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The Purpose of My Life

Updated on May 19, 2013

A Personal Revelation of My Purpose in Life

Many years ago I remember having a very deep conversation with my Tang Soo Do instructor. I remember sitting in his office with tears streaming down my cheeks as I told him I didn't even know what the purpose of life is - worse yet - I didn't know what the purpose of my life was and why I was even here. Although that conversation was many years ago, I still remember it like it was yesterday.

As I sit here under the glow of my beloved fathers lamp this evening, I realize that tonight will also be one of those times that will stand out in my mind in the years to come. What has happened to me tonight forever changed my life- and the course that has been laid out before me tonight will be the final chapter in the book of my life.

Not a final chapter as in the end of my life - but rather a final chapter into finally understanding who I am and why I am here, why things have happened the way they have, and why I am here on this Earth. A revelation that I have been searching for 49 years for - my purpose in life.

Funny that this life changing "light bulb moment" would come to me on such a crummy day ( but isn't that just like life?) I had one of the worst days of my life today- I won't go into details but let's just say that I was feeling like a complete and utter failure- a failure as a business woman, a failure as a woman, and a failure as a person.

Many things converged to push me over the top and into an abyss that I didn't think I could pull myself out of of- not just things from today but a convergence of events over the last few years that have threatened to topple everything I ever loved or dreamed of in life.

Tonight as I lay there reviewing the day, and thinking about what had transpired, I decided to pull out one of my favorite books (Streams in the Desert, a daily devotional) and I decided to read today's devotional. As I opened the book, the pages automatically fell to today's date - without me even searching. For an electric minute time stood still because I knew that in that moment that the words for this day were meant for me to read- and here is what it said:


November 23 Streams in the Desert...(At Wit's End)Streams in the Desert - Nov. 23

At Wit's End

"At their wit's end, they cry unto the Lord in their trouble, and he bringeth them out" (Ps. 107:27, 28).

Are you standing at "Wit's End Corner," Christian, with troubled brow?

Are you thinking of what is before you,

And all you are bearing now?

Does all the world seem against you,

And you in the battle alone?

Remember--at "Wit's End Corner"

Is just where God's power is shown.

Are you standing at "Wit's End Corner," Blinded with wearying pain,

Feeling you cannot endure it,

You cannot bear the strain,

Bruised through the constant suffering,

Dizzy, and dazed, and numb?

Remember--at "Wit's End Corner"

Is where Jesus loves to come.

Are you standing at "Wit's End Corner"? Your work before you spread,

All lying begun, unfinished,

And pressing on heart and head,

Longing for strength to do it,

Stretching out trembling hands?

Remember--at. "Wit's End Corner"

The Burden-bearer stands.

Are you standing at "Wit's End Corner"? Then you're just in the very spot

To learn the wondrous resources

Of Him who faileth not:

No doubt to a brighter pathway

Your footsteps will soon be moved,

But only at "Wit's End Corner"

Is the "God who is able" proved.

--Antoinette Wilson

Do not get discouraged; it may be the last key in the bunch that opens the door. --Stansifer

My Purpose Was Revealed To Me That Night

Right at "Wits End Corner"- that is exactly where I found myself- and exactly how I was feeling about myself and my life around me.........

And as I reviewed, and prayed, and searched for answers, using all the keys I had to open up the doors to my mind.... it was when I reached for the last key that my mind opened up in a brilliant clarity - a clarity so stunning I almost had to catch my revealing that I felt a energetic jolt go through my body....

Realizing that my purpose had been before me my whole life - when I was a little girl and "writing" my first book, then when I was a little older and writing my first journals - my first book of poetry as a teenager - later essays in college that moved my friends to tears - speeches that made people laugh and connect with me - letters to my family and friends that made them laugh and cry - more recently my newspaper columns that helped the community relate to me and I to them - then here at the Hub - where once again the words began to tumble out of my heart - flowing freely again like fresh water breaking forth from a dam that had long been holding back...just like the streams in the desert...

It was the WORD. The words that always have been there in me, never finding peace just to rest in me but demanding an audience- a place to call home in other hearts too. That was my connection - my purpose here - to reconnect to the world through my words! And it's always been there - I just didn't recognize it for what it was - I always thought my life was supposed to take a different path...

I don't know why or how it took me so long to get to this point. It seems like there have been so many wasted opportunities before this but perhaps that is the path that I needed to walk before arriving at this point of where I needed to be- backed into a corner- at "Wits End Corner" - where I finally needed to throw up my hands to heaven and realize that if I ever wanted to find my purpose in life I needed to stop and listen to the heartbeat of my soul. A soul that until now was missing the essential beat - the purpose.

I feel like a big burden has been lifted off my shoulders - as If I could fly - as if nothing in the world is impossible for me - as if the world has just changed direction - or maybe it's just me that finally realized the direction that my life should have been going - or maybe it's that sometimes God takes us into places we don't understand only to bring into a place of understanding so deep and so personal that only then do we know the truth............

When we finally know the truth for the Purpose of Our Life.

