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How I Healed My Broken Heart

Updated on February 4, 2014

How I Healed My Broken Heart

How does one heart heal?

To whom does one turn to?

The cardiologist said there was nothing broken,

But I knew that wasn't true.


For I could feel the crack every day;

Every moment that I was awake;

And even my sleep kept careful guard

Watching over this precious break.


I asked the priest for a blessing,

He offered a pitiful prayer.

I sat in church and talked with God,

My heart exposed and bare.


I went to see a healer.

She touched my body and said,

"There's nothing wrong with your Chakras…

It must be in your head."


I met a fine psychiatrist

And lay down on his couch;

I argued it wasn't my childhood-

That much I can vouch.


I joined up with a Shaman;

We danced all through the night.

But, even his strong medicine

Couldn't make it right.


I sat alone in the quiet

Wanting only a moments rest;

A movement soft as angel's wings

Fluttered in my chest.


A blanket of peace enveloped me

As tears came to my eyes.

"So, this is how a heart heals," I thought,

"I didn't realize."


Original poem by Denise Handlon All rights reserved. No portion of this poem may be used without the written permission of the author.



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The Making of the Poem:

The heartache began first, but the question soon followed. Staying with the experience, as I have been taught to do on my spiritual path, it felt like a gaping hole, dark and cold. As the mind recoiled I became curious as to how long it would take to heal a broken heart and what the process was.

The creativity stream occurred next and I allowed the question, 'how does a heart heal' to simmer on the back burner of my mind, occasionally playing with rhyme. One of the areas of playfulness that I noticed, and immediately engaged in, was the many types of healers and what their modus operandi would be. It became a delightful encounter to imagine what a particular healer would offer and my response to it.

In the end it is obvious that the answers, as well as the work, lie within our own selves. It is part of my spiritual practice to be present to the experience no matter what it is; to see it to its conclusion. More often than not, as was in this case, the end result is filled with love.

This poem was started in March, 2011. It began as awareness of an experience within the body and formulated itself into a question. The question evolved into a poem. Although the topic is serious and could be twisted into something dark and dismal, there is a lightheartedness that prevailed here. The stanzas were a work in progress for several months-writing, resting, working, pausing, and then resuming the process. When the final word was written I allowed it to have some space before I picked it up once more to review it. In the end, I was satisfied with the final results in August 2011.




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    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      4 years ago from North Carolina

      Hello Kerlund74 Thank you for your comments, I appreciate them. :)

      Hi DDE - I'm glad you enjoyed this poem.

      It's funny that this poem started so serious and then as it evolved it just picked up a light humor along the way. :)

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      Devika Primić 

      4 years ago from Dubrovnik, Croatia

      Wow! An incredible poem with such emotions direct to the warmth of ones heart.

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      kerlund74 

      4 years ago from Sweden

      Voted beautiful:) Touching and very well written!

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      4 years ago from North Carolina

      Dear fpherj48 I'm so happy to learn that this poem was inspirational to you at just the right moment. I do not believe in coincidence's either, but enjoy the synchronicity of life, which Jung revealed in much of his work.

      Thank you for stopping by. :) Enjoy your healing process.

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      Paula 

      4 years ago from Beautiful Upstate New York

      Denise.....So nice to meet you and visit your site. I do not believe in coincidence.

      There is a purposeful and genuine reason I was led to this sweet and touching poem. Thank you for sharing this spiritually healing message where I could find it.....UP A&B...tweeted/pinned

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Thank you Edwinoel Tanglao for reading and commenting. Joy to you...

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      Edwinoel Tanglao 

      6 years ago from Los Angeles, California

      Yes, that is why for me, a healed spirit is the key to true peace and happiness. I have seen the light of Christ as it continues to heal my soul as in him is my strength through his words of love, forgiveness ... that in faith, I see hope as I trust in him ... surrendering all my material inequities and all malice from my heart ... surrendering my 'self,' and become one with him in truth, love for others, and forgiveness.

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Hi inthenickoftime77-thanks for reading and commenting on this poem. Yes, the Quiet Peace to assauge the broken heart. Many Blessings to you, my friend.

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      inthenickoftime77 

      6 years ago from New Zealand, aka: Aotearoa, aka: The Land Of The Long White Cloud

      Great Poem. Absolute quiet, listening to nothing but your own heart beating, in the company of your own thoughts is pure luxury and a wonderful healer. Voted up

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      FF-that's funny. Yep, I think there are all sorts of folks waiting to console a broken heart...but, it's an inside job. Thanks for the votes. I had fun writing this one.

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      femmeflashpoint 

      6 years ago

      Denise,

      This has been the story of my life a few times over. Wonder if we were visiting the same people in hopes of finding relief? If they aren't the same folks, maybe they all attended the same school, because they definitely talk alike. (wink)

      Voted up, all the way!

