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How to Get Out of Depression

Updated on September 16, 2008

Depression is the great disease of our age, our generation with no war to fight, fighting for their will to live. There comes a time that everybody feels like down in the hole. You lose the will to go out, socialize, even to talk with friends. You can't smile you used to do even smile like before.

The most depressing thing about depression is that you get the feeling of it won't ever go away. There are easy ways of getting out of depression like going to a psychiatrists and getting a prescription for anti -depressants. I've had my experience of a depression and I don't like using drugs. So I decided to get out of depression by natural ways or live with it. (It is better to live with your own depression instead of living in a dream offered by a pill.)

I started to read about depression. I looked at every source I could find. Information about depression is good in a way that you start to realize that it is a disease like a flu. It can come and it can go away.(hopefully) Also reading other people's experiences helps in a way because you can find people that has gone the same experiences with you and their experiences can enlighten your path. Talking with other people is also very helpful. If you have very good friends you can depend on who can back you up in that fragile moments talk with them. If you don't want to expose your problems that's okay too. You can talk with a professional psychologist. I didn't go to a psychologists but I shared my feelings with a person I didn't know who had some familiar experiences with me. The fact that I didn't know that person and he didn't know me helps a lot to share your feelings truly.

I also tried to work on a method to overcome my depression. (Maybe there is already a method like that) I sat down with a blank paper and started writing down every little problem that bothers my mind. I wrote like a brainstorming exercise, let all the thoughts go on paper. At last I found my self writing about little memories I had when I was a kid and I had forgot (which actually I didn't forget). When I read all the things I have written I realized how little problems get bigger like a snowflake rolling down the hill.

Working with your chemicals: There is a chemical-biological explanation to everything going on within our bodies. Serotonin is a chemical which is synthesized in our brain, that makes our mood go up. The depression results as (or caused from) serotonin level going down in our brain. The anti-depressants actually deal with taking serotonin level higher. Serotonin chemical can actually be synthesized in our brain so we don't need pills to get our moods up actually. The best way to increase your serotonin levels is sports. Please don't underestimate the effect of sports because it increases your serotonin level and makes you feel good. Instead of standing in your home swallowing pills, going outside and running on your own is a way much better way to feel good about your self.

Don't forget that you can overcome depression.

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      Heather Gomez 3 years ago from Monterey, CA

      Depression really is a universal topic, and many people deal with depression differently. This is a popular discussion. Thank you for you hub.

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      HenryH 4 years ago

      I don't know what caused the onset of my depression. I suspect my new blood pressure med - coreg

      I swim for half and hour and exercise every other day. I also take 5htp 200mg every nite. Still the depression torments me. I am waiting for my medication to run out and I am going to try a different one.

      I am 66 yrs old and never experienced depression this serious and this bad. I used to sleep well, but now cannot fall asleep until 2 or 3am.

      How can I snap out of this? Any suggestions?

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      Shrikrishna Potdar 4 years ago from Bangalore

      I loved this hub because it supported going out & practicing sport instead of taking pills as idea of getting out of depression.

      I have seen many people taking pills for depression which finally results in excess & pills doesn't work. They keep on taking heavy stronger doses of medicines & a stage comes when your body stops responding to any medicine. So one must go for natural treatments like some physical exercises, some yoga, breathing practices, meditations etc. This helps a lot to everyone. Even some prisons have sudarshan kriya & other exercises as part of prison rehabilitation programs to reduce stress in inmates. All these things are working very effectively.

      Go for natural way of getting out of depression. As said in this hub believing you will get out of depression is the key to get out of depression.

      Thanks for a nice hub.

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      anita 5 years ago

      hello everybody.

      Am Anita from Canada i want to share my life experience to every body on this site.i was in a serious relationship with mike i love him so much we have dated for almost 6 years now.untill he meant another girl called charity he told me that he is know longer interested in dating me any more. i was so confuse i don't know what to do.so i told my friend about what my love just told me and he told me that she can solve my problem i was doubting her how can that be possible.so she directed me to a spell caster

      called Dr bola.so i contacted him and i explain every thing to him and he told me that my problem will be solved within two days if i believe i said OK.So he cast a spell for me and after two days my love came back to me begging me on his knees on the ground asking me to forgive him.Am so happy now. so that why i decided to share my experience with every body that have such problem should contact him via email helptemple@yahoo.com

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      noenergy 5 years ago

      Im so badly depressed .. I have this business that ive tried to survive for 6 years and finally just ended and leaves me nothing but huge debts. I am so depressed and scared of me and my son's future. I might loose my house, my car, my friends, my husband and the worst thing I am scared is the education of my 11 year old son. I am still fighting now and tried to venture another business but with no clear positive outcome... I am now living in fear, depression, anxiety, I dont have the energy anymore, after all I did the best of myself, give all my energy to my business and try to be fair to everyone, i end up to be the one broke. I suffer too much on depression that I cannot able to move, my brain stops, I dont want people talk to me, I hang my phone, i always shut my door. But I have a son to take care so I leave a portion on my brain that function only to my son to prepare him to school and give something to eat, even i am also scared for how long can I sustain to give his needs. I have no more money, I borrowed money to all my good friends just to survive for food. I borrowed money to my mom and my siblings. and I cannot ask for them anymore. My brain stops thinking... I was very talented person, I am a designer and created so much good stuff ( gift items) that I made into business, but now I feel paralized, I dont have inspiration, I feel useless and worthless. ... Please help me...

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      Fighting it everyday 5 years ago

      I have had depression most of my life. I have been thru theropy for 3 yrs straight and off and on for many many more. I spent most of my teen and 20's without medication. I was also on medication off and on for many years. The past 6 years I have been trying to change things around. Get off chemical medications and go all natural. There are some herbal remedies that take the edge off. But I can tell you that some of these feelings are beyond your control. Your environment has a lot to do with it. If you remove the negative from your life it does help tremendously. But there are circumstances that make it all come back. I have been able to control, to an extent, my depression. I try to be positive and be around positive people. those that have problems, I am happy to listen to and try to help but know that prolonged exposure to a continued problem brings me down. I recently got engaged. I had no idea that there was going to be a mirage of problems to go with it. Three step children that didnt want me in their lives. My fiance is trying to finish a divorce that is dragging on and impacts our lives and future. And I was out of a job for 2 years. I had come to grips with the job thing. I had made my time at home constructive by landscaping and house keeping. But when the unemployment was near the end,and I still hadnt found a job, my depression was creeping back. With the stress of my Fiance's problems, the kids, and no job I found myself drownding. The oldest child is 20yrs old so we thought she could get a job and help out with paying her own phone and insurance. Every time we asked her to do so, it was a huge battle. She turned down jobs. She allowed a job with Disney to just expire. Then it hit me this weekend, She was a huge part of my depression. I had no idea. She is 20 yrs younger and yet is exactly like me. She makes excuses for not trying to get a job. Also makes excuses for not getting the Disney job. She is fearful, but wont admit it. And when I look at her, I see me. The girl who turned down a scholarship, who felt she wasnt worth being loved so dated and eventually married someone whom she didnt love. When I look at her... I see me! I was a failure then. And I have a constant reminder of my failure everyday. I have gained so much weight in one year that I am totally ashamed. I had no idea that my depression was this bad. Now, at almost 200lbs, I understand why, now I have to figure out how to fix my depression. I want to marry this man soon because he makes me happy. He is my world, my everything and is my soul mate. So saying you can just work out and think positive will work is not entirely true. You have to find the root cause of your depression and come to grips with it. Then move forward. Then think positive and do things that make you happy. This is going to be a difficult one for me as she lives with us and I dont see her moving out anytime soon. I have tried to talk to her but you have to keep in mind... I am the unwanted stepmom and my feelings dont matter to them. My fiance is trying to help but is in the middle and that isnt helping him any. So this is all on me to fix. No drugs. Herbals. I am using them and they do help. They are not as strong as the medications I used to take. But I have to accept that. To all of you out there that is suffering from this horrible dibilitating disease... get a friend, journal, talk to someone professionally... you may be strong, I am a very strong willed, independant person, but you have to know you are not the only one out there and you dont have to do this alone.

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      Hopelessly, Hopeful 5 years ago

      I just don't want to feel this way anymore. My pill have stopped working and I don't know what to do. I feel like a failure because I have no motivation to do anything, not even shower. I can't find the energy to go outside even though I want to so badly. I want to live and be happy. I have been existing for so long. I cannot remember ever being happy for a long period of time. For 4 years I lived with my dad and I was happy. I am 35 and those are my only happy years. If it works for you do it. I will not judge anyone doing something that helps them to get out of depression, my it be pill or exercising. I wish something would work for me. I was to be Happy with life and myself. When will it happen for me. I don't know. Thank the stars for my two children because if it was not for them I would have checked out so long ago.

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      darren uk essex 5 years ago

      dear people i have had depression for years now and I think i would rather loose my legs than deal with this. evryday i feel like whats the point i have no job no girlfreind due to having depression no job i cant even talk to my old freinds anymore when i try to get help from a docter etc they tell me evrything will be fine and give me some meds and expect it to be alright ive even been hospitilized three times and have done a few day classes like pottery,drawing etc WTF? but its not helping if thats what people mean by help than i have no hope in this world just fort ide rite to other poeple that understand beein in this dark place your not alone depression is torture

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      Ahmad Bashir 5 years ago

      Hello Dears.

      I want to share something with you all,

      It is one year that i got depression, I tried much to get out of this but unfortunatly still i couldnt just now i found this site and i think it will be much helpfull for to get of my depression by your nice idea's .

      I am always thinking that i am sick and i will die in near future, sometimes my hearbeats is becoming more and i am becoming much under preasure or whenever something is near to be happened but if it didnt so on that time i am thinking my self under preasure means( Depressed ) so now i am happy that i found this sites so that i could share my problems and i am sure that this will help me to get out of this fuckn depression coz i bored of this life by living by depression ...

