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True Love: The Woman I love

Updated on July 28, 2013
Finally in a forever relationship
Finally in a forever relationship
My favorite picture of Bev; it so encompasses all that she is.
My favorite picture of Bev; it so encompasses all that she is.
With Bev I have found peace....and love.
With Bev I have found peace....and love.

Be forewarned: I am no poet nor am I a romantic novelist. I have a tendency to get so involved with my emotions when writing some articles about personal subjects that I fear my words tumble all over themselves and it becomes gibberish. Please forgive me if that is the case, but this article needs to be written.

THE BEGINNING

I was working retail in a small UHaul shop in November of 2007 when Bev walked in looking for some boxes. Boxes I had; nerve I was lacking. I was one year sober that day and, as we like to say down on the farm, feeling my oats, and I was immediately attracted to her. Did that equate to action? No, not for this inherently shy human being; I simply took care of her order, wished her a good day and then spent the next few days kicking myself in my derriere for not having the guts to say something other than the typical blah, blah, blah.

There was something about her, a quality that could not be quantified and probably at that time not verbalized, but I knew I wanted to see her again. My wish was granted a couple weeks later and history did indeed repeat itself as I once again found myself unable to utter a single intelligent sentence other than “thank you and have a nice day.”

Again she re-appeared several weeks later and again I found mastery of the English language beyond my grasp….and then she disappeared.

Christmas came and went and the New Year arrived and I had all but given up hope of seeing her again.

IF IT WAS MEANT TO BE

February was ushered in and one fine day she returned and my life entered a new chapter, one for which I will forever be grateful. I somehow found the nerve to ask her to lunch, but sensing that she was cautious and not looking for a relationship, I made it known that this lunch would just be as friends, that there were no strings attached. Where that bucket of hog poop came from I will never know but it worked; she agreed to lunch that next Friday.

We met for that meal and somehow we both saw in each other something worth pursuing for we began dating shortly afterwards. Bev was worn out from being a single parent who worked a grueling graveyard job and I was ultra-cautious about any relationship so early on in alcoholic recovery, so we were not starting out on the most secure footing, but start out we did. Ever so slowly, two wounded human beings slowly circling each other, looking for any reason to call it quits so that the pain of failure would not be experienced.

THE BUMPY ROAD AHEAD

We dated, slowly at first, then the pace increased as we found each other enjoyable to be with. Bev was, and is, a playful, seemingly carefree woman who has fun no matter what she is doing. She dances in the rain (and gets many opportunities to do so in Olympia) and loves little children and animals, and I was simply enthralled by her love of life. Life was more enjoyable when I was with her and I found myself considering the possibilities of a long-term relationship with her and quite frankly that terrified me.

I had lost at this game before, as had she, and despite the fun we had together there was an underlying fear that it would all end badly as so many other relationship had for both of us. In a real sense we were sabotaging the relationship from the very beginning, never really trusting in our feelings for each other.

So of course we broke up, nearly one year from the first time we had met. Another Christmas came and went without her in my life, another opportunity for happiness seemingly lost, yet all the while a feeling of relief that the pain of rejection would not be felt again. In truth I was more injured and damaged than I realized, an emotional cripple incapable of seeing the truth and hiding from reality once again, but this time without the solace that alcohol had always afforded me.

We started up again after the first of the year and broke up again. Started up once more and broke up once more. The ghosts of the past simply would not release either of us from their grip on our psyches. It was a sad, painful experience, going through the days knowing I had given up once again but not really knowing what to do to make it alright. Conveniently I had the excuse of sobriety to use and I could sound quite convincing when telling my friends that it just wasn’t a good time for me to be in a relationship, that I needed to strengthen my AA program before venturing off into deep emotional waters.

All the while I knew, however, that the greatest obstacle I had to overcome was the fear of failing at love once again, and I was so terrified that I was unwilling to give myself completely to this wonderful woman.

ENOUGH IS ENOUGH

There comes a time for all of us when we either face the fears that haunt us or we resign ourselves to forever being their slave. That time for me came a little over a year ago in November, 2010. I had just quit a teaching job that was draining the life from me and I had made the decision to become a freelance writer full-time. Bev as always was supportive of my decision and after seeing her one afternoon I spent the evening thinking about my inconsistencies. On the one hand I didn’t hesitate to quit a job that had benefits without having a back-up plan at all, something many people would never even consider doing. Surely that indicated some backbone, some willingness to take a chance in life. On the other hand I was too frightened to give my heart totally to a woman who had shown for three years a willingness to be patient and withstand every childish excuse I could find not to completely commit to her.

