When You Raped Me

When you raped me~

It was not sexual in nature~

But still treatment in a violent way~

Still destructive~

In an abusive holding horrible stay!

Did you know how deep you hurt me? ~

Did you know I did not want to live on? ~

Did you know how much of me you depleted? ~

As you pillaged and plundered every aspect of my life wrong?

There was not just one of you~

Yet many from all angles~

I felt shackled~

Demeaned~

My very life in your hands~

My neck strung~

As my body dangled.

My head whirled at times~

I gasped for air within the struggle~

I fought till I could fight no more~

Till I in fetal position felt I lost the battle. ~

Finally my rescuers found me~

As they forcefully opened my door~

Finding my very being had atrophied~

Malnourished, thin, as I felt the world me deplored.

I was collected~

All of me~

I was swooped up~

By my loving parents you see.

I vowed now I was back in the womb~

That I would never venture out again~

Perchance I would meet a worse doom~

As I healed cleansing of acquaintances~

I kept few friends~

As I went back and forth from surviving and wasted.

Oh! How I prayed~

Kneeling on natures alter! ~

Oh! How I cried as I walked the Stations of the Cross! ~

Oh! How I delighted when I finally heard GOD’S WORD while~

Walking on the Labyrinth~

Giving me hope~

Feeling I had a rebirth!

I carried pictures of people who loved me~

On a clip board every where I went~

With the words of Philippians three~

Thirteen through fourteen~

As a constant reminder to me~

As I shrunken felt spent from thee.

For my troubled times of loss~

I read over and over again~

“Brethren, I count not myself to have apprehended:

But this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before, I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of GOD in CHRIST JESUS.” Amen ~

I fought to make sure this~

Was not my very end! ~

Years passed with tears and prayers~

From endless loss~

Alone often I was~

Stressed to go on. ~

However slowly~

Every inch an effort~

Every minute a toil~

As I continued with great labor~

I saw the light at the end of the tunnel!

Oh! Yes! ~

I still feel the loss~

I still feel your evil doings~

Yet I block it out~

Over again~

I forgive~

I with the LORDS help~

I move on~

As I continue to now~

Truly live beyond!

By

Lisa J. Warner

AKA

Lisa Luv

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