      Please help me

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      Morgan H. 5 years ago

      I think i have had depression my whole life... just didn't really notice it much then when i was younger. Its in my genes, so thats one reason i have it. I thought i wld be the last person to have this... i have just about evrything a person could need or want. i have good grades great friends and family and im athletic. Well it all started when i was around 12 or 13, and it is gradually getting worse. In middle school i started finding out who i wanted to be. i got closer with different people nd my old friends didnt really approve of it. but i decided to not care... i get to choose who i want to hang with. i had a boyfriend.... and when he started noticing me with them, he broke up with me. i still liked him for months nd to this day ik he still likes me. But i cant stand him. i didn't let that get n my way tho. Well ppl judge real bad in my town nd it started getting worse. i decided to push them away nd not tlk to them. Well over the summer my coach passed away. and it just devastated me. we were so close nd i could say she was actually like my real mom. i got even more depressed after that... I decided i would do nothing but concentrate on sports. And this school year i met the new coach... at first i didn't like her cause i felt like she was the reason my old coach died. There was just no one else to blame it on. I eventually start to like her a lot.. found out we had many things in common nd she has been thru same things... She has helped me with this illness so far this year. nd so has my other coach... i think she actually came into my dreams and told me it was time to let go. i listened... this year the name calling nd judging thing just got worse... and a person can only take so much. Was a straight A student... then they dropped down to a C. i stopped eating nd became weak nd i throw up a lot from stress. I cry evryday... My mind never stops thinking things. i to have tried taking my life, but cant come to do it... There is only one person nd one reason i haven't done it yet. Ppl try to help, i push them away. i have heart problems and only 14. I dont talk to anybody anymore.. just coaches. In the summer i would wake up evryday around 6... in the afternoon. This website was so reassuring cause i found out i wasn't the only person to go thru these things.. makes me feel tons better.

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      Christen 5 years ago

      I disagree with this sooooo very much. I have severe depression and regardless of what I do or don't do, the ONLY thing that has ever helped me is medicine. I was only on it short term (less than or maybe right at 6 months). That was 3 years ago and now I'm at the point where if I don't get medicine, I feel as though it will only get worse. NOTHING in this world affects any 2 people alike. This includes medicines, physical activity, drugs, alcohol, learning material, etc. And, this hub would be especially deteriorating to a woman who is diagnosed with post partum depression. I am happy for you and that sports has worked for you but that doesn't make the rest of us some low life pill heads!

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      Dinesh 5 years ago

      Hello Friends - I got out of depression once I acknowleged it and accepted as part of a human life- it is a phase which we can get through. Those of us who are depressed are running the same thought patterns over and over and over again - one of the sureshot ways to get out of it is to CHANGE this thinking and living patterns - OBSERVE YOUR THOUGHTS & THEN RESOLVE TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT THE NEGATIVE THOUGHTS- don't give in to same thoughts - break yourself free of such thinking esp. negative ones. CHANGE - drop by drop, step after step, small one to begin with - pat yourself on the back for every little task you accomplish and every negative thought you banished successfully. There is definitely light and hope for each of us - it is a phase which would end sooner or later so don't give up!!

      CHANGE PHYSICAL MAKEUP,

      CHANGE MENTAL MAKEUP,

      CHANGE EMOTIONAL MAKEUP,

      CHANGE SPIRITUAL MAKEUP TOO!

      Cheer up!

      Dinesh

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      Karan 5 years ago

      All I found out and can say is for people like us suffering from depression all we need is loads of love, care and appreciation. Getting us to feel that we are not bounded by relations (reminds me of the animals who in-fact get depressed when tied)and setting us @ free will do a lot good. Also the more we are occupied with the less the time left to sit idle/think & for the negative thoughts to sink in. I know I was advised to keep myself occupied day in/day out with something or the other & go out n socialize.

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      snow2010 5 years ago from New York

      thanks for Sharing Your Story and Tips on How Get Over Depression.

      http://howgetoutofdepression.blogspot.com/

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      Anurag 5 years ago

      Hai! I am Anurag I live in India, after getting bad results in 10th final exam I got depressed. No matter how much I try I cannot forget my past. I was in the first batch of my school so teachers were unexperienced as it was first ICSE school of the city. I didn't had any idea what and how to prepare for exam. Teachers told us that ICSE board does not repeat questions so we didn't buy question bank. People made fun of me and my father was angry. I did whatever was possible just to get good marks but........I got admission in a government college even change of environment could not change my mind. My condition got worse and I usually thought of ending my life. I stopped playing games and meeting with friends I stopped riding a bike as if I am afraid of it. I failed in 12 twice but I cannot feel sadness as my wound by 10th result was much deeper than 12th result. I have now passed 12th and now I am studying Polytechnic (Diploma Engineering) but my problem hasn't solved yet I am trying my best to be same person as I was before but it is easier to talk than to do. I know one day I'll get out of my depression but I am afraid it might be too late for me.

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      Manny 5 years ago

      OK, I was very very depressed after losing my wife and kids to a separation, lost 50% of my income, etc, and I am 100% happy and well today :) let me share what helped me and I am sure it can help you:

      1) do not stay home alone, if you stay alone you will feel alone and depression will be worst

      2) go to the gym, go for a walk, do something every day, if you can't afford that become a volunteer since helping others is the best. Did you know there are a lot of old people alone in a hospital near you? or a kid suffering from cancer? go see them! go make someone feel better, it will help you too

      3) Find God or a way to become more spiritual, even if you never believed before, some faith can do wonders to the soul.

      4) get a job, even a low paying job but keep busy

      5) find a girlfriend or boyfriend, loving someone will help you too

      6) talk to others, I talked to my sister every day, it helped me a lot

      7) learn something new, carpentry, flight helicopters, read books, go out dancing, take some lessons, etc

      8) force yourself to be OK :) think positive, think you can, be strong even if you are not.

      9) get into gardening, keep something alive such as plans or an animal, it will help you a lot

      10) join a group, church, music, hobby, etc... make sure you get to talk to other people!!! don't be alone please, there are many good people that can help you, just make sure you are kind, honest, caring and give the best you can to them, you will be rewarded with a great friendship and never be depressed again!

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      David 5 years ago

      You aren't depressed. You had a bad day once.

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      me. 5 years ago

      really depressed. mood shifting back and forth from functioning living to crazytown. am allergic to antidepressants. i exercise. it does not work. i try to eat well...but that only goes so far. don't know what else to do. journaling...meditation...blahblah blah spiritual this and that...still only see blue.

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      nicholas 5 years ago

      yaaay another antidepressants are the work of the devil post :)

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      sammy 5 years ago

      I Just want to say thank for the experiences you have all shared and how to battle depression. I did the exercise listed above and writing down all of my problems really helped but then i decided to rip that list up and write a list of all the things i love in life and marked the ones i need to work on getting back which helped tremendously! Although i haven't gained back all of my strength this little feeling of accomplishment is the most iv felt in a long time:)!

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      Bar 5 years ago

      I just started feeling this way about April of last year and I see where it is getting worse that's why I am reading everybody's blog hopful it will help me put this behind me.

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      Hardware 5 years ago

      Hello. I am not alone. Please help me. I have a baby on the way and struggle everyday to get out of bed. My wife suffers from PTSD and we are in financial ruins. I have no confidence but oddly enough have faith in God. I am in my late 30's and have a degenerative disc disease that was diagnosed at 17. I am in pain both physically and mentally everyday. I am searching for hope. Go to go. I will be back.

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      dipressed guy 5 years ago

      hi..i have been depressed for more than 10 years now.

      it started becoz since childhood i used to think a lot..i always lost in my thoughts. by the time passed it my mind became sick coz of thoughts in my head all the time. and then time came that i could not stop thinking. thoughts are random. in one day i had 10k thoughts in my head. this result severe depression and my condition is worse because my depression does not evolve from any traumatic incident or any kind of failure, it just because of keep having millions of thoughts in my head all the time.

      i was really brilliant student and had a outstanding iq level. but because of depression i cant score in my grads, i was among the last rankers in the class. this is very hard for me because i know i could be the topper there. even below than average students made fun of me...that how i got this college. after passing out from coll i didn't join any job. i was so depressed to do anything. i was unable to brush my teeth, take a bath...even i used to get up at ~2pm. right now i am feeling better after reading such comments. you guys gave me some hope, some gud feeling that i am not alone, feeling this life like hell. i will post again after 2-3 days probably, and i am requesting to all you guys please do comment regularly as it gives hope to all of us.

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      David Grey 5 years ago

      Ok, guys I suffer from depression as well. I'm 26, finishing my course, good looking, inteligent, sometimes too sensitive to stuff. But I learned something from 3 years of therapy, and I'll share it with you. Here it goes:

      We (depressed people) want to be in depression.

      That's it. I know it sounds crazy, but let's face it. Most of us are already adults who HAVE to take care of ourselves. And we don't. We choose to be negative about things, we choose to be pessimistic about life, we choose to isolate ourselves from the world, self-sabotaging our goals, relationships. And then we complain of how negative things are, of our loneliness, of our broken relationships, or the lack of sucess we have. It's a vicious cycle.

      Depression can be Hell yes, but it's a Hell we choose simply because the anguish, pain, sadness are comfortable places to be and we KNOW them, although life can be a very scary place often misterious, good and bad and also very very real. We want to be in places we know, that's why instead of an episode of sadness (because our girlfriend left us or a friend died, or maybe we jus had a bad day) we build us a house named Depression and never leave.

      I'm not saying shit doesn't happen, it does and it's perfectly fine to be sad. But when it doesn't wears off, it's time to wonder: why the hell do I want to be sad? What am I afraid of?

      Sometimes I remeber a line from the Matrix, when agent Smith is torturing Morpheus, he says something about a matrix previously built simulating a perfect world, where people could live in harmony and be happy, but humans didn't accept that and perished, so the machines had to build a different matrix where pain had to exist. That's a very true statement about human nature. We need pain to keep on living. Sometimes we even pursue it without really knowing what's happening. But life is already a damaged road with plenty of painful traps. We ought to accept that and keep on following the path.

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      taylor 5 years ago

      Hey to everyine who has posted here and is reading this. I've suffered from depression for a number of years now, it started when I was a teenager and I'm now 27 years of age. Needless to say that I'm sick and tired of it and I'm working really hard on changing my life, I know It's a good one and I have faith that things will get better if I have hope and I employ some of the very sound advice that has been offered here, talking, exercising etc. When I think about why I feel so bad, I cant come up with any real reasons to feel the way that I do, it's like I can only see the world through a blue veil, where everything looks sad and worthless. But I know that deep down inside me I don't really believe this. I know on some level that the world is full of beauty and promise, we are the world, we are potential, we just need to realise it. I'm going to try not to be a slave to my self inflicted negativity and bitterness anymore. We are strong, we can fight this, we can find beauty in this world throughout our short lives.

