Blood on the Diamond
A Short Introduction
I can't help but feel as if I'm writing this for someone special. I may not know your name. I may have never met you, but you feel your life is useless and worthless. You feel so alone without any hope. You're ready to end it all.
You've asked yourself many times, "What is the answer?" "Why am I such a failure?" "Why am I so alone?" " Is suicide the solution?" "Won't somebody please fight for me?"
Please don't do anything until you've read this. I'm reaching out to you. If you need to talk, you can reach me through HubPages.
I Remember Dan
The following is a story about a boy I knew in high school. Names have been changed. Certain circumstances have been changed, but the story is still the same - death by suicide. I did not know Dan well, but the events of that late spring afternoon will be in many a memory for a lifetime.
Dan , a senior in high school, had just fathered a child. Not like so many others, he wanted to have a hand in raising his child, even though he was only a child himself. Problems between Dan and his girlfriend apparently escalated over a period of time, but at last Dan was excluded from seeing his son. Whatever the circumstances it all came down to one fateful, last drive.
I believe it was on a Friday before the weekend, I got the news. It was after school, Dan chose to take his own life, but in a way that demonstrated not only his anger and passion, but also his hatred for his own life.
it seems that often a plan is put in place before suicide is attempted .It is thought much about and thought through before the attempt is made. Suicide is a last chance for hope and happiness once all hope and happiness has run out.
What Dan was going through; what he was experiencing I'll never know, but he had a plan. I don't believe it was a spur of the moment decision.
Dan lived on a street that ran west to east. At the eastern end of the street it intersected with a north-south boulevard. A cliff lined the east side of the boulevard, but a guard rail was in place to protect cars from veering over the edge. At the bottom of the cliff, about 100 feet below lay a baseball field
On that afternoon a squeal of tires was heard by those close by, and then a terrible crash. Dan floored his Trans Am and headed east through the usually quiet residential neighborhood. At the end of the street one can only make a right or left turn after coming to a stop sign. Dan's Trans Am flew through the intersection and through the guard rails; The wreckage came to rest on the infield. The car sliced by the cables lay in pieces. Blood covered the infield diamond.
To the north of the baseball stadium was a steep hill that led to the wealthier part of town. I pushed to the top and looked down on the wreckage below. I could only wonder why this had happened.
There is Hope!
You may feel suicide is the only answer to life's woes. People hurt. People have problems. Circumstances get out of control, but there is honestly a bunch of hope..The one contemplating suicide usually feels alone and depressed. What they so desperately need is what so often they so desperately avoid. Please, if you're hurting in any way -please get in touch with me.
Sometimes all it takes is a listening ear, and an empathetic heart. .People need people. We were created with the built-in need for love, acceptance, and respect. When those needs are not met, we may feel empty, worthless, and useless. We tend to withdraw from the very people we need for support. Trust is hard to come by,and others may let you down, but your life is not in the hands of others. They have their own problems.
A Fish in a Bird Nest
Often we humans live like a fish in a bird nest. A fish was never meant to live in a bird nest, and when left in a bird nest it will suffer and die. On the other hand, the bird was never meant to live under water. If I were to tie a rock around a bird's neck and toss him in the river, he would surely suffer and die.
Regardless of what one believes or perceives, we were never meant to live without God. People may reject you, but God never will. People may let you down, but God never will. You may feel worthless, but you were created to live for your Creator. Just as the bird was meant to live in the air, and the fish in the stream, so you were created to live in God's sphere; in His presence.
You may ask, "What did God ever do for me?" He kept you until now - in spite of circumstances; in spite of rejection and emotional pain; in spite of others; in spite of yourself. He still has a plan and a purpose for you.
God made a way for you to be reunited to Him through His Son, Jesus Christ. Jesus spent much of His time alone, not accepted by many. He was betrayed by one of His very best friends. He brought shame and embarrassment to his family. He knows you. He understands where you are coming from, for in one way or another He has walked the path before you. He was a man of sorrows, mocked and ridiculed. Then he spilled His life's blood so that you might live.
It was His sacrifice that paved the way for your freedom today. He came, lived, died, and resurrected so that you might have peace. He allowed you to get to this point so that you might find Him. But that won't happen until you turn your life over to Him. He wants to guide you into all truth and peace. He truly is a life changer.
You ask,"How do you know? What makes you so sure?"
Because I too have walked the suicide path. I've stood at the edge and looked down a dark, lonely hall leading to the corridor of death. I saw a light, a glimmer of hope. I grabbed on, and wouldn't let go. The Light - His name was Jesus.
Is life easy? We both know it isn't, but we don't have to walk it alone. Jesus never promised to lead you around troubles, but to go through the troubles with you. Please choose life. Don't give up the fight. There really is a light at the end of the road if we look for it.
A Helpful Link - National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Need someone to talk to?
National Suicide Prevention Lifeline
Phone: 1-800-273-TALK (8255)
Please Watch the Videos
Before you leave this page, please watch the videos. There is hope.Hope is offered.Help is offered. Please rethink what you were about to do.
Rascal Flatts - Why
The Edge - Michael Card
Hold On - Twila Paris
Suicide is on the Rise
According to suicidology.org, suicide is the tenth leading cause of death in America. This translates to 42,773 deaths in 2013. The seating capacity for Wrigley Field in Chicago is 42,495. The suicide death for one year would fill a baseball stadium. The next time you see your favorite team play to a full house, remember that that many suicides occur in America in one year.