You Scream at Me
It’s four in the morning
The voices in my head
Won’t let me sleep,
You scream at me.
I try to talk to you
You won’t listen to me
The more I say,
You scream at me.
I didn’t get it right
Again I tried,
You say that I didn’t,
You scream at me.
I say control your temper,
Don’t have to
Raise your voice,
You scream at me.
I say I didn’t mean it,
And try to explain,
I don’t want to hear it,
You scream at me.
Mental anguish, despair,
I have to keep going,
You say get over it,
You scream at me.
I thought it was me,
I quit drinking,
Ten years have gone by,
You scream at me.
Trapped by life,
It’s too late to leave,
You can’t go anywhere,
You scream at me.
What can I do
To make things better,
You just don’t get it,
You scream at me.
I guess it’s all my fault,
I stayed here this long,
You know it is,
You scream at me.
It’ four in the morning,
The voices are back again,
lay back down,
You scream at me.
I lie in the dark,
My mind races to think,
No peace today,
You scream at me.
I guess when I die,
Things may somehow change,
But I hear it now, why!
You scream at me.
more pieces of my heart
- The Last Great Gasp
The time was growing near, No longer was time on my side, I looked for a way to tell you dear, But had to swallow my foolish pride. You never saw it coming this time, It seemed though that...
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Greg, Yes, I had considered the poem might be referring to inner voices. AND, the second line even refers to "voices in my head".
But, there are several indicators that this is not the case.
I have a psych diagnosis, and do hear voices of my own.
I also have a very close relative who hears voices.
One would not speak or write about inner voices as this author has. I think it's pretty clear that he's talking about a real person, in outer reality ---- unfortunately. The author refers to time, for one thing.
Time of night, and time since he quit drinking.
Even if there is a kid involved, there are ways to get out of this. It will be better for the kid --- and give her/him a better role model, to defend against this type of abuse, especially later on in life, when you may not be around.
I do agree with heavenbound5511, also. Find out what God wants you to do. But, I also think you can get away from this person while waiting for God to answer.
God bless. Please be careful.
Interesting poem to say the least - at least you have some talent! Now get some earplugs and grow a pair so you have the gumption to leave the screamer.
Did any onf consider the write could be talking about the voices in his/her head??? Just a thought
I unfortunately know this one all to well. My wife suffers from an anxiety and anger disorder. It makes for serious hell. Every word hits on the money. Walking sounds soo easy but when you have a kid together there is a whole world of WHAT IF's
Walking away and starting over from zero in another country is better then death or wishing you were dead. But once again there is a kid. If you go, you miss their life. If walk and stay she will use that child every chance she gets to get at you. So still there will be hell.
It's all easier said then done.
Uh...Therapy...STAT!
How painful may be- but it is a morning love
No way out?????????????? Why? How?
Great poem!
I am not going to tell you to run from this person, but run to God and find out what he wants you to do.
God can cause us to have peace that passes all understanding in Jesus. Your escape is to go deeper into God. (-John 17 came to mind 4 you)
I have some pages that are inspired by a bad relationship that God has done a lot for, but is still working it out. In the mean time my best move is to keep seeking God or I feel like going crazy as to say.
Thanks for sharing your feelings and thoughts!
A very powerful write you have here, painful and gripping. God Bless.
Im sure there is! Dont give up hope. I went through a very difficult relationship but I got out of it. And I was only 16! It can be done, you've just got to think positively and find a way.
- AUTHOR
Thanks for the comments, but there is no way out of this.
I agree with that, Huntgoddess. This sounds like the kind of situation you should run away from. There is always a way of leaving, you are never truly trapped, its a big leap and will take support and courage but I am sure you can escape from what sounds like a nightmare. Good luck to you.
Wow, this is a very abusive relationship. I think you deserve better. You should get out of this toxic situation.
Nobody deserves to be treated like this.
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