The decision was made that night and I have never looked back and doubted it for a second. Do I still have fears? Yes, I do, but they are nagging fears that I will find a way to mess this up as I have so many other relationships. I have no fear of Bev’s love for that is very real. If nothing else the fears I now have are a reminder to be the man she loves and never allow life or the fear of life to interfere with that love.

SO WHAT IS THIS WONDER WOMAN LIKE?

Bev is everything I once was before alcohol sidetracked me for three decades. I have never been around another person who loves life as much as Bev does. She absolutely insists on enjoying herself and squeezing every ounce of enjoyment out of a day. If you are with her for five minutes you will find yourself with a silly grin on your face because she is infectious. I’m not sure I’m describing her properly. I know that I feel better about life when I am with her. I know that I am hopeful when she is with me and I am once again a child when she plays with me.

We sing together and she says she loves my voice. We laugh together and her laughter is music to me. We love together and fear and insecurity leave us for together we seem to be one complete person.

For the first time in my life I completely trust another member of my species. She never tries to change me as so many others have but rather encourages me to be me. She is my biggest supporter, believing in my writing and other gifts and lifting me up with that support when I inevitably doubt myself.

She is, in a very real sense, what I consider to be my reward for finally getting my life straightened out and on the right track, as though this one gift had been withheld from me until I could finally pull my head out of the darkness and accept all that life made available to me. Yes, that’s it…she is my gift!

There are tears in my eyes as I finish this. Billybuc finally got it right!

Her name is Bev and she is the woman I love!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Nellie, what a beautiful comment. This is why I write....to reach others...to share experiences and feelings...to make a human connection with as many people as possible. Thank you for your kind and gentle spirit.

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      Nellieanna Hay 5 years ago from TEXAS

      Oh, Billy - though I've seen your comments on people's hubs, admired & thought them worthwhile, I never knew you!

      Now, I've watched your video and then every word you wrote here 'sounded' to my mind exactly like you speaking it! That's such a treat.

      What a wonderful testimony to your Bev and the love and light she brought into your life. It is so like my beloved George's and my - our - at-long-last-found-true-love that I can feel it personally. It has brought tears to my eyes. I still miss him after 4 years this Sept. 5. But what a privilege to have been part of such a total and unconditional love. We gave it to each other, too.

      And BTW, "Siddhartha" by Hermann Hesse (translated of course from the German) has been a dear story to me for many many years, too. That was such a pleasant reminder.

      Thank you for sharing this beautiful tribute and outpouring of your own story and your heart, Bill. Thank you.

      (And it was Maria's mention of this which brought it to my attention when she was visiting one of my hubs which Martie's lead had given her, as well as to this one of yours! Of course, I had to track it down! ;-) Small world!)

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Martie, I smile as I read your words. Some basic truths escaped me for so long.....it seems like I should have known them, but they were always just out of my reach. You touched on it in your remark....Self got in my way and blocked my view of a most glorious site.....Love!

      I am so happy that you liked this; it was special to me and I gladly share it with you.

      bill

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      Martie Coetser 5 years ago from South Africa

      Oh, this is truly such a heart-touching story, Bill!

      Awesome confessions! ~~~

      "Life was more enjoyable when I was with her..."

      "We sing together and she says she loves my voice. We laugh together and her laughter is music to me. We love together and fear and insecurity leave us for together we seem to be one complete person."

      Oh, true love confessions like this make me cry, because when we are young, our love for Self prevent us from finding true happiness by loving people like your Bev unconditionally, and sadly, a very few of us have the privilege to meet lovers of life like Bev.

      Amazing: I accidentally found a link to this hub of yours pimped by Rahul. While reading, I decided to send a link to marcoujor - my dearest sista in Cyberspace - because I knew your words would touch her too.... And just look (above) what a surprise was waiting for me?

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Maria, thank you my dear. I am a very lucky man; after all these years of searching, I finally found THE ONE!

      I greatly appreciate you my friend.

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      Maria Jordan 5 years ago from Jeffersonville PA

      Thanks to Rahul for I may have missed this amazingly beautiful testimony to love, trusting yourself and each other to know when it is the real deal and treasuring it.

      Bill, you and Bev are blessed and you know it. You are inspirational.

      Thank you for sharing your story. Voted UP & UABI. Hugs, Maria

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Super, I hope you do too! Thank you so much!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Rahul, thank you so much! I love the reference to Twilight! Yes, love takes work, and commitment, and desire and willingness to trust. All those and more.