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      IRWIN 5 years ago

      I AM A KOREA WAR VETERAN AND HAD SUFFERED FROM DEPRESSION SINCE I WAS ABOUT 4 YEARS OLD. I FEEL THAT I HAD NOT HAD A DEPRESSION FREE DAY MY ENTIRE LIFE. MY WIFE PASSED AWAY 2 YEARS AGO AND THE GRIEF AND DEPRESSION HAS BECOME SO SEVERE THAT I SEE NO SENSE IN MY CONTINUING MY LIFE. I BEEN TO MANY DOCTOR WITHOUT ANY SUCCESS. I AM VERY CREATIVE AND WRITE SONG, POEMS AND INVENT THINGS. I BEEN IN THE NEWSPAPERS MANY TIMES AND INVENTED THEW CAR REMOTE STARTER IN 1957. I HAVE THE ORIGINAL ARTICLES. I WRITTEN A BOOK TITLED

      DEPRESSION FROM THE CRADLE TO THE GRAVE"

      "A MEMOIR OF A LIFETIME OF DEPRESSION"

      I TRULY FEEL THAT MY LIFE IS NOT WORTH GOING ON ANY MORE.

      I SIGNED UP ON THE SENIOR DATING SERVICE AND PAYED A LOT BUT IT WAS ALL A SCAM. I TRULY DO NOT FEEL LIKE WAKING UP ANY MORE. MY CHILDREN LIVE FAR AWAY AND HARDLY CALL ME. I TRULY CAN NOT CONTINUE WITH THIS GRIEF AND DEPRESSION., I DO 2 MILES A DAY AND OTHER FORMS OF EXERCISE. I COOK MYSELF FULL MEALS EVERYDAY BUT ITS GROWN WORSE EVEN THOUGH I BEEN GOING TO 2 DOCTORS AND TAKING ANTIDEPRESSANTS, NOTHING WORK. THANKS FOR READING. HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR. IRWIN

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      pali101 5 years ago

      All I feel is pain !! I cant stand anything around me I just wanna end this i just wanna be happy :(

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      hannah 5 years ago

      i'm depressed for like two years now and i'm just 15.i actually feel like its only me facing this in the whole world...when its not.i can't afford a doctor,pills,even doing sports. i try my best at everything but i fail.i feel tired and sleepy all the time and my family and friends are not making it easier.i have mood disorders and anger issues.i feel suicide is the only escape from this hell, but every time i'm that close to it..i cant do it.i cant live like that anymore.i know i'm young and i have my whole life infront of me and all that nonsense but i'm really tired of trying my best and failing.

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      courage seeker 5 years ago

      I wanted to say to Jessica that she should definitely take her dreams and aspirations and run them past a few people who are friends, aquaintances, besides just her spouse. I am very sorry for the depression you are feeling. But you have one great thing going for you....

      YOU ARE YOUNG!!! Do not give up at all. Being young is probably one of the greatest advantages, because there is time to start over with new ideas, hopes and aspirations. In my previous post I mentioned insomnia problems from the past. I am very happy to say that for over a year and a half there have been way fewer problems and I quit taking any pills long ago. My biggest issue was being older, wondering about starting over, seeking the inspiration and faith of younger days, and the need to get over some really bad memories that covered a 10 year span. There is always light at the end of the tunnel, Jessica, and I think it is especially wise to study your dreams and hopes. Look at them realistically, but also with hope and courage. You have the time to try different avenues. I wish you blessings and hope, and as an older person feel I should have pursued my younger dream with a little more passion.

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      courage seeker 5 years ago

      I am a person living in the country where jobs are scarce and this has led to some depression, as well as a

      long past history with sleep deprivation and insomnia.

      I was lucky enough to leave an area of urban decay, gunshots and helicopters, and eventually move here, thinking all would be quiet and peaceful.

      But in the country, For about 10+ years I was subjected to night barking dogs(not mine), spousal snoring and overnight job phonecalls. Ended up taking sleeping pills, trying anti-depressants (more insomnia), and getting sleep cycles all out of whack. Spouse insisted I take these prescriptions. Caused me much depression, often not working, leading to dependence. Hard to explain to others what chronic insomnia was about---felt singled out in some kind of cosmic punishment---nobody else was suffering from it. This 2-4 hours of sleep nightly leads to depression. Pills lead to rebound insomnia and depression, feelings of failure that I could not sleep through noise. Other health problems developed requiring major surgery. I attended some classes, volunteered, did alot of outdoor activities,sometimes very happy for many months. Later was often not up to par and didn't feel like smiling, laughing or being light. Lost art inspiration. Saw accomplishments of others and felt hobbled by this sleep issue. Wanted to move. Spouse uncooperative. Years passed. Big improvement. Dogs quit barking or at least intermittant now. Environment much better. But So much time passed I feel many years were already

      really compromised, perhaps left me prone to depression.

      Can an older person start over? Need to forget the past

      develop hope for the future, not fear big changes, trust in God, find inspiration again. Sometimes I could escape and just go camping or to a class and just forget or ignore all problems associated with home, it was a great evasion tactic, but would leave things in disarray. So where can I draw strength from to start over? Get over financial fear? Is there a way to erase bad memories. So hard to move, but depression recurring here, feeling pointless, no career, just raking, weed pulling, though scared of hugeness required to move after 22 years (animals, barn etc) Would this help cure depression or add to it? Big life change. Real estate market risky, scary. When younger, overcame cancer surgery with faith and hope. How does one reconstruct happiness, now older,

      without job? Do bad memories suggest moving as a release?

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      courage seeker 5 years ago

      I am a person living in the country where jobs are scarce and this has led to some depression, as well as a

      long past history with sleep deprivation and insomnia.

      I was lucky enough to leave an area of urban decay, gunshots and helicopters, and eventually move here, thinking all would be quiet and peaceful.

      But in the country, For about 10+ years I was subjected to night barking dogs(not mine), spousal snoring and overnight job phonecalls. Ended up taking sleeping pills, trying anti-depressants (more insomnia), and getting sleep cycles all out of whack. Spouse insisted I take these prescriptions. Caused me much depression, often not working, leading to dependence. Hard to explain to others what chronic insomnia was about---felt singled out in some kind of cosmic punishment---nobody else was suffering from it. This 2-4 hours of sleep nightly leads to depression. Pills lead to rebound insomnia and depression, feelings of failure that I could not sleep through noise. Other health problems developed requiring major surgery. I attended some classes, volunteered, did alot of outdoor activities,sometimes very happy for many months. Later was often not up to par and didn't feel like smiling, laughing or being light. Lost art inspiration. Saw accomplishments of others and felt hobbled by this sleep issue. Wanted to move. Spouse uncooperative. Years passed. Big improvement. Dogs quit barking or at least intermittant now. Environment much better. But So much time passed I feel many years were already

      really compromised, perhaps left me prone to depression.

      Can an older person start over? Need to forget the past

      develop hope for the future, not fear big changes, trust in God, find inspiration again. Sometimes I could escape and just go camping or to a class and just forget or ignore all problems associated with home, it was a great evasion tactic, but would leave things in disarray. So where can I draw strength from to start over? Get over financial fear? Is there a way to erase bad memories. So hard to move, but depression recurring here, feeling pointless, no career, just raking, weed pulling, though scared of hugeness required to move after 22 years (animals, barn etc) Would this help cure depression or add to it? Big life change. Real estate market risky, scary. When younger, overcame cancer surgery with faith and hope. How does one reconstruct happiness, now older,

      without job? Do bad memories suggest moving as a release?

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      smith 5 years ago

      I've always been prone to 'down spells' and growing up people,and myself,simply put it down to hormones,as i got older thiings just seemed to snowball, ide be the happyest and most deterimnied person in the world one minute ten the same evening i would become isolated and distanced without really relising it.No real pattern has come from what I can see and i don't have anyone close enough that would really notice. my partner and uni both get given the same excuse 'i have the flue' 'ill see you next week' a couple of days turn into a week, a week into two and i relise ive been in bed trying to sleep/hide away from everything/body,not knowing what exactly im hiding from just this feeling of complete hoplessness and well, sadness.I end up putting the brave publc face on and try to power on wth life but it just seems so trivial, im getting no where so why i cant i just be left to do my own thing and stay at home away from everything

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      Uzma 5 years ago

      I was depressed too, tried eveything until i started practising Islam, gave me inner peace.

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      no_one 5 years ago

      Depression has hit me so hard, I don't think I will ever get out of it. It has been 4 years. I am a different person. I don't even recognize myself. I have secluded myself, I don't answer the door, or phone. I don't talk to anyone but my husband and daughter. I don't go anywhere, not even to the grocery store. I don't even go out my front door. It started with anxiety. I was given pills by the doctor and they made me depressed! I quit taking the pills months and months ago, but have never been back to my old self again. I feel broken, in a dark place that is isolated...happiness is no more.

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      syna 5 years ago

      Part 2

      Is there a category of people who get depressed?

      When I was hail, hearty and mighty, I would only wonder why people talk slow, think slow, and work extremely slow? Have they forgotten benefits of early to bed and early to rise makes a man healthy wealthy and wise? I am realizing one of the first prominent signs of depression is discontinuing your healthy mighty routine, lack of will to continue good habbits, change for good, listen to anyone who says good/talks good about self and his/her achievements..these symptoms are next steps from where slowly we head to a darker zone where coming back is not so easy.

      hence, there is no category of people, but category of emotions/feels/thoughts that pave way to shredded world of death.

      WHY WE IGNORE TO DO RIGHT? WHY WE HATE TO BE GOOD, START SOMTHING GOOD IN DEPRESSION?

      I believe, every time we slip in depression, is an aftermath of our falling apart expectations from ourselves, which we highly misunderstand as failing of expectations from people/family/friends/career/boy friend/ children et cetera. Its 'us' who has been hurt but we wrongly feel that if 'that would not have had happenned I would have had this promotion/child/bf et cetera, what ever we have lost'. and depression is not resultant of one/two failure. our brain has self defence mechanism which allows us to withstand a couple of disappointments on things we were really banking upon a big time.

      TO WHAT PEOPLE DEPRESSION HURTS?

      I second above written experiences and say it here again; that people whom depression takes its toll on are actually GOOD PEOPLE, INTELLECTUAL AND COMPASSIONATE. I havnt seen any materialistic person getting hold of depression. They may pretend but they dont mean it. Those who are down with dp, they know, there ideologies and beliefs are affected.

