Yeah but if you take those medicine - it's hard to get a professional job because that's considered a security risk. It's still has stigma attached to it.
I feel friendless because nobody want to be with a depressed weirdo. No purpose to live because I feel I have no true friends. Self- defeatist - always was - always make others uneasy. Over eat, spend, sex, porno, net, cigarettes, booze and drugs to distract myself from being ostracized. Palpable despair.
When I happy - I act like a jerk. real pain DSMV has no soul searching epiphany. What's the difference in chemicals that makes me a happy camper? Oblivion Kabuki self-oblivious - denial fiction, repression, anxiety.
The Rx does not cure - only maintain like diabetes insulin. But American healthcare is all about the chemicals. As if an uncurable hopeless case that is not worthy the trouble to take care of the core of this unremitting deep depression.
But the raven, sitting lonely on the placid bust, spoke only,
That one word, as if his soul in that one word he did outpour.
Nothing further then he uttered - not a feather then he fluttered -
Till I scarcely more than muttered `Other friends have flown before -
On the morrow he will leave me, as my hopes have flown before.'
Then the bird said, `Nevermore.'
`Be that word our sign of parting, bird or fiend!' I shrieked upstarting -
`Get thee back into the tempest and the Night's Plutonian shore!
Leave no black plume as a token of that lie thy soul hath spoken!
Leave my loneliness unbroken! - quit the bust above my door!
Take thy beak from out my heart, and take thy form from off my door!'