God is with us, The Calm after the Storms of Life.
A message of hope, in a time of loss.
It is raining outside. My car windows are rolled down a bit. I can smell the fresh air. It is being cleansed. It is as if this was meant for me. The patter tottering on my car is a soothing, distinct sound. It is as if tears are falling from the sky. I hear splashing of water in the rain puddles similar to a gentle, soft background music. I feel ever so present. I have known this feeling. I want to stay for many hours. I am in the present. There is no time. I am not thinking past tense or future.. The rain is now sprinkling on my car in a soft patter. Th e cars drive through the puddles. in a blink of an eye the noise echos like a voice in a valley. My nerves are calm. I subconsciously have let all my cares go. The warmth of my body temperature is perfect. I feel as if a warmed blanket has been wrapped around me. I know it is the, 'Wings of the Lord.' I intuitively know the Holy Spirit is the comforter. I thank God for this moment. My eyes feel sleepy, I could drift into a slumber. I am here. I know that I know, I am not alone. I am loved. A feeling of love fills my fiber and being ever so soft and tender.
A car door closes. It is a brief sound fading off into space. Similar to feeling's, they come and go. They are not permanent. I wonder if paradise is similar to this. I can feel the soft murmur of my heart. Each moment is a precious gift. If all could stay present I think anxiety or stress would not be an issue. I glance at my watch. A tear falls on my hand. I look at the time. I rise from the moment. I must get back to work soon. I long to stay in this place of peace.
The rain has let up. I can smell the cleansing of the air, Crisp and clear. The chill of the air looks similar to a clear glass of iced water. I shut my eyes. I do not want to return. I feel like I could fly. I am renewed. My spirit is at peace. My mind is alert. I open the car door. I go into the bank. I feel like I shine with light. It is the Glory of God. He is my shelter in the storm. I hope to remember this. In every storm in life, there is a calm. The rainbow of his signature of many colors appears in the sky. It reminds me, his love is here to stay. He will never leave nor forsake us. I may feel lonely but I am never alone. Not unless I choose to be.
It has been two weeks. I have been in grief. Grief is like riding a roller coaster. It is up, down, smooth, climbing, soaring, it leaves butterflies and a pit in the stomach. I had emotions so intense I was bent over in pain. There have been two young death's in our family. Seth 24 years old took his life. He suffered with Bi Polar illness. He was a sweetie with a kind, giving warm heart , his smile lit up a room. He loved the Lord. He could not get through the despair the illness can bring on. My sister lost her step son. Her husband is despaired. No one ever wants this pain. Our God will cover them under his wings.
A week later my niece lost her husband, aged 30 years, and the father to Bella, his 14 month old daughter. Zack lost his life due to heart failure the cause, drugs and alcohol. But for the Grace of God there go I. Somehow I know with time, healing will come. I can only pray and be a willing vessel for our big God that has HUGE wings. I can not relate to their pain. It is something one does not ever care to face. If you find a space in your heart in this moment, please lift the families in prayer. May God Bless you for the caring love, in your Spirit. God says. 'He can turn ALL things for the good for those that love him'. Since Gods promises are true, I believe his 'word' has held me up when I wanted to fall over.
Today in every fiber and cell I understand why it is so important to love, forgive and be available for others. When we Bless, we Get Blessed. When we give it will be given back, pressed down and shaken over. When we forgive, we will be forgiven. Judge not, lest we be judged. 'Love never fails.' I plan to treat others as I would want to be treated. What I have is a daily reprieve to stay spiritually fit. Sometimes a moment at a time. It is my responsibility. I will not be perfect, but I know I will work harder at it today. I am a work in progress, not perfection. Only one is perfect, the King of Kings. I can reach for better, with the helping hand of the creator. I only need to be willing and ask.
God has a plan, It is given to us one day at a time. One moment if that is all you can handle. It is a softer, easier road then handling life on your own. If you are a bit down or in a struggle I encourage you try to stay present. There is a true gift in not looking back and not looking ahead. If you can not seem to knock on his door whisper and he will open it for you. Only believe. He is your Father, he cares for you, for me for the families that suffer in pain. 'His grace is sufficient enough'
Healing is a process. Growing pains are called just that, they hurt. I am grateful I do not always act on my feelings. A feeling will pass. Tomorrow is a new dawn. Being God 'conscious' is like having a sixth sense. Most of us hear, smell, touch, feel, taste. When Christ abides in you and you in him it is another realm or sense. Intuitively, 'you will know how to handle things that used to baffle you.' It is truly an amazing gift.
He has given his people the ultimate gift, 'He sent his very son to die on the cross for us so we could be spared from hell and spend eternity with him in the light of Heaven.Through him we are made righteous. Not because we deserve it but because he loved us first. It is a choice we must make. That is an awesome promise from our Father. Eternity awaits us after we part from these fleshly bodies. We can look forward to life eternal where there are no tears or suffering. The gates are pearl essence, the streets are pure gold. We will be in fine linen. There is no illness. There is Love. There is no sin. I ask God in this moment to fill me with 'his' discernment in love, to share the Good news of Glory and Salvation to others. He sits on the throne. I believe he smiles on us and he sheds tears for the hurting. He is perfect love. May the peace of God fill you today and always.
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copyright Skye Tudae July 2009