      IT HAPPENS TO MAKE YOU STRONG

      have a slient look at people around you, sometime in life everyone who is ambitious who has dream to be something, reach big from what current life offers him, have to tread a way wherein he shall meet all sort of people. at one point of time, everyone goes through dp phase, how long you are in, is defined by

      a.how bad you are struck

      b. how many times it has struck u before

      Rest continued in part 3. Thanks leisa, you gave me reason to share more.

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      Leisa 5 years ago

      I too have spent many years living with depression off and on.. Sometimes I almost don't even realize when it's crept back in. I don't feel sad necessarily, just lethargic and with no real zest for anything. But anyway, I'm not writing to talk about my issues, as sometimes it feels like, for me, the talking just perpetuates the problem... But I just wanted to say that, for anyone who does feel like talking, I am more than willing to listen. Syna: please continue your story, I'd love to hear more. Trevor, Jessica, Hanisha, and everyone else who has posted recently... the thing I keep telling myself is the old proverb "this too shall pass" Just keep trying. And talk as much as you need to. I will send you love. Others will too. Love yourselves. Love your depression. I know that sounds silly, but anger only makes things worse. I find so often, when I get angry with my depression it makes it only worsens. Take some deep breaths and send yourself some loving thoughts. I highly recommend meditation. It has gotten me through many tough times. Guided imagery is great for when positive thinking seems impossible. Find something positive to listen to and focus as hard as you can. Must some ideas. I know being depressed sucks, and I'm willing to help in any way I can, because more than I hate dealing with it myself, I hate the idea of others suffering. I don't care if I don't know any of you, you are beautiful and you deserve to be loved, nurtured and happy.

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      syna 5 years ago

      Part Two shall be followed soon. If someone finds it interesting pl write back. I have much to share

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      syna 5 years ago

      This is a very informative sequel of people sharing there experience whilst in depression. I felt a lot relaxed by reading this post. Many thanks to everyone who posted experience. I would too like to share my experience and ways I try to handle. I would be more than happy if anyone can relate to and see whats the positive in long run.

      My experience:

      Two years of depression. I am a logical driven person who has always followed her heart and rested mind in GOD and parents. I am hard work lover and believer of good happens with good, sooner or later goodness is valued. I believed dont do bad and nothing bad shall happen.And hence professionally I am successful leading woman in profession from reputed family. No history of any mental disease.

      But two years back, I found myself with series of failures, and failure of love, I slipped in depression. He left me without telling me reason. Families had agreed, we were making future plans, most importantly we felt we are soul mates and mirror reflection of each other. But all of sudden, he denied. I have waited all my life for right person and concentrated towards career than finding love. I am traditional hindu family and believed just like my sisters and brother got good match, I would too.

      The slip in depression was horrible. I did not see day's light. I cried every second loudly. I had never cried so souly in life before. I dont know what was happening. Something inside me was propelling me from inside , like rush in blood veins, to go meet him ask him. I stopped feeling, sensation, hunger, world , day, night, what people say to me, drifting away from reality, I could not sleep, my hairs turned grey, no energy, no senses, no will to do anything. I would only get up from bed for toilet. I locked myself in room. I couldnot stop myself crying, months went by and years.

      I discussed my problems with family and close friends. Desperately I wanted divine intervention, some human help. My whole world had collapsed and so has my individuality. With discussions, I lost friends, which I am happy now as time shows real faces of people. A very dear friend, although she was supportive but discussing with her, brought her pride in between and judged me as week person without enough sanity left and publicly ridiculed me before common friends and unknown people.

      In one of the first posts i read, a friend asking help for a friend undergoing depression. and I am glad to know, she cares about her friend's probable situation

      What I did?

      I was clueless. No logic was helpful. One thought steered me which now I believe saved me from going to doctors and mental asylm. Yes, I might have lost my senses and hence become 'MAD' in literal words.

      Just after a couple of hours, a thought came in; Its your testing time, time to test your love; God is taking your test'. Today, I dont have my lover, but I believe this thought saved me my sanity.

      I went to GOD. And I felt in toto, to be wholly absorbed by mother nature, every creation of GOD seemed to be connected with me. I have never till date, felt so close to supreme almighty. I would converse with him all moment. i felt he is listening me.

      Miracles happen on belief:

      Miracle would have been my lover coming back. Which still I cant finally comment on. But God has different plans. During those extreme depression periods, I found myself IN REALITY amongst company of saints/ nuns/ priests of honor. Surprisingly, I found situations bringing me to temples and churches.

      Pain made me realize connection within body, heart and soul and supreme almighty.

      Medication: Yes or No?

      I read here only benefits about Omega 3 and 6 . Accidently, my beautician advised me to have multivitamins as my skin and face had all dried up and complexion turned darkest, dark marks on face and hairs grey. After reading this blog, i saw my capsules had omega 3 and 6. So i would suggest this only perhaps I wasnt regular. I just hope i would have been regular.

      Doctor : I dont know how successful they would be . In my opinion in cases of depression, if possible, its good for self reliance to take your own time and introspect your problem with your own mind. Dont force change if your mind doesnot want. Ask your self , what you want? If you still want time, take time. but please dont hush.

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      Hanisha 5 years ago

      I've been depressed for almost 6 months now! And the reason is that i lost my child!! nothing is helping me! i can't concentrate on things..feel suicidal..feel worthless, get mad at family, shout & cry! i don't know what to do..

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      Trevor 5 years ago

      I have been depressed now for a few months and it just feels terrible I am afraid to go out to work as an electrician and find it hard to do my job as I have lost my self confidence and cant go out of the house. I seem to worry about everything and find my mind just seems to go blank trying to think about things. I used to enjoy my job but now I hate it. My marriage broke up at the beginning of the year and things seem to have got worse from there. I fweel as though I am losing control and can,t help myself, it is like a living hell. what can I do ?

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      DMC 5 years ago

      Great article and very interesting information. I battle depression myself and it's an everyday struggle to overcome it, but I do my best to be happy. Although I'm a little confused with the beggining of your article, it says that people in this day and age are more depressed than they were when they went to war? Are you trying to say that because they went to war they werent so depressed? Because they had a will to live? That may be true for some, and depression for guys is different than it is in girls. But, I'm sure there were a lot more people depressed than you think, just over different issues than there is today.

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      all i can say... 5 years ago

      All i can say is whatever anybody on here feels... do not take your own life... thats the most selfish thing to do is END your life... think about this wouldnt you rather feel something than not even anything at all? ... I'd rather feel depressed and shitty (which i have been for the last few months) than end my life BC theres too many little things in life that i dont wanna miss out on...

      Smoke marijuana.. helps me to cope, smoke a cig drink a beer punch a punching bag , work out... do something that can help you cope in hard times and when your in need... its easier said than done.. but pushing threw and trudging on day to day is honestly what ithink the first step to breaking out is...

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      jessica 6 years ago

      my story is long. my father suffers from depression. he's always been someone who feels pretty low all the time. of course he has his moments of happiness as we all do. but im pretty sure it get it from him. ever since high school i have suffered from it on and off. my husband suffers as well. but heres my current situation. im married to my husband but his depression and anxiety have led him to not have a job for like 5 years now. we luve with his mother and we have no money. the economy sucks and my last check was about $250 for 2 weeks. I cant pay my bills. i used to work in a salon but there isnt much work in salon these days. i'd like to go back to school but now they wont approve me for the loans. im in this hole and im

      not sure hiw to get out of it. i find my mind day drraming of a better life that isnt realistic but it makes me feel better as if theres hope just for that moment. but then when i come back down to reality and i know that dream or fantasy wont come true. i sink down even lower. im only 25 but i feel like a failure already. my husband knocks down my ideas and dreams as soon as i mention them. im not sure if he's being realistic and i should listen to him or if hes tearing me down and i need to fight on. i feel like what im experiencing is more than depression. i cant stay in this situation but i have no one to turn to. i often think of suicide but i think im too chicken to do it. theres so much i want to do and it never seems like i'll be able to do it. my biggest fear is that i'll be 50 or 60 one day and have regret that i didnt follow my dreams and i never achieved them. but i still cant figure out if my dreams are un realistic and im delusional or if I know I can do it and im struggling because it seems like i'll never get there. anyway thanks for listening.

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      yeah 6 years ago

      guys im scared... im extremly depressed. nd something really bad might happen soon. I cant get help tho. i just cant

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      IDK_what_to_do 6 years ago

      I'm 18, i go to community college (no idea of what to major in) I work, i recently moved out and i guess .. real life hit, i moved back in with my mom, I had surgery and have been recovering from that. K theres a little background on Me...

      I honestly feel lost in life.. I don't know if im going in the right direction inlife, i just feel lost i have no purpose anymore to do anything, IDK how to make myself feel "normal" again. I dont want to deal with ANYBODY i keep to myself and when it comes to interacting with people its like i just dont know how to anymore.. i feel like i cant carry a conversation with anyone anymore... The light that i used to have is gone, i want it back im tired of feeling this way I just dont know what to do anymore... can someone please offer some sort of advise! Im sick and tired of being sick and tired...

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      i did it 6 years ago

      Guys this phase of depression is very dangerous because you have very bad thoughts all the time and everything that you do becomes like a routine that will never end and you just dont know how to deal with it. I was in depression and i was so bad that I couldnt sleep at night and I was thinking that Iam having bad deseases and other stuff, but somehow I overcome it. The way I did it was very simple. I started sharing with my best friend and also my girlfriend what I was going through. My friend started making jokes about this and saying like " common man you dont have nothing shut up and lets go out for a beer or something like that. Also music helps you alot listen to love songs especially and cheerful songs. And start to be the boss of your own brain control it . It is very simple way but it requires patience and lots of energy and will to overcome it . I hope my share can help you guys.

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      Mattie 6 years ago

      I am currently depressed and have been for the last 10 years or so. I have read a lot about depression and have read so many self help books. I have been to counceling,I have been and off anti- deppressants for the last 8 years.

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      Hopeless 6 years ago

      Depression is the most debilitating illness there is. I have suffered with it for years and sometimes I just don't know if I can fight it anymore. I take meds and they help for the most part, but god help me if something exciting or bad happens in my life to throw my chemicals out of wack. Thats when I crash and I feel hopeless, lost, and there is no light at the end of the tunnel. I am only 36 and I don't see myself growing old with this depression :( Something is going to give!

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      tck 6 years ago

      i'm just going to say the play sports thing doesn't work. because when i go to dance class i just get more depressed because i know i'm the worst in the class.

