Another Bad Day In A Bad Month! Is It Breast Cancer? Just Walk Away Walk On.
Another Bad Day In a Bad Month. Is It Breast Cancer?
I have actually had a very bad month. I can now add today in that bad month as a bad day. Do I make sense? This kind of month or day just has to be walked away from and walk on and still enjoy your life.
I need to mention I had bad flu for more than two weeks this month. I have not felt great this month.
I love my children but sometimes children always have their own problems and there is no way we can help them. They just have to work it all out. They're grown-ups now they can’t run to Mommy and Daddy, but we do have to listen. All that listening causes stress, but I wouldn't want everything hid from me.
The Witch Is Gone.
We did find out one good thing in all of this, the evil stepmother has left the house forever. That is a plus. I called her the Witch B----. I don't know how one woman could be so mean to children. I will never understand it.
Do you have to deal with a teenager? Some grow up to be the best kids, never any trouble then there are the ones who seem to always have problems.
All the drama gives me a headache. There are lots of teenage headaches this week. Some scary!
Wishing I could help, but knowing I can't.
Keeping secrets is another thing I hate doing and I had secrets this week I had to keep to myself. Someone always has a secret they don't want to be told.
I figure if everyone is alive, not in jail and doesn't have a horrible sickness, has a warm home and food to eat we're all doing well.
I'm not good at secrets. I forget too easily that I'm not suppose to tell anyone, like my mother.
Our Old Dog
We have an old dog we keep thinking, should we take him in. His brain is good he eats like a horse. He's not able to walk very well, he wobbles along. I have to put throw rugs all over the house because he can't walk on the floors, his feet will slip right out from under him all four legs spread out. We have to help him into his chair; he has problems lying on his dog bed because it's on the floor. He never whines or cries out. I know it sounds bad, but I keep hoping he will fall asleep and not wake up then we won't have to have him euthanized. I don't want to see his worried face when we have to take him in. I would rather he die in his own home in his own chair. This is another stress in our lives. He's 14.
Update On Our Dog.
It was a sad day for us. We had our dog, Reno, put down yesterday morning. He's buried in the back yard on the hill under a big tree with our other loved pets.
I had to go for my yearly mammogram yesterday. I told my husband I didn't want to go. I’m sick of doctor visits and test. I just want to do nothing, but I kept the appointment and went. Today they call me and I have to go back in for more tests. When she said left breast I already knew. I suspected something was wrong on that side. It felt heavy. The spot is very small so why did it feel heavy? I sure have no idea. Now I have to wait until next week for more tests. Waiting is always the worst.
I never found the lump with self-exam the mammogram found it.
They called this morning I'm setup for Friday. I won't know any results until Monday. They will do a guided needle biopsy. Their goal is to obtain a small sample of tissue. Only 15-20% proves to be cancer. The test will be done with an ultrasound machine and special needle. They freeze the area before they put the needle in. That's the part I'm not looking forward to. A tiny incision is made, and the biopsy needle is advanced into the site. Multiple tissue specimens are obtained. A tiny marker is placed at the site where tissue is removed. This will help to identify the spot later if need be, so it's more wait and see. Continued down below.
I went shopping with a friend last week. She was trying on clothes. I was looking around. The sales lady came up to me and asks me if my daughter would like to try on the blouse she had in her hand, crazy woman. It was my birthday and I'm always glad that I made it to another birthday, but I still feel old every time a birthday comes around.
My friend is ten years younger than me. The woman ruined my happy day. We let her know she was wrong and she knew I was not happy. I know I'm old, but I didn't think I looked so old. I guess now I know the truth. I left the store without buying a thing.
I should have asked her when her baby was due. Oh no, that isn't nice and I would never do that, but I sure felt like it. I'm just not a nasty rude person.
My husband is retired, but he works two jobs. One job he has yard work for one family around their homes, warehouses, and landing strip. It's a big outfit. Believe me, this is a lot of work. He comes home from one job at 5:00 and heads to the other job until dark. Well, he did some work for them this year, but when he went over to get the mower ready his male boss said to forget it for a couple weeks. Nothing was ready the grass really was not growing, to cold 31 today. He did clean up work but didn't charge them. He said it was nothing no reason to charge.
So I get this phone call from the wife of the family today. She's just on me about my husband, telling me he's not doing his job. Blah blah....I have nothing to do with this job I usually don't even know what is going on. By the time I got off the phone, I was angry. I did take up for him and I told him later I may have lost him his job.
My husband had been planning on quitting because he gets very little time in the summer to himself and to get our yard work done. He went over and told the boss what his wife had said and told him he was quitting. The boss wanted to know if he was quitting because of her. She runs many of their employees off. My husband let him know he wasn't. He had planned on quitting, but her call made up his mind for sure.
I'm glad he quit it was too much for him at his age he needs to slow down.
May 11 Biopsy Day For Breast Cancer.
