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An Alcoholic In The Mirror

Updated on August 27, 2013

Have you ever just stopped and looked into a mirror? What did you see? Did you see a beautiful and loving person or an alcoholic in the mirror?

All through my earlier years I was always a vane person, had to look good and look healthy. I would look into the mirror and just say to myself just how fortunate I was to be healthy, happy and loved by the best parents in the world.

There came a time in my life when I was introduced to the filthy habit of alcohol abuse and continued to abuse it for many many years. Little did I know that my world would soon fall to pieces in the upcoming years due to my alcohol addiction.

I would look in the mirror in the morning as we all do, getting ready to start my day. Each and every week that went by I noticed small changes in my appearance, my looks and my weight. Me, being so vane and always wanting to look as good as I could, did not want to admit to myself that I was changing in my appearance and also my outlook in life.

I saw this, but didn't want to make a change in my life and quit drinking alcohol. As much as I wanted to, I just could not, the addiction got the best of me. We have all heard the old saying "that pictures and mirrors never lie". As much as I looked into that mirror and saw my world changing before my very eyes,it still wasn't enough to make me quit drinking.

I knew I needed help but was embarrassed to ask due to trying to hide my addiction from others. I wasn't hiding anything, my changing appearance was telling the true picture to many of the people that knew me well.

They would say just joking around, so I thought, "man .... putting a little weight on there Mark aren't you?" Statements such as that made me really feel like crap and I STILL didn't want to change my life around.


With small hints like that from my friends, co-workers and even my own family I started to be really self conscience of what they were saying to me and how seeing how I was changing. That made me really start to think that I was truly destroying myself and ruining the great family life I once had all for the bottle. I started to put my addiction in front of everything in my life.

I would look in the mirror and say "who are you standing there"? You don't look like the person I used to know. When I finally got so sick and tired of what I was seeing in that mirror I then decided to try and change my life for the good and start to feel good about myself again. I am now going to devote my life to my family and my sobriety. Never to have a negative thought again and to keep a Positive Attitude from now on in my life.

I had to make that number one on my list, to admit I had an alcohol addiction, and in order to change my life I would have to surrender to my demons and say good-bye forever. And so I did and have been sober seen then and there is nothing like a clean and sober life, take it from me.

I love my sobriety and love myself again and the new life I now have.




© 2010 Mark Bruno

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      Mark Bruno 7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Wow That was great. I never heard of that poem but I glad you shared with me.

      Thanks so much!

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      selrach 7 years ago

      Hi clean life reminded of a poem I know.

      The Man in the Glass

      When you get what you want in your struggles for self

      And the world makes you king for a day,

      Just go to a mirror and look at yourself

      And see what that man has to say.

      For it isn't your father or mother or wife

      Whose judgment upon you must pass,

      The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life

      Is the one staring back from the glass.

      Some people might think you're a straight-shooting chum

      And call you a wonderful guy.

      But the man in the glass says you're only a bum

      If you can't look him straight in the eye.

      He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest

      For he's with you clear to the end

      And you've passed your most dangerous test

      If the guy in the glass is your friend.

      You may fool the whole world down the pathway of years

      And get pats on the back as you pass

      But your final reward will be heartache and tears

      If you've cheated the man in the glass

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      Mark Bruno 7 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      Thanks Denise for the comment. I have to stay strong to myself but I will continue on the road to sobriety and NEVER turn back

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      Denise Handlon 7 years ago from North Carolina

      Very thought provoking. It takes alot of courage to write about such a sensitive subject. I know this is part of your recovery, also. Good for you for staying true to this process.

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      Just A Voice 7 years ago

      These are good hubs...hard to read...but good.

      I am a daily wine drinker. It helps as a de-stresser to end my day with some wine.

      I tell myself it doesn't interfer with anything, because I only drink wine in the evening and never so much that it affects my day time. No hangovers, no embarrassing moments to worry about.

      But the fact is I do drink everyday. I look forward to that first relaxing sip of the evening. And there is that troubling fact that my body as it is growing older is starting to show signs that I'm doing something that is not too healthy for it.

      I'm hoping to bring an end to the daily wine intake, and leave it to only the special occaasions. But am finding it hard as one stressful thing after another crops up and gives me the urge to soothe it with my vino.

      Hopefully vanity will win this particular war.