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      smile 6 years ago

      why not try yoga....sudarshan kriya...it will help

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      de 6 years ago

      depression is a lonely place nobody understands you tablets have not help been like this for over 8 years finding it harder to go on with things every day is a chore.

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      joco 6 years ago

      i just wanna say thanks to all who's given out solutions for this.. You never know who you're helping.. But what matters is someone somewhere is getting some support to keep hoping.. Hope is a good thing..

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      thistooshallpass 6 years ago

      i've been depressed for as long as i can remember, and i'm still depressed, but I think a big part of depression is that it seems like it doesn't end. a lot of it i think is the power that you give it and the power that you don't give yourself.

      you are beautiful, talented, worth it and you deserve to be happy..and you can be.

      i don't know if these feelings of depression will leave me entirely, but i know you have to go out there in the world and get what you want and not let one negative thought get to you. i was good for awhile until i let negativity in my life.

      whatever you are struggling there, you are strong enough to get through it. believe that you can.

      life is all mental. belief and thinking are the key to a lot of things.

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      Hah! 6 years ago

      This article is actually completely misinforming. Don't write about something until you have proper information about it.

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      anonymous17 6 years ago

      I had always been the kind of person who absolutely loved life...used to wonder why people would not want to cherish this beautiful gift. I was always the life of the party,doing crazy things and making everyone around me laugh. But then something changed..i haven't been my old self lately. I still smile with a group of people,try to show to the world that i am fine..but the truth is i am not, and i really dont know what went wrong..how life came to be this way? But i can see my life passing me by, and i have no desire to enjoy it anymore. I will never be suicidal, because i still think life is one of the best things that happens to you;but that zest,it isn't there anymore. I go into a relationship, something i should have avoided, because i always knew i was a highly independent person and could not live in that kind of an equation.He loves me, and i know that, but i cant give it back to him and my constant sulking affects him the greatest. Sometimes i feel like just lying in my bed and crying all day for no reason, but i cant...because i am responsible for so much work around me. Doing the work that would make me happy before,now seems like a burden. There are so many thoughts fleeting through my mind while i am writing this,i dont know if anyone can make sense of it. But i just want to be happy again, and i dont see that happening ever again. I have forgotten what it felt like to be happy. What is true happiness anyways?! What is the purpose of our existence?! and in doing what we ae doing, how can we be really positive that it is somthing we were meant to do in the first place?! Some of this hardly makes sense, but thats all i think these days. And then i get mad at myself for living like this,not facing reality as it is. Its just so hard to get out of this.

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      GS 6 years ago

      I was in depression on and off. I was under medication. When I was in medication, every depressive thought was suppressed. Medication has its own side effects. Those who are in medication know already what these side effects are. I dont want to suffer the side effects any more.

      I have not been using any medication for the last one month. It has been a great struggle, but worth the struggle. These days I stand in front of mirror and self hyponotize myself that all is going well. There is a bigger plan God has for me. I am just a tool in God's hands. God is my protector, savior, He is with me and He will lead my life as my shepherd. Whatever happens it happens for Good.

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      Summer 6 years ago

      Last November my wedding was called off 2 days before the event. I was extremely angry and went on ativan. I was lashing out at everyone. I thought that was the worst of it. Then things started getting better. I got a high paying job and met a new guy. The guy ended things 3 days before my new job started. Because I was so depressed about that, then I lost my job. I went back on ativan, had a number of other interviews and still didn't get anything. I currently work in a temporary position. I am barely making it. I saw my doctor and he put me on celexa. I have had severe insomnia and anxiety. I pushed away all my friends and I can't cook or sleep. I barely get out of bed in the morning and have been arriving to work late. The worst part is this job ends in October, and it is now September. I am not even doing anything at this job, but I can't imagine being an unemployed single person at home all day. I am so sad and lonely, and basically, I just can't believe that my life has turned out this way. I always felt attractive and successful with an Executive level job and high degrees. Now, I question if I am able to keep going and if things will get better. I've stopped going to the gym too and my body is achy from not doing anything. You should know I do not want this for my life, but I just don't know the solution to get out of it.

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      ramington 6 years ago

      I am really deppressed lot. I was brilliant happy go lucky boy, never afraid to go all out.Now I am 44 totaly feel like dawn out no energy no happiness. I am hypertensive and daiabetese patient. My wife complains me that I dont speak whenever need arises. I am afraid to talk.I dont beleive people. I dont trust anybody.There is no inner energy to fight out.

      Whenever something happens I press panic button. I am in good job. There is no worry for daily needs. However one thing bothers me is man of my caliber is still at first gear. I dont beleive death is solution. I still in process of finding mines of energy in my brain. I strongly beleive some how i have to change.I am wating for the day. pl give me tips to energise myself inspite of defeats failures insults all along. pl help me.

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      depressed 6 years ago

      I have been depressed for 18 months now. It started with a workplace bullying incident and marital difficulties.

      It is total hell.

      I was prescribed an antidepressant last week but I am too scared to take it.

      So here I am.

      And now, it is time to snap out of it.

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      Anwarite 6 years ago

      Av red ua depresions but stil i need a friend.i once had a friend whom we shared our lives but one day she betrayed me and broke my heart to bits n pieces which contributes partially to whom am 2day.my life wuld hav been beta if ugat dint occur.i know i hav the power to love,but i dont seem to get the rait person.bytheway,am 21,a mother and in campus.if i talk 2 anyone here about my problems theyl spred like bush fire.sometimes i smile n inside am suffering.i think about my son(he lvs with my parents in law and he's only 9 months)sometimes am not in gud terms with my huby an i also hav my own problems,there's homework n i want to fit into college life lyk my galfrends.i need a frend to trust n confide in.when am very stressed i crave to chew painkillers.i hate this please help

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      Overwhelmed Brain 6 years ago

      I have computer problems that I don't know exactly how to fix or to avoid future problems. I've tried to fix them but some type of computer doctor out there keeps messing them up. I feel like I have no contact with the outside world. I think I'm cracking up because I feel like I am always being watched, followed, listened, spied on. I know these are symptoms of delusions and paranoia and that I need help but I just keep getting more mentally ill. At times I'm hearing voices and getting messages that I know aren't there. I don't think there is a professional out there that is brave enough to take me on face to face to help me touch base with reality. I'm angry, I'm scared, I feel intruded upon by all these voices, I feel overwhelmed, I feel paranoid like people are out to get me and like I don't know what is real. I feel like people are always lying to me. I've always thought that I was pretty stable and mentally sound and strong and have always thought that I've dealt honestly with people. This craziness that has developed in my head has me so scared. I have no one to talk to about it, I feel like I'm followed and like everyone around me knows every intimate detail of my life. I wonder if others feel like this, I wonder if others feel completely intruded upon, angry, scared, confused. I don't know how to get back my life, I know there are people out there that are wanting or willing to help but I also know that there are some seriously demented, evil, petty people too that seem to have nothing better to do with their life. The problem is I don't really know who to turn to, I know that most other people in this world have people that they can physically talk to and solve problems with and consult with. I don't feel like I have that AT ALL, not AT ALL, in no way, shape or form can I have a personal, private conversation with anyone. I always feel this presence, it never leaves and yet it never really speaks. Peace, goodness, truth,are open and honest. Deception, evil, trickery, lying, spying are in the dark no matter how they try to justify themselves. I feel more and more pulled into the darkness and sucked into the evil. I want to solve my problems and get my life back so I can move forward without all this deception that has entered my life for no logical reason. This evil intruded into my life and continues to send out more tenticles and is sucking the life out of me. I have goals and dreams and a direction I want for my life but feel like I'm being controlled by a gang of evil thoughts all with different objectives and motives. I wanted to move forward and wanted to make a difference where I went next but I can't - all this evil is permeating my life and overwhelming me, it is more of the same, it is insanity. I feel like if I could just talk to someone or some people who could understand me and my situation that consensus and a much more tolerable situation could be developed. My life feels like a mess, these thoughts haunt me day and night. Has anyone else on this panel experienced this sort of situation, intrusive thoughts, feeling paranoid like strangers are out to get them, suddenly distrusting everyone in the world, fear, like someone is spying on them, watching them, disbelieving them, not trusting their judgement, their motives, their values, them as a person. The strange thing about this is that I have so much going on in my personal life and real things that I need to take care of and then along comes their wierd, obscure, nebulous existence that is now my brain, this alter technology universe that I'm somehow sucked into and yet not supposed to be in. I used to be just a mom and iin the past year have been somehow labelled and pulled into, my feelings overwhem me and I just want the craziness to stop, fow someone to tell me face to face that everything will be ok and to stop feeling threatened for every move I make in my own home, in my own life.

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      Rohit Verma 6 years ago

      The people who are really depressed dont know that they are depresses...since all of you know that you are depressed...you guys are actually not..

      Think about it..

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      Rohit 6 years ago

      Why most of the depression do comes from we being part of Relationship, and very less being from the relationship we bring up with our friends.

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      rick 6 years ago

      Get out of depression with this, just download load it it's a big file but it's worth itithttp://btjunkie.org/torrent/MegaPackLetGo/5960627a...

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      Caroline 6 years ago

      I SUFFER FROM MANIC DEPRESSION AND HAVE ALL MY LIFE. I AM 71 YEARS OLD AND I AM CURRENTLY LIVING WITH A MAN WHO IS MARRIED AND ON DISABILITY SO MARRYING HIM IS NOT AN OPTION AS I CAN'T AFFORD HIS MEDICINE AND DOCTOR BILLS. I HAVE ONLY ONE CHILD, A SON, WHO IS MARRIED AND LIVING HIS OWN LIFE AND I SEE HIM OCCASIONALLY BUT I HAVE COME TO THE PLACE THAT I DON'T WANT TO BE ALONE, BUT I KNOW I LIVE IN SIN AND I WANT TO BE SAVED AND GO TO HEAVEN WHEN I DIE. I CAN'T SEEM TO FIND THE STRENGTH TO GET OUT OF THIS RELATIONSHIP AND FEEL HOPELESS AND ASHAMED FOR PEOPLE TO KNOW HOW I LIVE. MY SON IS NOT HAPPY ABOUT THE WAY I LIVE, BUT YET I CAN NOT DEPEND ON HIM TO BE WITH ME, HE IS LIVING HIS LIFE WITH HIS WIFE AND HAS TOLD ME SHE COMES FIRST. SO I PRAY BUT IT DOESN'T SEEM TO HELP. I BELIEVE IN JESUS BUT HE IS NOT A PHYSICAL BEING THAT IS HERE WITH ME DURING TIMES OF ANXIETY AND DISTRESS. I WAS IN A MENTAL FACILITY TWO MONTHS AND IT HELPED FOR A SHORT TIME, I TOOK 7 ELECTRIC SHOCK TREATMENTS TO THE BRAIN AND I TAKE PILLS FOR DEPRESSION, BUT THE GUILT I CARRY AND THE FEELING OF DESPAIR CONSUME ME. I HOPE SOMEONE RESPONDS TO THIS WHO CAN RELATE.