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      Super Lux 5 years ago from Singapore

      this inspires me. i hope i'll find my own lifetime partner soon too :)

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      Jessee R 5 years ago from Gurgaon, India

      For me this hub was " As Good As it Gets" remade....

      this is what is real love... away from the princely fantasies of dream worlds and cup cakes... soft toys and roses.....

      this is love made victorious from strength, compassion, practicality and a bunch of multi-million ingredients which TWILIGHT directors cannot think of .... lol

      Hat's off to you Sir and to Ma'am Bev and wish you both a wonderful life...

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Trinity, what a great comment! Here's to you my dear friend, and many years of friendship.

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      Trinity M 5 years ago

      Bill you do have a way with words. I am so happy that you found this truly beautiful person to share your life with. There is no greater power than love and nothing is worth living for if there is no love. I also took a long time to find my husband but I have never been happier than I have been for the last 15 years I’ve been with him :) Here’s to great love, great friends and happily ever after!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Ishwaryaa, what a lovely person you are! Sincerely my dear, you have a beautiful heart and I thank you very much for your kind words....more importantly, though, I thank you for being the person that you are. This world needs more beauty in it, and more people of compassion such as yourself. Thank you!

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      Ishwaryaa Dhandapani 5 years ago from Chennai, India

      A wonderful love story! Love is one of the most beautiful things on earth, provided that it is genuine and everlasting! I am happy that your Bev found her Prince Charming in you and you found your Princess Charming in her. Wishes both of you an entire lifetime of eternal happiness and togetherness! Thank you for sharing your fetching story with me and many others!

      Thanks for SHARING. Beautiful & Awesome. Voted up & Shared on Facebook

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Love, I hope you do too because it is very special! My best to you!

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      Lovelovemeloveme 5 years ago from Cindee's Land

      This was beautiful. thank you for sharing it. I hope one day I will have what you have with your wife. =)

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      LaThing, I am, indeed, a romantic. For many years a closet romantic, but now I'm busting out all over. LOL Thank you my friend and you are right.... Bev is a wonderful woman.

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      LaThing 5 years ago from From a World Within, USA

      Billy!! You romantic You!! This is beautiful.... Awesome feeling to see a friend describe his experience about Love and Life!! So emotional......... Bev is a wonderful woman, and I wish you both the best for years to come.....

      Voting up and everything!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you my friend; I hope you enjoy it. It happens to be a subject I am passionate about.

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      lovedoctor926 5 years ago

      Thanks Billy. that is very thoughtful of you and your wife. What I really like about your stories are the videos. I am listening to you speak on the topic of unconditional love.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Marlene, don't meet us in D.C.....you'll have to head west about 3000 miles for Washington State...but if you are ever here, we will buy the coffee and totally enjoy meeting with you.

      Thank you for the great comment, which, of course, I agree with.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Marlene!

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      lovedoctor926 5 years ago

      Billy, I love this story and will share.

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      lovedoctor926 5 years ago

      Love is meant to stand the test of time. Your story is a beautiful expression of love. It takes courage to admit your fears. Sometimes relationships will fall apart in order for things to fall in place. A good friend of mine broke up with her fiancee two times and six months later they were married. Distance makes the heart grow fonder. Bev sounds like an amazing woman and pillar of support. Nice to meet you Bev. If I am ever in the Washington D.C area, I will join you guys for coffee. lol. Voted up!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Sha my dear friend, thank you! I am an incredibly lucky man. I finally allowed myself to be loved....by someone else and by myself. Ain't love grand?

      And so are you! Thank you for that caring, loving heart of yours.

      always,

      bill

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      Shauna L Bowling 5 years ago from Central Florida

      What a beautiful love story, Bill! I have no doubt the song you've chosen to accompany this comes from deep in your heart. You and Bev are so fortunate to have found each other. Even more fortunate for you that you finally allowed yourself to love and be loved! Sometimes that is the only obstacle keeping us from happiness - ourselves!

      Your story is an inspiration, my friend. I love that you're in love!

      Peace,

      Sha

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Carol, thank you for that lovely comment. Bev is a gem and I am a very lucky man.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Theresa, thank you my friend! I am a very lucky man!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Pooja, if one day it is possible we would love to meet you. Thank you my friend; I appreciate you commenting and I appreciate you for who you are.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Made, you are absolutely correct...I am enjoying each and every minute of my life. Thank you for everything Made; you are a beautiful human being.

