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Becoming a Muslim After 9/11: Did I Deserve to Get All Anger Directed to Me?

Updated on August 2, 2017



Through this hub I would like to express my deep sorrow and condolence on the loss and also the pain that have to be experienced and faced by all the victims and their families of 9 / 11 attacked . May God will give us all the strength to survive and to take lessons from this incident.


Becoming a Muslim after 9/11: did I deserve to get all anger directed at myself?

This is a question that I ask myself, which I believe become a question from many Muslim in this world too. Joined Hub Pages 10 months ago, I found many people inside this community full of hatred toward Muslim. Not all, of course, but many; who so freely said so many accusations without a strong basis of knowledge. I honestly do not know if this hatred already there before 9/11, but I realized that 9/11 attacked is the reason why I have to experience this.

I remember that day when I saw the news on TV about this incident for the first time. I sat there, with the mouth open, and tears fall from my eyes, strongly shocked and sad and worried about how worst the attacked caused to the victims; how many lives had to be lost and how hard it was faced such a violent and worst tragedy. I didn’t know the victims and their family members personally, I am not American and I have no relation to this tragedy, but this is fellow human, and as many humans in this world too, at that time, I grieved for all victims and their family. I understand very well, this is an attack on the world, and not only to America. That is why the pain is entire world’s pain and not American’s pain only. Never crossed my mind for any second that I am, and all my family in faith will have to pay for this.

We called them terrorist and we condemn their acts too. As Indonesian, my country already experienced so many attacked from them too, while this country holds the biggest Muslim in the world. Maybe not as big as 9/11, but no one should underestimate the terrorist attacks, no matter how small the damage and loss caused by it, it still the action we all should curse. But “Bali attacked” is not small incidents and it is not only killed non-believer of Islam. Most of the victims are Indonesian and also Muslim. See, we have our pain too and understand it very well. I am not trying to make a comparison. Just want you to understand that I, and also my family of faith, really know and familiar with your pain too.

I am Muslim. I learned about my religion and living my life under Sharia law. My community is big numbers of community and we grow faster, spreading our knowledge about God and life with love unless my closest community is. I read Al Qur’an and applying it in daily life. I read all verses about Jihad and all things that non-believer of Islam accused it as the voices of violence. But never crossed my mind even once, I have to kill nonbeliever of my faith because I never read it that way. I never translated my Book of God in that way. Did am I so stupid so I never see this inside Al Qur’an: that I allowed and ordered to kill those who do not want to walk together in our faith? I might not that smart, but I am sure, I am not that stupid! And please, trust me; I am not the only Muslim whose have this thought.

I and my Muslim community never accepted those terrorists as our family in faith. We are afraid to the extremist, and terrorist way worst than the extremist! They are not Muslim! They just crazy people who used religion as an excuse to fill their need on killing which I and my Muslim family refused to be related with them and condemn their acts too. Once they kill people, while God already told Muslim to never kill a soul; they no longer Muslim. They have no religion, or they have it and the religion called as Evil, with Satan as their God and Hell as their kingdom!

Several times, when I appeared in the Religion Forum, I got attacked because of my religion and what I wear. I had been seen in so many times as crazy blinded and deluded person because I believe in Allah and Al Qur’an; like those terrorists said they are. I even got mocked for what I wear. Someone said I insulted him just by wearing a scarf on my head, saying that is my way to tell him about my God without using any words. WHAT? I wearing a scarf on my head because it is my obligation; because of Allah, through Al Qur’an, ordered me and all Muslim women to wear it. Scarf on my head is about my relationship with God and never has any relation to any other matters, but God. If I caused him feared because of it, it is simply because he is too self-centered and thinks this world only moving around him. Now tell me, who is the blind one?

Please, my fellow human, let put this on the table and think. In this world, we have so many Muslim. If I am not wrong, Muslim is more than 1 billion today. pintails7886 told me that only 3 % of this numbers is an extremist or terrorist. I asked this question on the forum once and I will ask again; if my religion is the reason why people turned into terrorists, don’t you think all Muslim should become terrorist by now, and not only 3%?

I know your pain, America. I feel that too. But please, try to put your feet on my shoes for several minutes and feel what I feel. Please think about how hard living in the world which hates Muslim, even if I never do anything wrong. Please think about how hard it is to get all anger and accusation from everywhere for the things I never was done. Is it fair for me to get this all? Is it? I am not terrorist and never even closed with it. But why it is me who have to get all anger?

This is my question and I believe become many Muslim questions too. I wish this can make several of you understand, even if just a little; about what I and my Muslim family feel after 9/11 attacked. Insha Allah, if it is Allah's will.

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