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      Mke 6 years ago

      I am depressed , can't get out of bed , feel like can't go on , life has no meaning or enjoyment anymore , cannot see any way out

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      Brad Dastrup 6 years ago

      I dont even know where to go. I di finally go to a doctor but not much has worked. One seems to help a little. I just went through a marriage where my wife had an affair and we tried for a year to work it out but I just could not get past it that fast and so she divorced me. I still love her but she has moved on with my 4 kids. I wake up every morning sick and I have to head to the bathroom. I have to force myself to go to work and as soon as possible I want to go to my 10 x 10 room and hide. I hate that I still love her and she has moved on, I hate that everytime I think I move forward something happens to bottom me out again. I feel like I have been in Hell for a year, I am a hard worker yet I fight to want to do anything, somedays I just wish I wouldnt wake up. I cry on and off throughout the day, I so bad want this to go away but I feel like there is no end and I am not sure how much longer I can do it. It has been the worst year or almost 2 of my 40 years. I dont even know where to start, I am 40 and lost everything that meant anything to me. I would appreciate any advice because I am so scared.

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      Sabawoon alkozai 6 years ago

      Dear freinds I am also one of the depression vectom as I am from afghanistan 30 years of war in my country had very bad effects on puople brains and heads. A serve shows that more thin 75persons of our population is sugaring from depression. I got to know lots of things from this webside thanks from everybody for there helpfull edias. If a freind want to share more things with me I am going to wroth my email add. Sabawoon_Ibrahim@yahoo.com please feel free to share more info with me. Regards to every body. Sabawoon alkozai

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      ME84 6 years ago

      I HAVE DEPRESSION. I HAD IT FOR A LONG TIME. DON'T KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO NOT TO BE DEPRESSED. LIFE IS HORRIBLE FOR ME. DON'T THINK MY EXISTENCE EVEN MATTERS. I ALWAYS FEEL FAT UGLY NOT GOOD ENOUGH. AND MOST OF THE TIME I SEE MY SELF AS AN UGLY PERSON. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO TO GET OUT OF THIS. I HATE FEELING LIKE THIS. THE ONLY REASON IM EVEN HERE IS MY 2 BOYS. MY HUSBAND /FIANCE DON'T LOVE ME. HE ALWAYS CHEATS ON ME OR TALKS TO OTHER WOMEN BEHIND MY BACK. I DO EVERYTHING FOR THIS MAN. IF HE LOVED ME HE WOULDNT CONTINUOUSLY HURT ME AND STAB ME IN THE BACK. MY PARENTS ARE DEAD I DON'T HAVE THEM TO TURN TO. JUST SEEMS LIKE PEOPLE USE ME FOR WHAT THEY WANT THEN THROW ME OUT. I HATE BEING USED. I HATE HAVING FEELINGS. I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE THEM LIKE HE DON'T. I HATE LIFE I JUST WISH MY KIDS WERE GROWN SO I CAN DIE.

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      irawitA 6 years ago

      well this was nice...but may be in a lil different way...this will help too...:)...enjoy reading it...:)

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      diets to lose weight 6 years ago

      Great post! Many people get depressed because they are overweight or unhealthy, this causes them to doubt themselves and feel sloppy and like they can’t breathe or haven’t got the lungs to breath. It’s very hard to pull yourself together but I suggest you start beginning more activate, go to the gym and eat right, that will but breathe back in your lungs.

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      matt 6 years ago

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      dan89 6 years ago

      download link for life flow http://thepiratebay.org/torrent/5198712/

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      dan89 6 years ago

      one last thing, from my experience with holosync and lifeflow is at times u are gonna feel worst than u already do but is part of the process its not making u worst i just wont u to understand that because iv read in forums about people quiting the course cos they think its makin them worst it really dont,to understand the process and learn more about this i recommend u check out holosyncs website ,and read his blog aswell if u get time some of the stuff on there is quite intresting ,i no whats its like to be depressed and i feel like i can help people cos im nearly out of depression , and everything i written is how iv done it , i really hope what iv written has helped u and if use it , it will , trust me it will be the best decision of u life ,

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      dan89 6 years ago

      there are ways out of it but its hard and its a tough ride , i use holosync and lifeflow meditation and being doin it for about 3 years now and altho im not tottaly out of depression yet things av got tons and tons better if u dont no what holosync and lifefloew is check em out , and id proppley recommend lifeflow cos its not as tough goin as holosync , holosync int for sissys it proper kick u in , and another thing i recommend is the sedonna method, the meditataion holsoync and lifeflow has made me miles more aware so doin the sedonna method i find easy , iv only being doin that for 2weeks and that cleared loads of negative stuff out my mind , if u think that doin nothing about depression and sitin a praying is gonna change you , it is not , iv tryed loads of other things , alot of stuff that people av mentioned on here they dont work in the long run , the only things that work imo is what iv mentioned here , but its a long journey years and years , u nee to act to get rid of it u cant just expect it to go , and the longer u leave it the harder it will be to change , and if u cant afford lifeflow u can download it from a torrent i dont no which one so ul just av to type it in , get on it cos its good and peace will come 1 day never give up .

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      jay 6 years ago

      I got rid of a terrific depression by keeping a diary of events ,reading motivational books also listening to funny things ,funny videos on youtube and with psychiatric help.

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      Danielle 6 years ago

      hallo everybody i just discover i had depression for now almost 3 months and i don't know how to hadel it i am 17 now and it all started when my boyfriend when to Potchefstroom for his studies so now he keep on talking about other girls it really hurts me and yet he does't care about my feelings so i really start talking to peole and i keep getting the same answer so now its only up to me.i know its not easy but to go jogging and listening to music talk to somebody really helped me so far and to cry it all out well atleast for the day.

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      loser 6 years ago

      i m depressed as always, i can't get out of the black hole, i want to sleep the whole day. nobody understands what it means to be depressed. I should be at work now, but i can't do it anymore, i am about to loose my job, i m loosing my friends because they don't want to hear me talking about depression, they don't understand, i m loosing them one by one i have nobody to talk to, i feel like a loser. i can only cry the whole day. i just don't want to be here anymore. i m depressed pretty much my whole life. i ve seen psychiatrist, didn't work. i am on meds, but they don't work. i just don't know what to do anymore but sleep. i wish i was normal, but i m not as i m depressed all the time. i wish i had somebody who could help me... at the moment i just want to die...

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      Wary 6 years ago

      hey! i am also among all you guys who is stuck by depression. its tough..it really is. there are times when i lose hope whatsoever, walking on the road to nowhere and what not!

      Life seems worthless, feel pity on myself, have cried so many times thinking about all the good times i had and wished that it comes back again, wished that someone invent time machine and i could go back and enjoy, laugh, love and do everything the way i used to do.

      But trust me guys i somehow till now haven't lost faith in god. 'everything happens, happens for the best'...this one liner is my medicine. looking at my life now and trust me nothing worse can happen than this to me. So i have decided to be happy no matter what because being this way hasn't helped yet! if i am sure nothing worse than this can happen to me so im trying all possible things to get my life back on track, to get those days which i miss. yes, it tough..very tough but atleast i won't regret later that i didn't try.

      Guys lets try..lets try and be happy..lets all be friends and share everything to feel light...lets cry together, lets laugh together, lets party together online!! let's do it..lets make something impossible..possible..cuz as i said...'nothing worse can happen'..

      lets play a game..lets promise that we would come here and comment everyday about the happiest moment of our day! and lets see who got the most..and the winner doesn't get any gift but he/she is certainly making us all smile and part of our lives! LETS NOT BE ALONE FROM THIS MOMENT ONWARDS.

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      naz 6 years ago

      NAZ

      I have been feeling depressed for a long time, coming from a traditional asian family, i am 26 and not married, moving out of the family home before a women gets married is seen as such a bad thing. recently i went back to college to study my mother made me feel so worthless,saying i wouldn't achieve anything and she was embarassed of me and ashamed of me because i had gone back to study and was not married.

      I have just told her that i am going to move out for university because i cant cope with the negativity she projects on me. My mother said to leave and never come back and she did not want to see me. I have spent a very long time tolerating things that she has said that mentally right now i feel like i am on the verge of a mental shutdown. I don't want to feel like this and don't know what to do.

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      Scott 6 years ago

      Actually helps readin this. Don't know how long ive been depressed but im not getting worse. Everyones different u should do what makes u feel relaxed, don't listen to sad music or watch sad films. Don't give up on anything just because someone else doesn't believe in you. If u feel that bad DON'T DRINK ALCOHOL!! Alcohol and depression isn't a good combonation, end up in hospital or jail. Best thing that makes me feel good is going a drive on a motorbike somewhere away from everything, meetin new girls, if u got 1 before what's stoppin u now? Don't feel sorry for urself it wont ever help. To be honest, smokin weed is actually a good thing for it, chill out with friends, go see a comedian, book a holiday, go jogging or long walks. And always remember seriously no matter what uv been through life is never that bad u need to do suicide. And don't think ''maybe not for u'' i aint been through the worst but when ur at the bottom u can only go back up.

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      DEBRA Engel 6 years ago

      Depression is a state of mind as one would say. As I lost both breast to cancer then hair to chemo, I thought this is depressing, not. During chemo I went to visit my daughter & only child. During this wonderful visit I thought it would be, my daughter choose to help a friend in need & let the friend & her kids stay over night. Well this friend's husband "A COP" broke into my daughter's home and shot her, my son in law, his wife & himself in the head, all died. I excaped with my little grandchild, and now I live with out my daughter. Depression tried to hold on to me, I try each day to battle it, by positive thinking to start my day. Giving into depression would mean giving into the killer and I just won't let him win. If I can come thru this let my true story inspire others, anything life gives can be fixed, death can not. Choose to have a Blessed Day.