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      carol stanley 5 years ago from Arizona

      How lucky for both of you to have found each other. We can often make a perfect world out of an imperfect one. The blessings of a loving relationship is the best gift in the world. Since we cannot control what is going on around us having a warm hub (oops) at home is a gift in life. Relationships can be tricky but nice when your primary one is not. Bev sounds like a fine and loving person....But then again so do you.

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      T4an 5 years ago from Toronto, Ontario

      Bill, this is such a beautiful hub and tribute to the love of your life. Just imagine what a better place this world would be if everyone had wonderful relationship like yours. Wishing you many, many more years of love and happiness. You deserve it. Voted up!

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      poojasd7 5 years ago from India

      Oh my god, how could I miss reading this lovely hub? I just checked it out from one of the FB pages. Thanks to you for posting this link there.

      Your disclaimer in the beginning of this hub, is rubbish. Because the way you have presented your story is so nice and touching.

      It has touched my heart. Also, I am getting a mushy feeling. I learnt many lessons as well.

      Once again, such a sweet and cute real-life story of love!

      I am feeling like meeting both of you. :-)

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      Madeleine Salin 5 years ago from Finland

      This is LOVE. Wow, you really seem to be meant for each other. I love these happy ending stories. Bill, I know you are enjoying every minute of your life - together with Bev. :)

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Michele!

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      Michelle Liew 5 years ago from Singapore

      A wonderful love story, thanks for sharing!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Sue, you are a truly kind person. Thank you so much! Aren't happy endings nice? :)

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Doc, what a truly nice thing to write. Thank you so much! I feel pretty good about the two of us. :)

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Janine, you just get nicer with every day. You know what? Bev and I do deserve each other; we worked hard to get to this point in life and I, too, am happy for us. Thank you my dear friend!

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      Sueswan 5 years ago

      Hi Bill,

      How lucky you and Bev are to have found each other and to share unconditional love.

      I love happy endings and I loved reading this hub.

      Blessings to both of you. :)

      Voted up and away!

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      Mohan Kumar 5 years ago from UK

      Bill, your love for each other shines through and has triumphed over self doubt and echoes of the past. There is utter delight in your writing, your emotions are raw and beautiful. You don't need to be a romance novelist to convey the truth. The Truth as always is considerably more beautiful, as your two hearts are! awesome, my friend.

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      Janine Huldie 5 years ago from New York, New York

      So I am truly a sucker for happy romantic endings and am so glad that I finally got to read Bev and your story of how you met and fell in love. Truly so happy for the two of you that you found each other and have made a go of your love with each other. You two deserve all the happiness in the world and so glad you two have each other. Loved this true life story and have of course voted and shared too!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thanks Josh! There are days I wonder why she puts up with me, but I thank the stars that she does.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Debbie; she is a true blessing in my life, as is your friendship!

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      Deborah Brooks Langford 5 years ago from Brownsville,TX

      Billy i am so glad i have got to read this and meet the woman behind a great writer....this is beautiful..i am so glad you two found each other..hugs and blessings....debbie

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      Joshua Zerbini 5 years ago from Pennsylvania

      Bill,

      This was beautiful! Emotional and powerful and an awesome tribute to Bev! I am sure she is very proud of this!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Donna, thank you! Bev is the best thing to happen to me in decades and I appreciate your well-wishes.

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      Donaisabella 5 years ago from Fort Myers

      I am so glad that you are with the woman you love and I wish you two the best in your relationships. I pray for and with you the best.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      RM, the hard work has definitely paid off for this boy! Thank you for your kind words; I greatly appreciate your compassion and understanding.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Jlava, I am a lucky man but I also think I deserve a little happiness now that I have paid my dues. Thank you so much for your well-wishes and I wish the same for you. You are a very kind person! Now go dry your eyes and get about the business of living to the fullest.

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      Rachael Cleveland 5 years ago from Woodbridge, VA

      Thank you so much for sharing your experiences. I know it is hard to lay it all out like that, but you did so very well and with no gibberish in sight! It is a great lesson for young people like myself to understand just how much work a happy, loving relationship requires. There is no easy way in or out, but the hard work can pay off in the end.

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      Jennifer Vasconcelos 5 years ago from Cyberspace and My Own World

      I finished reading this with tears in my eye's and goosebumps on my arms. I think the gift is that you both are open enough to recognize the joy in being together and unconditional love that exists in you both. Wishing you many years of Bliss my friend!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Phdast7, you are so very kind! I am incredibly lucky to have found Bev after a seemingly endless search. I appreciate your well-wishes and I'm going to do everything in my power to show her my love for the remainder of my time here.