I went in early this morning. They took me in a room and I laid on the cart/bed. The two nurses then used the ultrasound machine to find the lump. It was there, it hadn't disappeared. The doctor came in, a nice man. He put the freezing in. It really did not hurt, stung a little. He froze it about 4 times and went deep in by the lump. They bring out the big gun, called vacuum core biopsy needle and tell me not to look at it because the size would scare me. It takes a small sample of the breast tissue.
He headed needle in and down looking for the lump. He couldn't find it. The lump was gone. He must have hit the lump with the freezing needle and it broke open, the lump was a cyst because of the way it broke open. They looked for it again on the ultrasound, no lump. They sent me for another mammogram and still no lump. They taped me up over the small cut they had made, didn't need stitches, gave me a tiny ice pack and sent me on my way.
I am so happy it was a cyst. I have to go back in 6 months to be checked again. So ladies if you have to have this procedure done there is only very little pain with it. I was really worried about the pain from the freezing, but it isn't bad at all. Thank you, for all the prayers and thoughts.
I have a sister-in-law that has been battling breast cancer for years now. I know how much she has been through. I also have an aunt that recently had breast cancer. It's not easy for anyone. My heart goes out to all women that have this terrible disease.
Just one bad day after another.
I have faith things always get better. I know other people who are going through much more than I am. If I had to go through what they are I don't know if I could stand it. I can take anything but children being sick.
We have been through much in our married life.
I try to be a happy person and not let things get me down. I look at it this way next month will be a better month. The cold will go away and the sun will shine.
But I will still be old. Ha Ha
May 15 Adding to my bad month.
Well, today I received my first hate comment. I was surprised that anyone would hate that much. I have been trying to fix all my hubs with grammar and spelling, but this girl beat me to one of the hubs. Bless her heart I'm sure she didn't mean to have so much hate over one little hub. Maybe she's having a bad day.
I won't allow comments like this to go on my hubs, but I don't mind telling everyone about them. People like this forget their IP number shows up.
I believe she is from Kingston, Pa.
I went into town not knowing my husband had borrowed my money out of my purse. He didn't want to wake me.
I met with some ladies for sewing, afterward ran over to Subway to get a sub. No money, oh well, I had my debit card. IT WAS DECLINED, in front of all the ladies. My good friend said no worry I can buy lunch.
I came home called the bank they said no reason for it to be declined the problem has to be at the other end. This was the first time I had used it while out. I never use this card hate using it. Only use it on the Internet and had used it just the day before on the Internet, no problem. I'm old school and like cash or checks.
You and I both know no matter what you tell people about a declined card their never going to believe you. What is this world coming to when we have to depend on these ugly little cards? I thought they might make me wash dishes to pay for my food.
This happened to my son-in-law once. He was traveling. My daughter had her card stolen, had to cancel them. They only had one card. He found himself in the airport with no way to pay but checks. They took his check can you believe that? After that, they had to get separate cards.
Update End Of May
We have been with our credit union for many years. We like them we know the ladies they know us. We get a letter; our credit union is going under. They have been transferring all our accounts to another credit union. I hate this I hate starting all over in another place I know nothing about. That could explain the glitch in the credit card. They just let us know this a few days ago and things have already been changed over. I had no idea they were going under. Oh well, just another one of those everyday aggravating problems.
This was just another annoying day in the month of May.
E. A. Wright has the right idea.
Dog having a bad day
This is just an update on the breast cancer scare. I had to have a mammogram done again in Jan. They did the mammogram and then came in and told me my cyst was back and twice its size. They also insisted the doctor I had before did not do a guided needle biopsy.
When I had the biopsy in May 2012 they told me he was doing a guided needle biopsy. I saw the big gun and the ultrasound machine. They showed me the machine. Now they're telling me that's not what he did and they are upset with him because he broke the cyst and didn't take any biopsy. They’re mad at me for not coming in sooner. I didn't come in sooner because the girl on the phone told me I could wait until May 2013 and she acted like that is what I should do or my insurance would not pay for it.
By the time they got through telling me all of this stuff, I felt like I was in the Twilight Zone. They really make a person feel old. I know what I was told at the time by the doctor and the nurses and I know what I saw and what type of machine I saw. Now those same nurses are denying that he used that machine at all. It's crazy. To repeat, I know what I saw before, something crazy was going on and I don't know what it was.
To continue, I went through another biopsy this time they did biopsies for sure. They used the big guided gun and ultrasound. This machine looked very familiar to me, I wonder why.
Everything came out fine and I went back in 3 months and everything was still fine. So that is my update for 2013.
It can always get worse. I guess I just need to count my blessings.
It's now 2014, believe me, things got worse. Someday I will be able to explain 2014.
How Bad Can They Get?
December of 2013 my husband was diagnosed with lung cancer. He was gone by December of 2014. We were married 52 years. It's a hard life without him.
Our dog died two weeks before my husband.
I had to start 2015 without my husband or our dog. Then my mother passed away in May 2015.
May of 2016 I had to move from a house I loved and a city I hated to leave.
My brother has cancer now and it doesn't look good for him.
You see things can always get worse. Life goes on. I'm thankful to God for my children, grandchild ren and great-grandchildren. A warm home, food to eat and fairly good health. I'm also happy to have my two small dogs.