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      Hannah 6 years ago

      I read this and learned so much. My mom just talked to me tonight about how I always post depressing and suicidal posts on facebook and that my family has asked about me. Someone I see in school but don't really talk to messaged me on facebook and said I shouldn't be so down. THAT is when I decided to try to find a way out of depression. While I was reading this I started to cry. I don't even know why. I think it was because I felt bad for wasting 2 years of my life depressed. I'm 13 right now, turning 14 this year and this inspired me so much that I'm going to get active and try as hard as I can to be a happy person. I know I can do it. I just need some help and I think I can get some from my friend. She knows I'm depressed. I have thought of suicide before but I know better then to do that because I know I have an amzing life ahead of me and I am scared of God's punishment for if I gave up on life so easily. I know I'm being strong when I keep on living so I KNOW I'm not going to give up. I always sit alone in the basement on the computer and I don't do much except for Figure skating for an hour and a half once every week. I need to find something that can make me happy all the time. So I want to thank you SO SO SO much for helping me. I wasn't going to kill myself but just think of it as you just saved my life and you also saved many others. You also saved me from wasting anymore of my life being depressed. I feel I can finally talk to people and get back up on my feet.. so.... Thank you. :)

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      JMN 6 years ago

      Frank - Have you seen a Dr or started any meds yet? I've been in a severe depression for at least a couple months now (have had this before) and I just started Celexa last week, and I can't believe this, but I think I already feel a little better. I have similar sleep issues...to bed at 10, wake at 1-2...it's horrible. I hope you see a dr and try a med if you haven't already. I've been through this before and I know it will get better if you get help.

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      frank 6 years ago

      hi im really bad and depressed i do no were to go or turn 2 i locked myself away from everything i don't talk to friends or family when my kids from another marriage phone i tell my wife tell them im not in it does my head in a cant cope i want to die that's all to end this shit once and for all but i cant i got 3 lovely kids and wife here but i think im on the way to loose them 2 my own doing i really want help and cant find any help i go sleep at 11-12 at night wake up about 1-2 and feel real bad cant sleep again got a like hot feeling in my chest and feeling really bad and low do no what the hell is wrong and then for a week or so im top of the world and feeling good like i use to and then for no reason i come crashing down like a ton of bricks i want to cry lots but i don't i tryed the gym but got fed up going by my self i use to be helpful and caring but its all gone like somebody took it all away from me im sorry but i don't want to make u all worse then u are with my self pitty story any one what could help i don't want to loose my family because i no is not far of i shout at the kids for silly things but i feel bad after i don't no PLEASE HELP SOMEBODY IM SORRY TO U ALL

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      natural health and healing 6 years ago

      Depression is a kind of feeling that every people would not want to experience. Sometimes depression could cause a certain person to just break down so hard to the point that he would want to die just for the feeling to melt away. But actually, depression for me is just a negative feeling within our soul and it can go away through certain meditations and therapies especially for those people who have been through so much depression.

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      Robert. D. Henson 6 years ago

      I came to a point to where i was going to end my life. The cops came threw me in the car. Thay took me to hosp. For 30 days ! people there help me. I tryed the pill thing. It did not help at all. Came home and put my life back. Gone back to work. I have my days where things seem down. But i move on. There people seem to stay in there little world and live there. I seem to step out of it for now. It can come back i know this trust me it has! First be good to self . Eat well and get those 8 hours sleep. Take a long walk and say hi to every one. Open up to people .self cant get out self . Hear what others going on in small talk. I never new how many really did care about me as peson . When i came back to work from illness i made a point that can do this and it up to me know. No one can live my life . But we can if i let them in. Iam not looking back in my life. It today what do with it. It far better than the rope i tryed to hang my self with !. If willing to talk to me my email is robert0002@ovi.com

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      Seven 6 years ago

      Sometimes I feel very angry, violent. Other times I feel worn down by existence. Sometimes I laugh at myself, half-mirthful, half-pitying. Sometimes I pick myself up and try again.

      Suffering is the human condition. As Buddha said; strive diligently for your liberation.

      Breathe deeply. The air is sweet. Be. Find joy in the small moments of existence.

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      mimosarose 6 years ago

      By the way Greg, I have been recommended HTP-5 by a friend who suffers from cyclical 'SAD' type depression most winters and says he has found it very effective. He gave me some to try but I was told it should not be used in conjunction with the SSRI anti-depressants I have been taking so I haven't taken them yet. I'd be interested to know how you get on if you do go down that route.

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      mimosarose 6 years ago

      Reading through this blog has been so illuminating for me. It has helped me so much a) to realise that I am not alone in my experiences, and b) to identify some of the common threads that characterise this indescribably awful and debilitating thing called depression. I have suffered from anxiety and depression for the past nearly two years following separation from my husband, the love of my life who I had been with since I was 21 (am now 38 – funnily enough, an age I've noticed cropping up a lot throughout this blog) but I felt I had no choice but to leave him in the end as he was emotionally abusive, heavily dependent on drugs and alcohol and barely able to contribute to our family (we have two daughters aged 9 and 11). Then five months ago things really conspired to tip me over the edge, or so it felt: my grandmother (with whom I was really close) died, my daughters and I had to move out of the beautiful family home where we'd lived for nearly ten years, a relationship with a close friend that had become 'something more' ended abruptly… I could go on, anyway to cut a long story short I ended up having what I now think must have been a breakdown (which basically consisted of collapsing in a tearful heap at my mother's house and sleeping continually for three days and nights; feeling utterly suicidal when awake so would just do anything I could to go back into sleep, then getting medication from the doctor (metrizapine) which brought me back from the brink - just. That was in August and five months later I could count on one hand the days where I have been able to see anything like a glimmer of hope or reason for living. It has been a time of such pain, despair, anguish, emptiness… Not just emotional but physical, like a vice gripping my chest and stomach, unable to breathe etc. I have found myself blaming myself and, by turns, everyone around me for my misery, often feeling that all my friends had turned their backs on me & the circle neatly closed up behind me with me pushed permanently outside it. I can see now how this is such a self-fulfilling prophecy because most of the people around you do instinctively tend to keep their distance when they sense you are in a dark and futile place. Once they have given you a hug and dispensed their advice they really don't see what more they can possibly do. (Although I have had a couple of friends who have ventured unafraid into that dark place and been there alongside me through thick and thin, and I hope I will never forget their bravery and kindness). It has taken every bit of strength and resolve in me to carry on with my job and to be there for my daughters, but in a strange way, while often feeling like the last straw these have actually ended up been the very things that have held me together and kept me going. Anyway… my lovely doctor described the drugs as a rope bridge across the abyss – they don't take the abyss away but just help you to climb out of it – and today, finally, it feels as if they have served their purpose. Strange how the same view can look so completely different through eyes that are not clouded with the darkness of depression. Same place, same friends, same job, same prospects… but somehow it just all contains some little nugget of hope, light, meaning, enjoyment – all the things that had leached out of my life for so long. BTW I am a very healthy, holistic-approach kind of person who balks at even taking an aspirin, it was in utter desperation I turned to conventional medicine but I have to say that I think it saved me. It doesn't have to be a long term thing, I have only been on the pills a few months but now that they have done their job and helped me to climb out of that abyss I hope to wean myself off them gradually and walk into tomorrow with something approximating hopefulness and optimism. To all of you who are gripped by that vice, I just want to say I think it's a positive thing that you are even looking on here and contributing to the blog – you have taken that vital first step of recognising your illness and taking those first tiny, tentative steps towards making yourself better. Do not underestimate the steps you have already taken towards working out where you are and trying to find ways to move away from that place.

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      Greg 6 years ago

      I really think this forum has helped me. I have had bouts of depression off and on for the last 6 years. 3 Weeks ago it hit me hard again. I broke up with my girlfriend, got fired from my job etc. After reading some of your stories I feel like i shouldn't be that depressed , but i am. I have started exercising every day , That seems to help a little , but I feel I have lost my whole personalitie. I used to be do outgoing, Now I feel like I have nothing to say.Just wish I could get past this and live my life again !! I want to start taking a natural seratonin booster called HTP-5 . Has anyone taken this before? Well that's all for now .Hope everyone is feeling a little better each day. Feels good to write what I feel, to other people that actually understandwhere I am coming from.

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      retribution 6 years ago

      Depression had really screwed up my life to the point of suicide. I had already been cutting but nothing worked. One day, I realized its how I survive is what makes me who I am, and I don't want people to remember me as another suicidal teen; I want them to remember me for being alive and successful. After more thought, I came to the conclusion that revenge is my reason for living; to lie to those who lied to me, to ignore the ones who ignored me, to avenge my pain caused by others.

      This twisted logic somehow pulled me out of my hole of despair, and now when I feel down, I think ahead...

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      Sucks  6 years ago

      Depression has ruined my life.

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      Les 6 years ago

      Ive tryed and tryed but nothing works or helps . What's left , nothing . There is no point , it hurts to much

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      tap 7 years ago

      I have just read the stories above and I am so glad I have found this I was trying to look for anything and everything on depression and have done for the last couple of years.

      I was diagnosed with depression 4 years ago I have been on medication I came off after two years but it didn't last so I went back on the meds I have seen the pshyc and counsellors my mother was diagnosed with cancer last year and we lost her a couple of months ago I have attempted suicide three times even though I have a lot to live for as I have a husband and children but some days I get so down in the dumps that I just can't shake those negative thoughts I have found that talking with family about having depression and how I feel has been good but I seem to hide behind a wall sometimes when people ask me how im doing and I just say good but deep down I know that things aren't good......

      I have tried all the self help tips like exercising etc

      The exercising does help a lot and just by reading a lot of the comments I think I'll get up tomorrow and go for a walk........

      It's been so good to see that there are people like me that are suffering from depression so I say don't give up if you get knocked down get up and try again good luck to all those suffering out there........

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      Withyou 7 years ago

      I'm there at the moment, the crater of despair pressing back on my head, I don't sleep well, I don't eat much and I am starting a new lot of medication that makes my body buz.

      Getting to the route of it, I think we are all scared of failure, that's why we never do any good at anything because if we don't try we have an excuse.

      Every time I have depression I self destruct - instead of getting out of a situation I challenge it and make it worse and aggravate it.

      I have gone to far this time, my misery is complete and I have failed again but nearly taken out a whole lot of people with me.

