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Updated on October 31, 2011
Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.   Psalm 51:10-12
Create in me a clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. Cast me not away from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me. Restore unto me the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit. Psalm 51:10-12

The inhumanity, oh God why!

Too vexed in my spirit to even cry.

There is a storm raging inside

Ranging on the scale of an F5!

I am trying to retain it, so no will get hurt

I feel it coming and the levee of my tears are about to burst.

Oh this is not good, the betrayal of my soul

Hell has no more fury than this storm I am trying hard to hold.

Dear Lord, I need your arms of protection around me

I need thee, oh, how I need thee!

Another test of time I am pushing through

Walking in Your Word, holding on to what's true.

The raging battles of a Christian within

Tell this storm to cease and leave me without sin.

Walking by faith and not by sight

Lord, I am depending on all your might!

I close my eyes in hopes of nothing to see

My spirit is screaming and knocking to be free.

Continue to give me the strength to walk through the valley of death

Bless me with the continuous fight until I take my last breath.

I pray to You Lord for my soul to keep

Please, awaken me from this paradoxical sleep!

Lord, I ask forgiveness of those who betrayed my soul

Thank you Dear God for blessing me with self-control.

Copyright 2011. PFP.

In His Word, God tells me, not to think it strange concerning the fiery trial which is trying me as though it is some strange thing that has happened unto me. Instead, the word encourages me to rejoice. It reminds me of the terrible suffering Christ had to endure to redeem my soul, so why should I be discouraged when others attack me. I should consider it a priviledge to partake in my sufferings, just as Jesus did when He died for me. Handling Spiritual Trials is perplexing because being human we tend to react physically although the spirit has nothing to do with the physical. The spirit is a mental consciousness untouched by man. It transcends all logic and understanding therefore it is invisible to the naked eye. The spirit can only be communicated with and touched by God. This is why, I call on Jesus, in my times of perplexion. When my soul is not at rest with situations or people. The old me would have easily become agressive physically or verbally when confronted. Now, I know better, I turn people and situations over to my higher power (God). I pray for them and I move on. People will make you angry because they cannot understand your new found happiness. They quickly mock my God. They call me irrational, insane, delusional and everything else they can think of; except a child of God. They run from the truth. I AM A CHILD OF GOD, I PROCLAIM IT! For all those who have and will betray my soul......I will pray for you. God's tenderness and mercy towards me has delivered me out of the mire, and let me not sink. It has delivered me from them that hate me and His mercy has released me from the deep waters of shame that tried engulf me. God's loving kindness is good. For the betrayal of my soul (Tribulations), I rest; because God knoweth the way I take and why I took it when He tried me, and as with all other trials, I shall come forth as pure gold. I see his steps when He walks with me and it is His ways I will keep and not decline. There is no need for me to fight with atheist nor anyone else when their arguments are against God. For centuries, it has been written and none of the angles of darkness will prevail. The battle is not mine; it's the Lords! God Bless

Copyright 2011. PFP


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    • SweetMocha-Monroe profile imageAUTHOR


      7 years ago

      Thank you Sueswan. It is easier to forgive others than forgiving ourselves. Forgiveness is essential for the soul without it, we would constantly be tormented from past mistakes. Thank you for stopping by and reading.

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      7 years ago

      A very beautiful and heartfelt poem.

      It hurts when others break our heart and soul. Forgiving others is not always easy but I think forgiving ourselves is not only harder but essential.


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