Grief Can Make or Break

This lovely woman was my mother. After her and my dad died within 8 months of each other I lost my passion for writing. I thought it was gone.
This lovely woman was my mother. After her and my dad died within 8 months of each other I lost my passion for writing. I thought it was gone. | Source

The Purpose Driven Life - One of My Favorite Books

I Was Always A Writer and Didn't Know It....

You see I've always been a writer- and these are the things I reflected on tonight. As I went through-the various phases of my life I realized that among all those streams flowed a common theme for the - the written word. It didn't matter if I was on the freeway driving- if I got a sudden inspiration for a story that needed to be written down, I would pull over and write it down. I could be sound asleep and wake up and find myself wide awake and writing down something that had come to me in my sleep. It never mattered where I was or what I was doing, words that needed to be written down would come to me at any given moment or time of the day.........

"The written word has always dwelled within me- the words that flow out of me are the essence of who I am- they are the words of my heart- the very air that I breathe. I live and breath and consume the written word. I am the words and the words are me- there is no distinction- there is no separation between the two- it is who I am - who I always was- who I am now- who I am meant to be. It will be the legacy I leave when my physical body no longer exists."

( This quote I wrote will be part of my new bio- it so accurately describes how I feel)

It is my purpose, and God never wastes anything. All the heartaches I have suffered , all the sadness, all the tragedies were actually blessings in disguise- they happened so that my stories could find a place in others hearts- to be shared, laughed at and cried over.

My life-my words-my purpose. Finally.


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  • Sage Williams profile image

    Sage Williams 

    8 years ago

    Dorsi - A truly amazing and inspirational hub. WoW! I'm speechless and that doesn't happen very often.

    Amazingly beautiful,


  • H.C Porter profile image


    8 years ago from Lone Star State

    Great Hub!

    I suppose many people question why they are here and what they should be doing while here. I take each day one day at a time (and some days are moment to moment) but I suppose when I figure out my purpose I will know. Until then, I am just going to try and do what I have been doing, which is; continue to care about others and take care of my kids and stay true to myself.

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    9 years ago


    You said it all so beautifully. God never wastes anything! I also, am going through a rough time. At 50 years old, and "nobody's child" I painfully wonder "what is my purpose in life". Like you, I too, have always been a writer, moving people to laughter and tears. Until now, I have not had the courage to actively pursue this God-given talent. Thank you for your inspiring passages. It will make a difference in my life. God bless you.

  • C.S.Alexis profile image


    9 years ago from NW Indiana


    I ran from Your Chapter 2 to this hub because it is posted at the bottom of Chapter 2. Now I am freakin', 'cause I should be sleeping at 3am, The Witching Hour, and I have gone to bed 3 different times tonight only to get back up...Restless wouldn't have me.

    I am feeling you here, Thank God Huh?


  • dayzeebee profile image


    10 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

    your passion explodes in every word. it is an experience that lends truth to the saying...when the student is ready, the teacher will come.... i'm so happy for you! Godbless

  • Hope Wilbanks profile image

    Hope Wilbanks 

    10 years ago from Louisiana

    Beautifully said Dorsi! I'm finding great solace in your Hubs this evening. I've been going through a mini identity crisis myself the last little bit; feeling like I don't have purpose or direction in my life. I definitely need to find a quiet place to get still, pray, reflect, and listen to God's voice again. I think I know what my purpose is....I've just been ignoring it for a few years now.

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    Dorsi Diaz 

    10 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

    Wow thanks all of you for the beautiful comments- I really appreciate it,This is such a relief to finally know my "purpose"- now the next step will be knowing what I'm supposed to be doing with my writing skills! I was thinking about it last night and realized there are SO many things I could end doing as a writer- so it will be quite an adventure- and I'm sure God will show me where I'm supposed to be and what I'm supposed to be writing about.

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    Roberta Kyle 

    10 years ago from Central New Jersey

    Dorsi, this is so lovely and so very real and honest. Thanks for doing it.

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    Rodney Fagan 

    10 years ago from Johannesberg South Africa, The Gold Mine City

    Awe some Hub, I am reminded of that hymn, "How great though art".

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    Ann Martin 

    10 years ago

    I agree with you on the importance of the word, but i believe the word is simply a means of accomplishing the great goal - bringing happiness to yourself and to others. Words are a great way of doing this, but actios i believe, are equally important too.

  • Lifebydesign profile image


    10 years ago from Australia

    this is just beautiful Dorsi. Its nice to be reminded of why we're here and how we can tune into it.

  • Storytellersrus profile image


    10 years ago from Stepping past clutter

    In the beginning was The Word...

    May your words reflect the wisdom and truth of that original Word!

    Thanks for sharing this experience with us.

  • Rob Jundt profile image

    Rob Jundt 

    10 years ago from Midwest USA

    This is such an inspiring and transparent witness about all that God has made you to be. I have been blessed by your words today. -- I, too, have seen the struggles associated with dancing around one's purpose. Be all that you were meant to be. Doing so, along with faith in the one true God, will set you free indeed. Allow your words to soar along with your heart. Blessings!


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