ArtsAutosBooksBusinessEducationEntertainmentFamilyFashionFoodGamesGenderHealthHolidaysHomeHubPagesPersonal FinancePetsPoliticsReligionSportsTechnologyTravel

That's me there, under the streetlamps glow. Do you see?

Updated on June 19, 2013

That’s me there
Under the streetlight
Do you see me?
That’s me there.


I’ve come back.
I want my things.
They were waiting for me in the car
Ten minutes
I told them
I heard you screaming
Don’t think I cared.

That’s me there,
Midriff bared,
With dirty hair.
That’s me
Can’t you see?
I’ve come to take my things
Unlock your door.


Wearing stolen jeans
That used to fit; saggy she tightens her stolen belt.
They don’t ever stop me.
I put on their earrings
And watches and jewels
No alarm sounds
As I walk out the door
Should I feel guilty for it?
As I say good day?
And your smile strangles me?
For not paying the bill?


Then stop me.
But it’s cold outside
And I don’t like what I wear

Screaming at me
Don’t think I cared
Do it. Hit me.
I dare you
They’re waiting for me out there
Ten minutes, I said.
Push me, pull me
Tear away my soiled clothes
I pushed them in my underwear
I dare you, touch me there
I’ve fallen down the stairs
I hate you

It’s that boy you see
I want him to want me
To see me for me
And your clothes I take
They make me look different.


That’s me under the streetlight over there, midriff bare.
I’ve come to take my stolen things.
Do you see them too?
There must be twenty of them there
Guys I’ve riled
They hate you now.
So don’t stop me.
Unlock your door.

I’ve cried to them
In my soiled clothes
my midriff bared,
Your secrets are not safe with me
Everybody knows
I told them all.
And I lied even more.
Everybody hates you.
Scream at me.

Don’t think I cared
You will die
I’ll make it happen
Already have a price
A number
I scream at you
Don’t think I cared
Don’t think I won’t
Don’t leave your wallet hanging around
Lock your safe
With all my shoes
And dirty clothes
Everybody hates you
But not as much as me

Do you see me?
As I walk up to the door
I’m fourteen
Do you see me?
Do you hear my fist pound upon your door?
Do you hear them?
They are not yelling in jest
Put down the phone
I just want my things
Then I will disappear
I’m fourteen
Some of them have mounted me
I’m fourteen
Do you see the girl?
I can’t see anything
My fist is bloody
The police are here

Calm down Frankie
Calm down.
You never open the door.
They put us in a line
Giving each of us a turn
I lie;

"My name is Suzie," pointing
Down the street," I live right over there."
My hair is dirty
Oh, the preachers daughter!
Yes, that’s me
I smile, I nod.
My eyes glazed
Scatter kids
Scatter.


I’m fourteen- don't you see me?
Suzie says I am a slut,
She really hates me.
That’s ‘cuz her brother raped me.
He did it twice
Don't you see me?
LOOK OUT YOUR WINDOW.
I hate you
I disappear
And you’ll never stop me.

Courage, strength, survival
Courage, strength, survival

Comments

    0 of 8192 characters used
    Post Comment

    • frankieonfire profile imageAUTHOR

      frankieonfire 

      5 years ago from Eureka, CA

      Your words lift me up... I couldn't have asked for a better first fan. Thank you for reading.

    • Astra Nomik profile image

      Cathy Nerujen 

      5 years ago from Edge of Reality and Known Space

      Wow... I am lost for words. This is so dark. And yet this is so narrative and powerful. The words almost lash like a whip. I am surprised there are no comments here already.

      I know the subject matter is dark and probably controversial. But some things need telling. And you have a way of telling it. To say you are a great writer is a big understatement. Thank you for following me. I am delighted to follow you back. Going to tweet this stunning hub page and check more of your awesome writing.

    working

    This website uses cookies

    As a user in the EEA, your approval is needed on a few things. To provide a better website experience, hubpages.com uses cookies (and other similar technologies) and may collect, process, and share personal data. Please choose which areas of our service you consent to our doing so.

    For more information on managing or withdrawing consents and how we handle data, visit our Privacy Policy at: https://hubpages.com/privacy-policy#gdpr

    Show Details
    Necessary
    HubPages Device IDThis is used to identify particular browsers or devices when the access the service, and is used for security reasons.
    LoginThis is necessary to sign in to the HubPages Service.
    Google RecaptchaThis is used to prevent bots and spam. (Privacy Policy)
    AkismetThis is used to detect comment spam. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide data on traffic to our website, all personally identifyable data is anonymized. (Privacy Policy)
    HubPages Traffic PixelThis is used to collect data on traffic to articles and other pages on our site. Unless you are signed in to a HubPages account, all personally identifiable information is anonymized.
    Amazon Web ServicesThis is a cloud services platform that we used to host our service. (Privacy Policy)
    CloudflareThis is a cloud CDN service that we use to efficiently deliver files required for our service to operate such as javascript, cascading style sheets, images, and videos. (Privacy Policy)
    Google Hosted LibrariesJavascript software libraries such as jQuery are loaded at endpoints on the googleapis.com or gstatic.com domains, for performance and efficiency reasons. (Privacy Policy)
    Features
    Google Custom SearchThis is feature allows you to search the site. (Privacy Policy)
    Google MapsSome articles have Google Maps embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    Google ChartsThis is used to display charts and graphs on articles and the author center. (Privacy Policy)
    Google AdSense Host APIThis service allows you to sign up for or associate a Google AdSense account with HubPages, so that you can earn money from ads on your articles. No data is shared unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Google YouTubeSome articles have YouTube videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    VimeoSome articles have Vimeo videos embedded in them. (Privacy Policy)
    PaypalThis is used for a registered author who enrolls in the HubPages Earnings program and requests to be paid via PayPal. No data is shared with Paypal unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook LoginYou can use this to streamline signing up for, or signing in to your Hubpages account. No data is shared with Facebook unless you engage with this feature. (Privacy Policy)
    MavenThis supports the Maven widget and search functionality. (Privacy Policy)
    Marketing
    Google AdSenseThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Google DoubleClickGoogle provides ad serving technology and runs an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Index ExchangeThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    SovrnThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Facebook AdsThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Unified Ad MarketplaceThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    AppNexusThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    OpenxThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Rubicon ProjectThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    TripleLiftThis is an ad network. (Privacy Policy)
    Say MediaWe partner with Say Media to deliver ad campaigns on our sites. (Privacy Policy)
    Remarketing PixelsWe may use remarketing pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to advertise the HubPages Service to people that have visited our sites.
    Conversion Tracking PixelsWe may use conversion tracking pixels from advertising networks such as Google AdWords, Bing Ads, and Facebook in order to identify when an advertisement has successfully resulted in the desired action, such as signing up for the HubPages Service or publishing an article on the HubPages Service.
    Statistics
    Author Google AnalyticsThis is used to provide traffic data and reports to the authors of articles on the HubPages Service. (Privacy Policy)
    ComscoreComScore is a media measurement and analytics company providing marketing data and analytics to enterprises, media and advertising agencies, and publishers. Non-consent will result in ComScore only processing obfuscated personal data. (Privacy Policy)
    Amazon Tracking PixelSome articles display amazon products as part of the Amazon Affiliate program, this pixel provides traffic statistics for those products (Privacy Policy)