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Missing Someone I loved

Updated on August 23, 2011

I know its been about 2 months since my ex step dad passed away, but I really miss him. I guess I never really thought about that day. I still can't believe he is gone.. Ya know?? He knew me my whole life. He was more of a father to me then my own father has ever been. I use to call him dad. Ya know what?? It didn't feel weird at all. The last time i saw him in good health was my wedding in 09. I was so excited for my husband to meet him. I just wish I would of took a picture with him. Something to remember him by. The night of my wedding my husband, best friend, and I went home and opened all the cards up and when I got to his he had written me this beautiful letter. I cried so hard that night. I still do...

When my mom and I heard of him being sick we went to the hospital and I was really scared b/c I've never seen someone in that kinda state before and I'm really glad we got to see, I just wish we got to see more, but he passed away 3 days later. It was a really hard day.. I became really depressed for like a month and I'm finally starting to heal the pain. Its not easy though. Sometimes I get up and want to tell him something on his facebook page and then I realize he's not going to be able to read it. I start to get all sad again. I hope he is looking down at all of us and smiling.

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      sublimegurl439 6 years ago from Granite Bay, CA

      Thank you for your kind words. I am sorry for the loss of your mom. Take care

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      Maria Jordan 6 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      I am so sorry for your loss. I welcome you to HubPages, as I read your poetry on your Mom's site. (I loved Jane Eyre when I recently watched it as well.)

      Writing has very much helped me over the last few months in my sadness over the recent death of my Mom.

      I pray that this is a healing outlet for you as well, because you certainly have some beautiful talent.

      Take care of yourself always, mar.

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      Eiddwen 6 years ago from Wales

      Beautiful poem and I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my only sister 11 years ago and then 2 years ago my beautiful youngest daughter so I do understand what you are going through.

      Even though everyone has a different way of coping.

      I now look forward to reading many more from you.

      Take care

      Eiddwen.

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      sublimegurl439 6 years ago from Granite Bay, CA

      Yes I read that letter almost everyday and I have it kept in one of my save boxes. Thanks for the kind words.

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      Linda Rogers 6 years ago from Minnesota

      So sorry to hear of your loss. It sounds like he was very special to you and I know how hard it is to lose someone your so connected to. It sounds like that letter is your life line. Use whatever works to feel close to him. Blessings :-)

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      marellen 6 years ago

      Very very nice Megan...Gary is smiling down on us and has a super grin. He is our guardian angel. Voted up...