Could the Movie Murderer be you?

Ok, I am still baffled a bite by this movie shooting, who wouldn't be. My heart and condolences go out to the victims, their families, friends, as well as the family, friends, etc of the killer. Since the killer has remained silent we are left with so many unanswered questions. First, why? I have looked at his resume, his Mom's statement as well as the statement of those who knew him. I have seen his online dating match and guess what I discovered.

Despite popular belief at this point he is just like me. I looked at his resume, he has a Bachelor's degree, so do I. He was a scholar, so was I. He did work in the field of counseling, I did my work in Psychology of Religion and Pastoral Care. He attended graduate studies as did I. When it came time to look for a job, as accomplished as he was, he didn't land a job in his field of study. I wrote a hub on my experience, entitled, "American Dream or Delusion."

The only difference in that is we came to the same conclusion, however, we took different approaches, he did what he had to do and took the Mickey D's scraps they gave him. I, on the other hand, fought until I got a job offer for technical writer and got invited to join 3 different marketing firms. Bottom line, he went to college with the same hopes and dreams I had to land a job doing what he loved, for me it was writing, expression, and helping others.

For him, it was if I am not mistaken working in a lab. Both dreams were beautifully made in the most honest attempts of the heart, but in our society dreams are crushed everyday in the name of greed, capitalism, and more voted, there is so much compromising for peace sakes that the actual intent behind certain things are lost in the shuffle. He was described by some of his childhood friends as quiet or shy, but once you get to know him he opened up and was a nice guy. For me, I don't think I would be described as quiet or shy, but they would agree that I am nice and a cool down to earth person when you get to know me. They might even say I'm hilarious.

Then, there was his online dating profile. Honestly, what I took from it was he wanted someone to be his wife, have his kids, he had no real preference, it was as if it was a cry for help and acceptance and companionship. He described himself, no different than an ordinary guy. One thing I will admit I saw a bit of desperation on his part in that, he wanted a casual encounter, etc, it seems like he would take whatever he could get.

While, I have never been a collector of scrapes, I could understand is wanting to be with someone, relationships are great! Then, the disturbing part is, he adds will you visit me in prison, that to be completely honest, pissed me off. For me, that shows intent and throws second degree murder off the table. Why would he be worried about prison at that point? Not surprising, he had a match on match.com, go figure, right? Wrong, there is someone for everyone.

I know that last statement threw you for a loop right, has Brittany taken a one way trip to looney tune land, not yet, lol. I was watching E's Love Behind Bars, hold onto your hats folks. Women of all shapes, sizes, educational levels, various backgrounds were not just corresponding, but marrying men in prison as well as on death row. They showed the woman who married and claimed to have gotten pregnant by Ted Bundy as well as other women who claimed to be in love with or yearned for the companionship of a massacre murder, serial rapist, etc.

They literally had women drooling in the court room over the mere presence of these men, they could be described as love sick groupies, making goo goo eyes as the assalant, I was horrified to say the least. I will equate this to watching a train wreck in slow motion, only the people in the cabins had no idea that they were even in danger, although they had totally derailed. I would never deny anyone the opportunity to find love, but I would hope these women who exactly what they were gettin themselves into.

Truth being told in actually there was nothing that separated me, the killer, or the killer craving groupies, (maybe except perception and good sense, just my opinion) I am not willing to marry a mass murderer. I am not willing to massacre any group of people. I have had moments in my life where people have tested the bounds of my ability to remain civilized. I will admit as a child I reacted in an animalistic manner and fought it out and as an adult there are moments when I would like to clobber a few folks, but I remember the laws that govern this land, my beautiful daughter, baby sister, and aunt that depend on me, and suddenly the madness is not worth it.

Nothing or no one is worth more than my responsibilities that I take very seriously. I will protect and nurture them at all costs. Truth is if I had been at that movies I would not be here today, because I would give my life to ensure their safety. I am not going to negate the factor that the killer may have been angry with society, I can not fault him in that we live in a very unjust society, however that has never given him nor anyone else for that matter, the right or justification in taking the lives or life of anyone.

Whether he was self-medicated or in his right mind, he chose to do this. Guns do not go off by themselves, otherwise, look out people. Fire bombs, booby trapped apartments do not fall out of the sky, it takes a hand for their creation and execution. Bullets don't just fly random it takes a trigger-man for them to go off. Pills don't just pop into your mouth, you have to decide to take it. Self-meds don't just pop by rubbing a lamp, you have to buy it from someone or a company. None of these things are mandated by law, that are choices.

I believe everyone has a story, but I also believe if you do the crime you do the time. I do think there are certain circumstance and environmental factors that can contribute to one's situation, but ultimately I think its your decision. I will admit in court he appeared to be in complete psychosis, coming off mania, or is quite the actor, it was stated he was not given any medications after being arrested. His mother also admitted that her quote from ABC News was taken out of context.

So, if put in the same environmental factors as James Holmes, would you be a killer, too? If you were indeed isolated from certain social factors that are normative to you, how would you handle it? If your own source for human interaction for companionship is in cyberspace, would you cope or snap?