I Don't Feel
I don’t feel anything and I don’t cry anymore,
Strong am I or am I not, as those who cry don’t
Get the shore.
Not mine, but its the tested feeling of the wise ones.
To be their part, my crying tendencies I need to shun,
And carefully must I fill my virtues cart.
Giving it up is all worth it, Rest the risk of being
Labeled immature and spent; then I’ll be done!
I don’t feel anything and I don’t think what is here now
And what is in store,
Positive thoughts are now welcome and worries I presently
Abhor,
Then why the thoughts of ‘what is mine’ and ‘what is
yours’?
Still the ponderance on what could have been my destiny
And others for which I am not sure.
I don’t feel anything and I don’t long for Friends- past,
Present and future’s door.
So many destinations and much individual paths to follow,
Relations are though fulfilling even now and not hollow.
Then why the pain of inherent distances & sadness, every
Time I have to swallow?
Emotions for created and pre-existing relations present
Even in these moments’ swing,
Meetings are still special, as we share a joyous hug,
a cheerful ‘Hello’ and a naughty wink.
I don’t feel anything and happiness & wait for my desires
Is now mellow,
Minimal the expectations and more the space, is the key to
More peace and less sorrow,
Perfect formula for all smiles, as tears I too don’t wish to
Borrow.
I forwent so much, yet I fear the same meadows,
Why my eyes still well up and lips convey elation,
When the sun shines bright, or a heart becomes narrow,
Why the prolongation of this gravitation?
-Charu Bhatnagar
I Don't Feel by Charu Bhatnagar is licensed under a Creative Commons Attribution-NonCommercial-NoDerivs 3.0 Unported License.
Based on a work at charubhatnagar.hubpages.com.
© 2012 Charu Bhatnagar
Comments
Very nicely done Charu and so true in spirit; those of us who experience these feelings take comfort in expressing them in form such as this, and I don't know about you, but sometimes it does not convey fully the emotion. But this line I love:
Why my eyes still well up and lips convey elation
Describes it all perfectly. We are explaining the unexplainable, and everything we say is true.
Look after yourself and thank you for sharing your thoughts in this way.
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