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      Theresa Ast 5 years ago from Atlanta, Georgia

      billybuc - what a marvelous tribute, any woman would appreciate having something written about her like this. I think it is wonderful that the two of you have found each other and that you seem so well suited to each other. My hope and prayer is that things continue to go well for both of you. This was a pleasure and an encouragement to read.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Tough one Amy and there is no easy answer for it. I had this same things with my sister and I told her I had no room in my life for her negativity and if she was going to call or come over I didn't want to hear anything negative. Believe me, it severely limited our contact the last ten years of her life but that was her decision. My first responsibility is to myself. A mother is a tough one, especially if you are close to her...they can play that guilt card with the best of them. I'd still talk to her and tell her how you feel, but that's just me. I understand the difficulty involved, Amy!

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      Amy 5 years ago

      Bill...what do you do when the negativity come from your mother. How do you sever ties with a negative person when she's your mom?

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      My pleasure Sonya; happiness should be shouted from the rooftops; don't you agree? I appreciate you!

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      Sonya L Morley 5 years ago from Edinburgh

      This is so beautiful, thank you for sharing your happiness!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Ruchira; she is an extraordinary woman and I am a lucky man.

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      Ruchira 5 years ago from United States

      I am happy bill, you found your soul mate :) Bev seems to be a wonderful person. Cheers!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Always, your opinion and following is important to me. Thank you for sharing in my happiness.

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      Ruby Jean Fuller 5 years ago from Southern Illinois

      I am so happy for you. Good things always come to those who wait. Bev sounds like a lovely person..Thank's for sharing...

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Moonfairy, what a lovely thing to say to me. Thank you so much! I worked long and hard to get to this point in life and I'm going to squeeze every ounce of enjoyment I can out of it in my remaining years. I appreciate you and thank you sincerely.

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      moonfairy 5 years ago

      billybuc, I feel such a closeness to you and I admire you so very much. You are an incredible person and deserve the love of this beautiful woman...and she deserves your love as well. Man, you make me well up with tears when I read your stuff. You are my favorite on hubpages. Never stop sharing....please.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Eddy, you and I have both fought hard for and earned happiness. I am pleased to read that you have found your other half, as have I. Bless you in Wales and have a splendid day.

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      Eiddwen 5 years ago from Wales

      So tender and beautiful;what a true love story and I am sure Bev loved this straight from your heart.

      After 26 years of being married to an abusive alcoholic have also found my soul mate;best friend my partner and all else.

      We understand and support each other when times are a little tough.

      I never want to take for granted what we have and i doubt i will.

      Thanks for this gem;a vote up up and away here.

      Take car and have a great day.

      Eddy.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Katrine, I know for a fact I would not enjoy life and appreciate life as I do if it all came easily. I needed to see the dark before I could appreciate the light. You are a kind and beautiful person and I greatly appreciate you.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Mckbirdbks, thank you so much! I appreciate your kind words and I wish you happiness.

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      KatrineDalMonte 5 years ago

      Hi Billy, what a wonderful love story!

      What is it they say? No pain no gain...How much does one have to suffer and go through before finally finding that deserved peace? If everything was simply easy to get would we ever learn anything, would we ever grow wiser and stronger, would we appreciate life?

      I congratulate you on having enough strength and living with high purpose and ideals. You and Bev are wonderful, well done :-)

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      mckbirdbks 5 years ago from Emerald Wells, Just off the crossroads,Texas

      Nice read. Congratulations on all counts.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Savanah, I love the fact that I do make you smile (or laugh)...if in fact I do that then I have achieved one of my goals in writing...the human connection. Thank you my dear; you are a kind person.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Angela, there are a few of us out there, and if you don't have one already I wish you well in finding the man you deserve. Thank you so much for your lovely words and support; you are a kind and good person.

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      savanahl 5 years ago

      What a wonderful story Billybuc. Bev sounds like an incredible lady, and a lucky woman to have you. What an amazing heart you have. I wish both of you all the love, happiness and success in life. Thank you so much for sharing your wonderful love story. I love coming to your page first thing in the morning. You always put a smile (or laugh) on my face. :)

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      Angela Martinez 5 years ago from Manila, Philippines

      simply beautiful! i wouldn't say its a great hub as for me, its a very great piece of ur heart Bill. best wishes to u & Bev. unbelievable as it is, am quite lost for right words to say how i feel that there are still few great men out there who knows the real meaning of LOVE. hope to see more of those endangered "specie" like u in this world Bill.^^ thanks for sharing this hub that gives hope.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Rosalinem, thank you. I am honored that you take the time to read my writings.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      TenKay, believe me, I didn't know what it was like either so it is a new experience for me as well. Thank you for your kind remarks.

