Missing Someone I loved
I know its been about 2 months since my ex step dad passed away, but I really miss him. I guess I never really thought about that day. I still can't believe he is gone.. Ya know?? He knew me my whole life. He was more of a father to me then my own father has ever been. I use to call him dad. Ya know what?? It didn't feel weird at all. The last time i saw him in good health was my wedding in 09. I was so excited for my husband to meet him. I just wish I would of took a picture with him. Something to remember him by. The night of my wedding my husband, best friend, and I went home and opened all the cards up and when I got to his he had written me this beautiful letter. I cried so hard that night. I still do...
When my mom and I heard of him being sick we went to the hospital and I was really scared b/c I've never seen someone in that kinda state before and I'm really glad we got to see, I just wish we got to see more, but he passed away 3 days later. It was a really hard day.. I became really depressed for like a month and I'm finally starting to heal the pain. Its not easy though. Sometimes I get up and want to tell him something on his facebook page and then I realize he's not going to be able to read it. I start to get all sad again. I hope he is looking down at all of us and smiling.