You Are All I Ever Wanted.
You probably getting used to me saying sorry almost everytime.
At some point it might seem like am even toying around with you, maybe even treating you like a "by the way "..
And I hate that about me.
I don't like how messed up and selfish I could be at times.
I know that am easily distracted and tend to somehow forget what really matters.
I know sometimes you don't even wanna look at me leave alone text or talk to me.
And yes I know I screwed up , just because of some few insecurities in my head.
I don't like how I make you feel at times.
I don't like the person I am to you at times.
Am literally tired of saying sorry because am scared that someday sorry won't be enough .
Am scared that one day you'll just not be there to take me back.
Saying sorry right now doesn't even feel right.
I just realized that am a wreck when you are not around.
Am so alone in a way that I can't even describe.
Am so distracted without you.
And I hate it when you cry because of things I do.
Deep down you are everything I ever dreamed of.
I know it might seem like am trying to win you back, which is what am doing really.
I can't think of a future without you.
I can't think of me without you.
.. I can't see me without you.
From my heart, my soul, my everything ... You are all I want.
Have probably said many times, but I dearly and truly love you in a way I find hard to express.
.. You complete me in a way that makes my heart smile everyday.
... And have set my priorities straight, believe me when I say:
All I want is you.
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