered the dreaded "writer's block" so it must have been a case of "burn out" as you say. Good for Bev for giving you the right advice, and so glad you got your mojo back. Where would we your followers be without your hubs? I think our muses demand much the same. When my mind goes black and I sit staring at the keyboard without being able to touch a key or write a word I am urged to walk outside or into the garden. There is always plenty to do and the fresh air and nature itself reinvigorates my mind. Yesterday I just lay on my back on the grass and watched clouds pass by for about half an hour (something I haven't done since I was a child) now I have so many ideas floating around in my head that I am having trouble choosing what to write about first. Have a great weekend.

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      Dora Isaac Weithers 2 years ago from The Caribbean

      You still have an awesome Muse, Bill. I didn't know they could go that long without leaving. Thanks to Bev, you dealt with the loss effectively, and now we learn from you. It could only get better.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Sharyn, what a very lovely thing for you to say. Thank you so much. It's good to have you back among us for however long you stay. You have been missed by us old-timers. :) Have a wonderful weekend and again, thank you!

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Clive, that's better than beer and pretzels, I guess. :) Thanks my friend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Very true, Manatita. Where would we writers be without our creative muse? I hate to think of it.

      Blessings, my friend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Bill. It's interesting that you noticed it before I did. LOL It seems you and Bev know me better than I do. :) I appreciate it, Bill; have a great weekend.

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      Sharon Smith 2 years ago from Northeast Ohio USA

      Hiya Bill,

      I have been so far removed from my own writing for years now and also reading the writings of my HP friends. I'm embarrassed actually. I haven't taken the time to slow down and read a hub for way too long. But today I actually opened my daily "HP notification" email and was drawn to the title of your new hub. Never in a million years did I think I would actually read the entire article. But, here I am. And I simply would like you to know that you are a really really good writer. This piece caught my attention and kept it throughout! You have a wonderful way with words that makes me keep going because I want to know more. And so, I thank you, for calming me and intriguing me enough to relax and just read. Well done my friend! May your muse always be nearby.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Good for you, Ruby. I feel that way on weekends. I skip a lot of hubs now if they are posted on weekends. I just can't read another hub by Friday afternoon and I no longer allow myself to write one. :) Have a great time in Ark!

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Marlene, too funny! Oh well, enjoy the garden and hopefully the muse will find her way back. If not, like you say, good eatings. :)

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Buildreps, thank you so much. All is well here now. My muse and I have come to an agreement. :) Have a great weekend and peace to you always.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Janine, you never have to say you are sorry. I appreciate you more than you could know. Have a super weekend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Linda, not a day goes by that I don't say those words...thank God for Bev. :) Thank you my friend.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank goodness for sure, Mike! I was feeling a bit lonely and lost for awhile. :) Thanks my friend and Happy Weekend to you.

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      Clive Williams 2 years ago from Nibiru

      The muse leaves me daily. Sometimes i just have to tie it down and feed it on milk and oats!

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      manatita44 2 years ago from london

      Well Bill, this one is definitely exceptional, like so many of the past. Flows like a vibrant river, with no trace of stagnancy anywhere. So this time, you were really receptive to the muse. Jai Muse! Jai to your creative flow! Continue ...

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      William Leverne Smith 2 years ago from Hollister, MO

      One of your best, Bill... and certainly should become a classic for writer's on HubPages! I recognized it when it happened to you, actually... I'd had a similar spell the end of June. Not as severe, because I wasn't as committed... but, very similar symptoms... also similar recovery - take a walk, figuratively and literally. Balance is the answer, as you discovered... but you say it so well! Thanks for sharing - burnout is very real! But life does go on, and the muse does return!! ;-)

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 2 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Bill, I have been feeling the same way for sometime. I deleted all email yesterday without reading any. I felt bad and I know I missed some good stories and poetry but I just couldn't make myself open one. Today my friend Tammy and I are going to Ark. I'm not even sure how long I'll stay, I guess till my son kicks us out. Hee. My point is, I'm burned out. Hopefully my desire to write will return, if not, there's still a life out there and I'm going to see what it is. I'm glad your muse returned. I love all you write.

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      Marlene Bertrand 2 years ago from Northern California, USA

      I'm glad you got your muse back. The amount of time I spend in the garden is in direct correlation to the relationship between me and my muse. I've been spending a LOT of time in the garden. I need to hire a private investigator. I don't know where my muse is. I think she's on a Royal Caribbean cruise, enjoying her time away. Will she return? I don't know, but my cilantro is coming up nicely.

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      Buildreps 2 years ago from Europe

      Goodmorning Bill. It's a miracle you hit a wall only now after thousands of article and three completed novels. You've a wise woman. It was good to just step away. Everything is perfectly fine with me. I'm just a little less active on HP, and busy with other things. Have a great day and wonderful weekend. Namasté brother...

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      Janine Huldie 2 years ago from New York, New York

      Bill, sorry been a very hectic morning here, but yes I have these moments myself and walking away sometimes it just what the doctor ordered for the writer and just glad it helped you! Have a wonderful weekend now ;)

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      Linda Lum 2 years ago from Washington State, USA

      Bill, if even YOU are hit with writer's block once in a while, there might be hope for the rest of us. I'm glad you found your Muse once again (and thank God for Bev for steering you in the right direction). Happy Friday.

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      mckbirdbks 2 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Hello Bill. Good to know you are searching for balance. It is not easy to allocate just the right energy to just the right project. Thank goodness she returned.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you DDE! I appreciate the kind words.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Melissa, I like the way your muse thinks. LOL Mine says go work in the backyard. I think I need to borrow your muse. :)

      Have a great weekend and thank you!

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      Devika Primić 2 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Your great attitude has taught me lots about writing. Thank you for sharing this hub.

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      Melissa Propp 2 years ago from Minnesota

      Happy Friday Bill! I really didn't think it was possible for you to suffer from writer's block, but I can totally understand the burnout. You have been pushing hard for the last 5 years and accomplished so much. I'm glad your muse is back now and just remember to treat her to some vacations on a regular basis! My muse says she wants to go to Jamaica...

      :) Have a great weekend!

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you FatBoyThin! This is a lesson it took me a long time to learn....but now I know and I'm glad.

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      Bill Holland 2 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Mike, I don't have an answer for you. It's like I turned 60 and all of a sudden I gained a creative gene. I have no other explanation but thank you! Have a great weekend.

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      Colin Garrow 2 years ago from Kinneff, Scotland

      We all get a bit stuck from time to time, Bill, but it sounds like you found the best solution - walk away from it and take part in your life, until the 'muse' gets her claws into you again. Wise words (as usual) and another great Hub.

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      Old Poolman 2 years ago

      Bill, just remember that everyone needs a vacation from time to time, and your muse is no exception.

      I often wondered how in the heck you come up with all the ideas for writing something every day. That is a huge challenge you seem to have mastered very well.