      I have to talk happy, happy is that I will never get depression again, it doesn't own me, I don't owe it my time. Every morning I go for a walk - and try and see the beauty in the world I live in, it sustains me, everynight I look at the photos and it keeps me alive as I stalk the corridors - I have everything to be happy for but I am so used to looking for excuses to fail - I'm so used to entering everyone's life, i forget my own - escaping what I really am - an unknown entity - a thought flashes through my mind - negative, worthless, doubting - I want to be positive, valuable, confident so I lie about myself, lie about my failures, you know I think the nicer you are to yourself the nicer people are to you...it's extremely hard to be nice to yourself when you don't like yourself, we need the world and the world needs people like us.....we are here to let the world know be kinder, genuine and accept all our differences, good and bad.....make a simple list of something you would like to change about yourself and practice every day.....head on overload time to sign off and get happy

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      SoLost 7 years ago

      I am so glad to have found this forum. I most often have a real difficulty putting words to how I feel, and many of you were able to do that for me. Writing about my depression is really difficult for me, but if you don't mind, I'm going to use this space to vent and step out of my comfort zone (and probably sound really whiny).

      I have been in a depression for about 10 months now. I tried to kill myself by overdosing 3 years ago, and since then I have been hospitalized in psych wards 3 times. So this isn't my first bout of depression. I haven't been working for over a year, which contributes to my sense of worthlessness. Losing my job meant I had to move in with my parents. I am 29 and have lived on my own for the past 10 years, so losing my independence makes me feel like even more of a failure.

      I can't get out of bed, I stay up until 5am, wake up at 3pm, all to avoid the day. I escape by sleeping and dreaming. Anything to give me a reprieve from my self-hatred. Sometimes I won't shower for days because I think what's the point. What's the point of doing anything to help myself, when the life I'd go back to is a disappointment.

      Most of the times I feel selfish for being depressed. I have a very supportive family (granted with tons of their own problems and mental health issues, but loving nonetheless), have a few friends who love me and support me, I'm relatively attractive and have a good education from a great university. I have all the tools to improve my situation but I have no will to do so. I am on meds, and I see a psychiatrist twice a week for cognitive-behavioral therapy. What more do I need to get better?! It makes so mad at myself.

      When I'm depressed, I isolate, I feel worthless, I am afraid of socializing because I feel like I have nothing to say. My lack of confidence in social situations is what makes me the most hopeless. I want more friends, I want to be carefree and laugh, I want to have interesting things to say, but none of this feels possible to me because I am so overwhelmed with fear and worthlessness. I am afraid to go out and get a job. I have been fired from every job I've held, made up outrageous lies so I can stay home from work and stay in bed. Because of this I feel no one will hire me. Not a single one of my former employers would have anything positive to say about me when it comes time for a background check. These are all the thoughts that consume my mind all day and make me afraid to get back into the world.

      I have had times of success. Like I said I graduated from college with good grades, went to grad school but didn't finish because of my depression. I spent 3 years in grad school and didn't even come out with a degree because I was hospitalized for my suicide attempt. After I didn't have the will or belief in myself to go back to get my degree. So I wasted 3 years of my life with nothing to show for it.

      If you looked at me 10 years ago, you'd think I was going places. I could have become a doctor, a scientist, a lawyer, whatever, but my low self-esteem and depression has held me back from all this. Now with a terrible work history, not much work experience, no advanced degree, what kind of jobs do I have to look forward to? Minimum wage jobs? (I'm sounding so entitled, but hey, I'm being honest) I look at the people I went to school with and they're all successful, married, living their lives. I was supposed to be right there alongside them. I feel like a total failure, like my growth has been stunted. Everyone got thru their shit, their insecurities, whatever. Me, I stayed behind because I'm not willing to help myself. I've exhausted my friendships and even now my family, lost many friends because of being such a downer, and now I'm alone.

      So here I am now, wanting to die because I feel like I failed, and I don't know how to deal with life and have nothing to look forward to.

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      DreamNaut 7 years ago

      I experienced an episode of psychosis about a year ago. After taking terrible medication I was able to recover in 6 months. Unfortunately for me I have now fallen into a terrible depression. I now truly understand what a terrible disease this is and exactly what you all are going through. I simply can't experience pleasure at all. Although I do make it to the shower most of the time it does take quite a bit of effort. My first thought getting out of bed in the morning is "damnit im awake!" or "damnit I have to shave again!". I also have thyroid disease and severe stomach distress at a ripe age of 26. Not to sound cruel but those suffering from situational depression, tough luck, change your situation, seek some talk therapy. Thank God everyday you don't have CLINICAL depression. I recommend those who are suffering from REAL depression to first make sure there is nothing physically causing your depression. I know easier said than done, but you have to get to the root of the problem.The reality is AD's are short term solutions. There are many diseases which cause depression. Hell, even allergies and vitamin deficiencies can cause depression. This is the best advice I can offer. What also helps me (notice I say helps and not cures) is a nice hot bath 2X a day. Running seems to help a little bit too. To all those newly diagnosed with depression: welcome to hell, I sincerely hope you can find your way out.

      P.S. recent studies show depression shrinks your brain.. cool huh.

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      Snoopie 7 years ago

      Hi guys

      Wow ive read a few of the stories above and i can so relate to a lot of that stuff you all have been through. About a year ago i feel into Depression for the first time due to a break up. It was ugly for me and what made it harder to cope with is that i never really had anyone to support or help me while this happened. I hid this from everyone including my parents. I done some stuff im not proud of and still to this day find it hard to talk about. I took medication for a while which made me feel spaced out and didn't really help so i choose to stop taking them and find a way to get out of this mess on my own. Here's some stuff on the net i found interesting that gave me some tips on how to get out of a depressed state of mind.....

      1 - Have the will to get out. Many people remain depressed simply because they lack the will to go out. It certainly can be difficult to push yourself when you're feeling down but it is an effort well worth making.

      2 - Establish a clear understanding of what made you depressed. Was it the break up? Are you unsure about your career? Self-worth? Many people remain unhappy because they attribute their unhappiness to the wrong things, or to nothing at all. Social pressure can often keep you from even questioning your happiness about certain things. Be honest with yourself, or you wont even know what to move on from.

      3 - Change your state of affairs. If you're unhappy, and want to become happy, something about your life clearly needs to change. For many people, this means their surroundings. Are you still working at the company that gives you no sense of meaning whatsoever? Quit!

      Are you still in the relationship that is making you feel manipulated? Break up!

      This may seem trivial, but it's often the most overlooked obstacle between you and your satisfaction.

      4 - When you can build up the courage Seek help from a mental health professional. Many studies prove that talk therapy helps with depression. To get the most out of talk therapy, you need to find a therapist that you like and trust, and work with him or her over a longer period of time.

      Gudluck and hope this helps a bit :-)

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      Just a little help 7 years ago

      Hi everyone,

      I have been reading all the comments of people who are suffering. Depression is one f the worst things in the world, and no one will understand it if they have not been through it. I had suffered from severe psychotic depression for over a year. I was always angry and knew there was something wrong with me but just couldn't figure out what. After a long hard battle of trying anything and everything that could help, from spiritual healers to psychaitrists to anti depressants. Severe clinical depression is one of tue worst things, you feel like the world has collapsed and nothing seems real anymore, no matter how hard you try, you cannot find happiness in anything- like watching your favourite tv show, or having your favourite meal, like you used to! Nothing ha meaning and your life is taken over by negative thoughts. It is now approaching two years that I have been suffering, and thank god, I am much better than I was. Now I have managed to switch off fromy mind. I no longer feel that the world has ended, but I still face common problems, like sleeping till late- sometimes till 4/5 o'clock, have a laconic energy and donnot feel motivated to go out. Everyone tells me I have to force myself but I have come to be quote content with knowing it is just the depression and it will soon go- it is not the end o the world because I sleep late. You may think how the he'll can I be so content and acceptant of this situation- I don't judge any of you who re resenting for being so positive, I used to do the same. The truth is that because you have put these negative thoughts and feelings into your mind and body, all your mind wants is more unhappiness. It is something called the pain body. Depression is caused by bad events which lead to bad emotions, which on turn you do not deal with. Although you think you may not be thinking about these things anymore (if you are thinking about them, then it is clear they are affecting you) actually what you have done, is made these thoughts permanent in tour subconscious mind. And the body is a very intellectual thing, once you have a thought that you do not want to think about, you push it away and do not want to deal with it, in other words, you REPRESS it. This is the worst thong you could do, as the thought is not gone, actually your mind or you body is working over time to repress it. What happens is that your brain sends signals to your body, that you have a thought you need to repress so you do not feel pain, so your muscles in turn tense, in various parts of the body, depending on the thought you are repressing. As every part of your body is linked to different feelings, eg, anxiety in your chest or fear in your stomach. That is why you have no energy or motivation to do anything because all your bodys energy is used up in trying to tense these muscles. What you need to do get rid of these repressed thoughts anon turn loosen your muscles so your body and mind can function normally.

      If any of you, and most of you probably are, in a state that you will do anything to get out of this, I know how it feels- do this one thing. I found an absolutely amazing guy that in my eyes is a God and he has taught me so much! IF THIS IS THE ONLY THING YOU DO, CALL THIS GUY, I just can't explain how much he can help you. He's better than any doctor, councillor, therapist- I have seen them all. His name is MATT DILOREZO, he now lives in Canada and itay cost you a little to call him but it is the best call you will make. If you are calling from England, you can get him on 001817 776 5412.

      Also an amazing book to get away from negative thoughts and to escape from your mind is by a spiritual teacher, one of the best in the world. The book is called A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle. You need to go through great suffering to understand this book and I'm sure most of you will be ready for it, as I know depression isnone of the biggest suffering.

      I hope that my comments and recommendations will help, please let me know if any of you use them and tell me if they have helped. I was reading all the posts and I knew that it was the right thing to do to share the help I have found. I knew it wouldn't be fair if I didn't. Guilt is one the worst feelings (caused by false thoughts) and it is onenof the biggest causes of depression. So always live right, and do right. Karma will reward you!

      I hope all of you will bot give up and know that it WILL get better even f you cannot see it now. And I hope you will use the advice and recommendations I have given you, if you do not get cured, it will definitely help. Or at least give you the steps you need to knownin order to be helped. By the way, Matt charges £70 for his work if he thinks he can help you, but it is the best payment you will ever make.

      I hope you all keep faith. And just know how wise and strong you will be to get through this!