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Good advice, teacher! Thanks for taking the time to read and comment cara-I know you are BUSY...which is an understatement. Love you.

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      cardelean 

      6 years ago from Michigan

      Excellent job. I appreciate you sharing your process to get to the end result of you poem. It is something that I often tell my students, you don't come up with a polished piece in 5 minutes.

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Thanks Charu, it was a fun process. :)

    • Charu Bhatnagar profile image

      Charu Bhatnagar 

      6 years ago from India

      What an amazing poetry and ideas. It is so beautiful, I can relate to it also. :)

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      WannaB Writer-Thanks for reading and offering your feedback.

      Movie Master-glad you enjoyed it and thanks for the votes. :)

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      Movie Master 

      6 years ago from United Kingdom

      I am sure many will find comfort in your words Denise, healing is a journey and your poem gives hope.

      voting up and beautiful, thank you for sharing, best wishes MM

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      Barbara Radisavljevic 

      6 years ago from Templeton, CA

      I liked the perspective you offer in this poem. It's true that pain is invisible to those who haven't known it, and if the pain is in the heart or soul, medicine is useless.

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Ruby-that means a lot to me coming from such a wonderful poet as yourself. Thank you.

      Dexter-you are a sweet soul. Thank you for your kind comments.

      Yes raciniwa-the Source is where it is-the healing, compassion and love. Thanks for your comments. I'm glad you enjoyed it.

      Little Kim-thank you for reading and commenting. :)

      oh my goodness, baygirl-my most sincere condolences to you in your grief. Listen, this is different from any 'ordinary' broken heart--this is just plain grief. So, don't do anything except GRIEVE and follow what your body and mind is guiding you to do. I have some hubs on grief about the loss of my own husband in Oct of '05 which you are welcome to visit, but I will email you a message also. A big, warm hug sent out to you this evening and know you aren't alone! ((((((hug)))))

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      victoria 

      6 years ago from Hamilton On.

      Beautiful poem Denise! I could try to go there.You say you were satisfied about the poem in August 2011;my heart broke in August as my husband took his last breath.I will try to be quiet and listen.Maybe something will speak to me.

      Thanks for sharing.It helps.

      voted you beautiful.

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      Little Kim 

      6 years ago from Any town U.S.A.

      beautiful!

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      raciniwa 

      6 years ago from Naga City, Cebu

      wow...i love this poem and i can relate to this one...when people we ask for help can't help we always go back to the source and that is oneself...

    • Dexter Yarbrough profile image

      Dexter Yarbrough 

      6 years ago from United States

      Hi Denise! What a beautiful poem. Thanks for sharing your journey into the healing of a broken heart. I hope that many will read it and be comforted by your experience, thoughtfulness and creativity.

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      Ruby Jean Richert 

      6 years ago from Southern Illinois

      Such wisdom in your poetry. The healing is always within ourselves and God's kindness toward us. Your poem inspired me Denise..Thank you..

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Thanks Writer20-I appreciate it.

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      Joyce Haragsim 

      6 years ago from Southern Nevada

      Good poem, which I love. voted you up and beautiful

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Greetings Freya-thank you for reading and commenting

      Hi Annie-thanks for reading and your votes. :)

      Chaya-thank you for acknowledging the wit! LOL

      Thanks Peggy-I enjoyed the development of this poem.

      Hi Gail-thanks so much for your thoughtful comments.

      Thanks Simey-for your feedback and reading.

      Hi Susan-thanks-loved your contribution as well.

      Stessily-thank you for your thoughtful feedback. I appreciate it.

      Hi Stephanie-thanks for reading. I'm glad you enjoyed it. :)

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      Stephanie Henkel 

      6 years ago from USA

      This is a lovely poem and offers hope to the broken-hearted in search of healing. I so enjoyed your poem!

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      stessily 

      6 years ago

      Denise: Your journey in this lovely, clear poem felt so real and immediate for me as I read it, and yet I was amazed to read that it was written in stages for it flows with completion and unity. I appreciate that this poem is not a summary after the fact but instead a living narration. Beautiful process! Voted up, beautiful, awesome

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      Susan Zutautas 

      6 years ago from Ontario, Canada

      Beautiful poem. I liked seeing the process you went through to write this piece.

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      Simon Cook 

      6 years ago from NJ, USA

      Loved the poem, the flow and the way it leads to healing - love your description of your personal journey too!

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      Gail Sobotkin 

      6 years ago from South Carolina

      Simply beautiful and so very true. Healing is a journey and the sooner we can open ourselves to sitting quietly without panic or resistence, simply being with and acknowledging the empty ache in our hearts, the sooner we will heal.

      I loved the poem and also the story behind it.