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      Rosalinem 5 years ago from Nairobi, Kenya

      Hi Billybuc, your writing is fantastic. Every time I signin hub pages I read your work and its so inspiring. keep up the good work

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      TENKAY 5 years ago from Philippines

      Hah! so that is how a guy feel and act when they're in love. I've always wondered... now I know.

      Congratulations to both of you for facing your fears. As a reward, you are given each other as a lifetime gift.

      Thank you for sharing your story.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Mark, what makes that comment of yours so special is the type of man you are. I appreciate your well-wishes and I appreciate you my friend. I am indeed a blessed man. Thank you!

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      Mark G Weller 5 years ago from Lake Charles, LA.

      Bill, You could not have written a more meaningful letter. The bond between you and Bev is obvious. You both are very fortunate, by that I mean not lucky but ....looks for the word...blessed!

      All my thoughts for you two my friend.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Scribenet, thank you and I completely agree! Bev will echo my words of appreciation and our best to you.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      And I you...but no matter how nice you are I will only give you forever...and a day!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Awww Minnetonka, thank you. There are very few days when I don't feel like I am dreaming. The hard work and patience were all worth it. I greatly appreciate your lovely comment.

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      kingmaxler 5 years ago from Olympia, Washington USA

      I adore you

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      Scribenet 5 years ago from Ontario, Canada

      A true love is one of the best gifts of life. Congratulations to you and Bev!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Stages, thank you, and you are correct, Bev is a wonderful woman for sure. Blessings to you as well.

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      Linda Rogers 5 years ago from Minnesota

      Darn-You have me running for a tissue. This is so sweet and I'm so happy for you and your recovery. I bet some days you just feel like your dreaming. You will not only inspire those that fear falling in love but your helping those with addictions. What a hopeful message your tribute to Bev gives. Hit many buttons and up and away. Yay to you and Bev.

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      The Stages Of ME 5 years ago

      Beautifully written ~ Your Bev sounds wonderful ~ Love is a blessing and a gift in these times of brokenness ~ I believe this will be a love letter to your lovely wife that will be forever ~ Blessings to you both

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you so much Shimmering...coming from a person I respect that means a great deal to me. Peace to you as well and thank you for following so faithfully.

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      shimmering Dawn 5 years ago

      Bill, I am so happy that you conquered your fears.. love is such a wonderful thing.. this is such a lovely story narrated truthfully... I hope this story of your inspires those like you who are still struggling with their fears.. Wish you both happiness and love always. Have a blessed day. Peace.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Dawn, I do believe you are right! She is, indeed, a lovely person and I am a very lucky man; I finally got out of my own way and let it happen. Thank you!

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      Dawn Conklin 5 years ago from New Jersey, USA

      Beautiful hub! Bev sounds like a lovely person. It sounds like you have found the woman you are meant to spend your life with :)

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Paula, you did it again...I started out smiling when I saw your face and then had tears in my eyes when I read your message....dammit girl, can't you just be blase in your remarks? :) I love that song, don't you? Thank you my dear!

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      Paula 5 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      s i g h .....How I LOVE a Love Story. I sincerely thank you for sharing this magical, special part of your life with us. You leave no doubt, bill,that you and Bev share something rare and wonderful.....you deserve this and I wish you years and years of this joy, love & devotion you have found in one another.

      Who said life isn't perfect once in awhile? It IS when it "feels" perfect! The video made me cry, again, damn it!!...........My heart is singing for you & your sweet Bev.

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Alecia, thank you so much! I just wanted the world to know how happy I am!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      Thank you Lisa! It was a damn long road but I finally stayed on the path. I greatly appreciate you.

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      Alecia Murphy 5 years ago from Wilmington, North Carolina

      This is a very lovely story. And I love how this story illustrates that love like this is really once in a lifetime. Great hub!

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      Lisa 5 years ago from Tennessee

      Oh, this is beautiful and dang it, you made me tear up! Yes, she is your reward, but you are hers, as well! Voted this one beautiful, awesome, and way, way, way up! I'm glad you found each other!

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      Bill Holland 5 years ago from Olympia, WA

      I sure think so...at least I am. ;) Thank you darling!

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      Sandy 5 years ago

      Wow, you are two lucky people!!!!!!