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Ricocheting Thoughts: The Ramblings Of an Idle Mind

Updated on September 29, 2015

Thoughts on The Cost Of Freedom

What does it take to be free? or rather, what is the cost. How much does it cost to live the life we want to without the obligation of a 9 to 5 work ever again. without being shackled by the chains of society.

What is the cost of pursuing our dreams, our passion?

This is one thought that is there in my mind every single day as I go through my work routine. I keep asking myself, is this all there is? There has to be something more than this!!

Go to gym at 7 am. work out for an hour reach my office by 9am, work, work work, come home at 5 play with my daughter, talk with my wife, 10 o'clock lights out. As I had previously mentioned in one of my earlier posts, I got so sick of this daily routine I decided I would make a little change to it. I decided I would now go for an evening jog right after I come back from work. Just to get over this sickening circle.

Don't get me wrong, I love spending time with my wife and kids, but it's just the same predictable routine that gets to me. Why do I have this routine? Because I do not have the freedom, I have an obligation to the company I work with. I have a family to support, etc. So I can't just wake up and say, "to hell with it, I am not going work today, do not feel like it."


I would love to. I would love to be that man who does not have any obligations. I know some of you will say "well that is just impossible, everyone has to work!" well not everyone. I know many people who does not have to work anymore, or, at the very least, choose their own time to work from the comforts of their own houses, thanks to the rapid growth of the online world, this has been proves possible by many people whose main source of income comes from working online.

I have come up with a plan to get to this. I want to learn IT, web development maybe earn some nice side income from it. I heard many good things about sites like e-lance where we can find freelance work and I heard it is a gold mine for web-developers. So I am going to find me sometime to learn web developing and hustle on line for some web developing job.

I realize it is easy to talk and plan, but I am going to do my best. In life, when we have an interest in something we should always pursue it, we never know where it will take us. Always strive to take on new challenges and venture into the unknown. Who knows we might just bump head on into our passion.

I believe that for those of us who has not found our passion yet, we should keep trying new things, see what we are interested in, and pursue it. That is how we can find our passion, from pursuing our interests, we can have hundreds of interests, and if we keep pursuing them, we might just find our niche and when we do, I am sure there is no turning back.

Freedom means you are unobstructed in living your life as you choose. Anything less is a form of slavery

— Wayne Dyer

Thoughts On Leveraging

This one is somehow connected to the previous thought. I guess all thoughts that ricochets in our head are connected somehow, even when we cannot see that connection in the beginning.

One more reason why I want to learn Web Developing is as a leverage. Not just income. Who knows, if one day I get successful and get to live solely on the web development job I can use it to quit my current job.

For your information, I work in my family owned textile company where my boss happens to be my own father, he spoils me by not giving me too much work load, which is why days spent in my office is just too damn boring, I guess he does not take me very seriously. I don't know. One thing I do know is his reaction when I come to his office one day and tell him I am quitting and that I want to be a full time web developer. Yea that willl show him.

I do not want to use this as a leverage for having an increase in my salary, but rather as a leverage to take me seriously. To show him that I do not like whatever he is doing. I feel belittled. 10 years I have been working and not even a word of encouragement, not even one word of complement for whatever I have achieved, he does not even seem to be slightly impressed by it. That is a man with a very thick face I tell you. Either that, or he really is not impressed. Frankly, I think it is the latter.


Finding a leverage and looking for some extra income really motivates you to go out of your way and do something. I look back when I was single not giving a care in the world, not caring if he takes me seriously or not, I was not really driven.

I find that I have started to become more driven after I got married and have a child. I guess its father's instinct. That or my wife is always telling me "you have to speak with you dad! you can't just let him treat you this way all the time, you have to show him!!!"

So here I am doing my best, and wrecking my brains on how to "show em"

Although I wonder, what happens after I show em? is that it? do the credits start rolling to an uplifting song with a still of me smiling to the camera in the background? wait a minute where is the camera? how come there is no one shooting all of this??!! I wish someone was there when I showed it to my dad!!

Alas, there is no such thing as a happy ending, what happens after that? will I still be motivated to pursue this web development path? I will never know. I guess let us just take the web developing course first and see where it goes.

If I like it, then I will pursue it whether I get to "show it" to my dad or not.

There is always a little bit of satisfaction when you prove somebody wrong.

— Drew Brees

Final Thoughts

When you have plenty of time to yourself, you tend to think a lot and look at your life. In my case, I have noticed that my time here in this world is limited, and the last thing I want to do is to get stuck in this damning routine. Yes I know I will take over the company someday once my dad retires, but man I just hate the work. I will be honest here. I hate it. Is it really worth all the money that I will be making of it? That really is the big question which can be answered once I pursue a side business of web development right after I finish the course.

Can't really decide if it is worth it until I see the alternative. I know some how you might say "you have no idea how lucky you have it." Yes in a way you are right. But being born with a golden spoon has its downs as well as its ups, and one very big down is you just keep trying to prove your worth and you keep getting overshadowed by your dad's achievements, which can and will belittle you. You just keep constantly trying to prove your worth.

It is mentally and spiritually exhausting.


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      Linda Robinson 2 years ago from Cicero, New York

      An absolutely moving hub, I really enjoyed reading it. One of your best. Linda