      Good luck in the contest. This was a wonderful submission.

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      Peggy Woods 

      6 years ago from Houston, Texas

      Beautiful and lighthearted approach in your poetry about healing a broken heart. I enjoyed the poem and your rendition about how it was created over time. Voted up!

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      Chaya Parmessur 

      6 years ago from FRANCE

      Awesome Denise! I like the wit in it as well.

      And so true that finally all the healing and answers we need are nowhere but within ourselves.

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      annmackiemiller 

      6 years ago from Bingley Yorkshire England

      this is so beautiful Denise _ I could feel your pain in every work - voted up awesome and beautiful.

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      Freya Cesare 

      6 years ago from Borneo Island, Indonesia

      interesting and of course beautiful poem. How does heart heal? In the end, nobody can answer your question but yourself. ^^ Have a nice day there!

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Thanks Dorsi-it was quite a delightful 'game' to explore those ways and then find the right words that rhymed and did not sound out of place. :)

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      Dorsi Diaz 

      6 years ago from The San Francisco Bay Area

      Beautiful poem Denise. I like the different ways the heart sought to be "healed", and the process involved.

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Hi Michelle-thank you for reading and commenting. Nice to see you!

      Hi AE- Thanks! I appreciate your reading and commenting. It was a fun process to observe and write about. :)

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      Julianna 

      6 years ago from SomeWhere Out There

      Denise, Those words are beautiful! I am so glad your heart has healed. :) Rated up! :)

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      Michelle Simtoco 

      6 years ago from Cebu, Philippines

      I love your poem Denise. You are absolutely right, healing takes place within us. This I too have found out. Beautiful!

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Thank you anglnwu for reading and offering your feedback. :)

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      anglnwu 

      6 years ago

      I enjoyed reading this. You're right, it's the quiet that heals--the moment when your own heart takes stock of the situation and come to terms with it (or as you said it..peace). Nicely done and rated up.

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Homesteadbound-the answer is always with each of us-I've known that from experience for a very long time. This poem came from one of my meditation experiences during my spiritual retreat. Thank you so much for reading and commenting. :) I appreciate it.

      Queen Cleopatra-if we were in the same area we could do that together, couldn't we. :) Nice to meet you.

      Sunnie Day-thank you for reading and commenting on it being inspirational, as that is the category I had listed it under. Cheers.

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      Sunnie Day 

      6 years ago

      Denise,

      This was a beautiful hub filled with inspiration as to how we all might find healing. Thank you for sharing. Healing is a journey and one that takes time. You are so right in the end we find we fill that gaping hole with love. Thank you.

      Sunnie

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      Roselyn Mendoza 

      6 years ago from Philippines

      My heart had been broken three times so far and each wound had been healed by time and a different mind set. Going out with jolly good friends and learning new hobbies are included in the remedies. Thank you for sharing a wonderful poem. :)

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      Cindy Murdoch 

      6 years ago from Texas

      Search for the healing of a broken heart. Although it was with you all along, perhaps it took time to be open and find the answer.

    • Denise Handlon profile imageAUTHOR

      Denise Handlon 

      6 years ago from North Carolina

      Hound Cat-nice to meet you. Thanks for reading and commenting (and the vote up! :) ) I read some of your work just now. Sweet.

      Thomas-I'm glad you enjoyed that part of the process as well. It was a delightful healing process as it began to unfold! Thanks for your observations and feedback.

      Hi Swiftfamily-yes, it always comes down to this, doesn't it...

      Hello Vinaya- I appreciate your comments. Thanks for stopping by.

      Hello P.D.- Thanks for your feedback. Yes-you are absolutely right-and there you have it! LOL

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      Rob Welsh 

      6 years ago from Tomorrow - In Words & NZ Time.

      Well there you go.... If you give it away, it is irrelevant who else you ask.. You must always go back to that place, that time and to that person to whom you gave it AND Demand theirs instead! Nice work. You would be surprised at how easy heart-napping is :D

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      Vinaya Ghimire 

      6 years ago from Nepal

      Its beautiful. I loved your point of view and your composition.

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      SwiftFamily 

      6 years ago from Rayle, GA

      very nicely done! I agree, it all boils down to what's inside. We know (may not know that we know) what will calm and heal our hearts.

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      ThoughtSandwiches 

      6 years ago from Reno, Nevada

      Denise...

      This was a beautiful look at something we all have to go through on occasion. As I was reading it I liked how you went to each practitioner in search of succor. As such...I was thrilled when you wrote about your creative process and mentioned it!

      Great Job!

      Thomas

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      Hound Cat 

      6 years ago from Los Angeles area of Southern California USA

      Loved your poem. I found your hub useful as well, due to the way you were able to put spacing between the important parts of the work. Voted up.

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