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What Makes Me A Sinner? Can I be forgiven?

Updated on September 1, 2010

Have The Faith Within Yourself!

Yes, I am a christian that sins! I am 42 years old and I have sinned my entire life. I believe that I am a good person, a good christian and I know that I will go to heaven. I grew up in a strict Catholic home. We attended mass every Sunday and Catholic Holy days. I truly believe in what I was taught and know that religion is the basis for a strong foundation of who you are as a person. The months grew into years and as I got older I lost some of my basic foundation of my roots, of my faith. I felt like I had committed many sins. I was struggling with being a Catholic girl and learning how to forgive myself and most of all maintain my strong faith within my religion.

Growing up Catholic was not hard. Being a christian and having the faith in Jesus is not hard either.

But when I reached a young adult and I was on my own I started sinning more and more. I was lying to my family and friends. It was a time when I forgot about my religion, stopped going to church and become self-absorbed. The years started passing by and I realized I did not like the person I had become. I was so self-absorbed and did whatever I wanted regardless of others. I was confused and overwhelmed with guilt that I felt ashamed of whom I was. During this journey of self-loathing and continuous acts of sinfulness, I realized I was the exact person I did not want to become. At the lowest point in my life I needed to reflect on my faith and learn to become a better person, a better christian.

The hardest part of self-reflecting is learning to forgive yourself. I know that most families love their loved ones unconditionally, through the good and bad times. I had to ask my family for forgiveness and just apologize for my behavior an explain that I am trying, to make changes. That was the easy part. Trying to forgive myself was much more difficult. I was insecure and had a lot of self-pity within me. I took responsibility for all my mistakes and sins that I had committed over the years. I learned how to forgive myself by praying, praying that God will forgive me and help me to learn to forgive myself. I started going back to church, learning how to be a christian, forgiving myself and others, plus, I started reading the bible.

In learning how to forgive myself, I started to look at my faith. I was a Catholic girl by heart and it was time for me to have the faith in myself and give it back to God. During this troubling time in my life my faith gave me the strength to self-reflect, to look in the mirror and see the bad and good within my soul. My belief and willfulness drove me to understand and accept the sins but to propel into a better person. My faith gave me the gift of self-change and self-acceptance. Faith in yourself and in your religion is very important.

Yes, I am a sinner. I believe we are all sinners one way or another. But being a sinner does not make us a bad person. Learn how to minimize your sins, understand the power of self forgiveness, understand that being a christian is about forgiving, but most of all have faith in your religion, your church, in yourself and in God.

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    • Micky Dee profile image

      Micky Dee 

      9 years ago

      Thinkers take things to heart. People wonder the what-ifs. I try to leave things in God's but we look back. I think I trip up looking back Thank you Ma'am!

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      9 years ago from Fabulous USA

      GPAGE, You should just like me, I am getting better about going to church and worship but I have been doing more of that at home. I truly appreciate your reading this special hub of mine!

    • GPAGE profile image

      GPAGE 

      10 years ago from California

      Ladybird33.....I'm not religious in any way or form in my present life. I do not go to any place of worship except for a creek or my garden. I feel that I am very "spiritual" and have reflected and learned from my past mistakes. I thrive every day to be a better person just like you. This is a very emotional hub and I thank you for sharing and writing about this "special" journey of yours. Best, GPAGE

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      10 years ago from Fabulous USA

      Upal10, thank you for commenting and sharing because what you say makes me feel better.

      James, how are you? Thank you so much for reading and understanding it. I appreciate that so much! It is a journey...that was all :)

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      James A Watkins 

      10 years ago from Chicago

      This Hub of yours is very moving. I enjoyed going along on the journey, living it through your eyes, to its joyful ending. This is a fine witness. Thank you for it.

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      Ashraf Mir 

      10 years ago from Dhaka

      God has set the criteria of sins and also set what and what is good work. god also said that if you commit sin, repent for that and you'll be forgiven by me. a believer in god ultimately go to heaven. but a non believer can't go unpunished. this is the god's saying. thanks for the sharing of your own life.

