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How Drinking Alcohol Can Ruin Your Life's Dreams

Updated on December 23, 2010

From the time I could talk and walk I had images and thoughts of how my life would be as an adult. I had dreams that only the rich could afford.

When I was young I started thinking and experimenting making things that could improve one's life and to make me some money. I would go out and cut grass, shovel snow, worked on a farm picking beans and anything I could think of to make money.

Of course, what money I made was hardly nothing, but it was like hitting gold for such a young person as myself. I had the determination to be rich, not only with money , but rich in love. I had such a loving and caring family that would support and give me guidance in anything I wanted to do in my life.

I had dreams of owning a huge house on the ocean or the bay with a beautiful boat out back tied to the dock. I could see myself achieving all those dreams because I had the determination to go after those goals I had.

As time went by and I got my drivers license a few things started to change for me. I kind of forgot about all those dreams I had a few years back and just concentrated on driving around with my buddies. Back then the drinking age was 18 years old and I guess you can tell what happened next, yep started experimenting with the alcohol.

This was the beginning of the end of my big dreams I had for so many years. The drinking got to be an everyday routine for me and the buddies. We thought, man this is great, I feel like a million bucks, yeah, the million bucks I should of been making if I were strong enough to push the bottle away and just say NO.

Years went by and I meet the love of my life. I slowed up a lot on the drinking because I knew I had a great woman and didn't want to lose her due to being addicted to alcohol. I spent every possible moment with her and left the drinking buddies behind for awhile, so I thought.

Things started to happen in my world like for instance parents passing away, a lawsuit which I won't get into, but those things put me right back on track with the drinking and the people I used to hang around with.

I knew I had a real alcohol addiction, but never wanted to admit it to myself or anyone else for that matter, DENIAL big time for me. I just thought "whats the use in trying to reach my goals and dreams now, it will never happen". I just gave up on myself and everything I dreamed of in younger years.

It's amazing how drinking alcohol can ruin your life's dreams it you let it.

The alcohol had taken over my mind and body and I thought there is no way out now, I'm addicted. I wanted so bad to quit drinking alcohol, but I didn't have the willpower nor the strength, or determination to quit. I felt useless to myself and everyone else including my family which I might add, hung in there with me all those years of drinking. They were my backbone and my support, because I needed help bad to get out from under this horrible addiction I had, and I am so thankful that they stuck by my side or I would probably be dead now.

So to make a very long story short, about a year ago drinking in the garage as usual something came over me like a breath of fresh air, like I was cleansed and felt free from my troubles and addiction. At that moment I surrender to my demons and haven't touch a drink since.

I know for some it's hard to believe what I just mentioned, but that is what happened and I am so glad it did, for not only myself, but all of my family as well.

I am now working on catching up with all the time that has been wasted in my life due to my alcohol addiction. So, if anyone has a dream or a goal that you want to achieve, just go after it and Please don't let any kind of addiction hold you back from your dreams, as I did. The time that you wasted by your addiction you will never get back again in your life.



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    • the clean life profile image

      Mark Bruno 6 years ago from New Jersey Shore

      drspaniel, yes I do know enough to know it will sooner or later kill you. I know that enough is enough. I have sent about a 50,000 manuscript to a publisher and was excepted, but the thing is they wanted upfront money and I was told that is a no no, so I declined on offer. Thanks for your comment

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      drspaniel 6 years ago from Somewhere, where the sun shines once a year...

      You obviously know a lot about alcohol! Ever considered writing a book on it?