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      10 years ago from Fabulous USA

      Dee, I love when others get as passionate as I do. Truly, this is a tough subject and hard one to let yourself overcome. I proud of you and I love the long comment.

    • goodfriendiam profile image

      goodfriendiam 

      10 years ago

      I use to feel, so condemned. Afraid I was heading for hell. It wasn't always that way, for I can remember, a time when I was around 6yrs old, and my mom took as to the salvation army church all the time. And do you know, I remember singing Jesus loves me (which by the way, I carried the song, for a very long time, it got me through, a lot. of shit that happened to me, almost like he knew I was going to need it someday) But anyways, I remember a moment when singing that song in church at 6yrs old, and I had this feeling or a knowing that, there wasn't a darn thing wrong with me, and that He loves me just the way I am. I forgot about this experience until just recently. And do you know what, I don't attend church no more, but it is true that though I make a lot of mistakes, and will make many more, I am perfect just the way I am. (talkative, outspoken, a ding bat, talented, witty, In your face if your in mine, sitting around doing nothing, and the list could go on....LOL) good read, keep soul searching, and know that even though I may not know you personally, you are perfect just the way you are. Dee

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      10 years ago from Fabulous USA

      DoodleLyn, thank you and your right, forgiving ourselves is the hardest part to share and to do. Thank you for the quote, very nice reminder.

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      10 years ago from Fabulous USA

      DoodleLyn, thank you and your right, forgiving ourselves is the hardest part to share and to do. Thank you for the quote, very nice reminder.

    • DoodleLyn profile image

      DoodleLyn 

      10 years ago from Upstate New York, USA

      Ladybird - Very honest and powerful hub...thank you for opening this vulnerable part of yourself. I believe God is smiling on you for sharing. Acknowledging our sins is easy, forgiving ourselves is the difficult part. But He says in His word that if we just ask, He will forgive and make our sins as far from Him as East is West, and we will be clean as snow. I am sharing this hub with someone I know who will appreciate it and needs to hear it.

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      10 years ago from Fabulous USA

      Sandra, thank you for commenting and you are so right, it's tuff to have self acceptance.

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      sandra rinck 

      10 years ago

      Sin, what a terrible word. :( I am glad you could accept and forgive yourself. I think it is really the hardest part. Forgiveness is easy, repentance...a little harder... self acceptance for who you are or who you want to be... that's tuff. Honesty...perfect. :D

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      10 years ago from Fabulous USA

      Thank you blondepoet, they say the road to recovery is first to admit...right? Thanks for the comment.

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      blondepoet 

      10 years ago from australia

      Ladybird I am just as guilty as you, after all we are human, well I am a very over the top human, I admire you cause you are honest to say it. :) :)

    • Ladybird33 profile imageAUTHOR

      Ladybird33 

      10 years ago from Fabulous USA

      Hoowantstono, thank you for reading my hub. The information in your comment is so important and a very nice refresher for me. Thank you again for reading and commenting!

    • HOOWANTSTONO profile image

      HOOWANTSTONO 

      10 years ago

      Why would you want to minimize your sins. I know being forgiven them forever is better.

      Why would anyone want to carry a burden (their sins) all their life when there is God who has dealt with it forever, and removed the burden for you, and became your sin on the cross. So because your sin died on the cross your sin is dead in Gods eyes, and you are not a sinner anymore in Gods eyes, even though you do sin. What a great God we serve.

      1Jo:3:9: Whosoever is born of God doth not commit sin; for his seed remaineth in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God.

      So dont feel judged as you have all your life, it was not God judging you.

      Joh:5:22: For the Father judgeth no man, but hath committed all judgment unto the Son:

      But I am sorry to say though, good works means nothing. Otherwise there would be no need for Christ and his Crucifixion,then man can do it himself.

      Bless you anyway

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