Last one to post is the Winner! (redux)

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   Crazdwriterposted 15 years ago

   WOW B.C. that is too much for one person to handle. I am so sorry you have to suffer so much

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   Stevennix2001posted 15 years ago

   i'll say, i'll definitely pray for you as because you don't deserve to have these problems.  your too good of a person.

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   Crazdwriterposted 15 years ago

   I agree with Steven I'll be praying like mad and sending positive thoughts your way!

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      baconmidgetposted 15 years agoin reply to this

      I'll be praying as well

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   B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

   I have a GIANT BOOK the drs have added to over the years, and the page I have read off of was a summary from October before that darn doctor broke the law, I caught him, me and my PTSD or Post Traumatic Stress Disorder Therapist turned him in..I would not need the faith and prayers for friday about getting this new doctor if I wouldnt of lost mine...I will forever turn a blind eye to the things I see that are majorly wrong so I dont get shafted..
   You do whats right and you suffer I have learned...So when it comes to doctors, I get this one to keep me on the regimine that works and keeps me functionable, I will never turn him in , no matter what he does...
   
   See, in these papers it gives me so much praise from this doctor I had, and I had finally found the right medicine course and therapy course...it all got trashed when I found out a 22 yr old kid was paying him 1000 cash every 2 weeks for 600 dilaudids a onth and 2 bottles of liquid methadone... I only found out when the kid was parked beside me one day in the parking lot and I caught him shooting up..he is from the same town Im from, so I knew who he was ahead of time, I could not believe it was my doctor that was his dealer..I had known he was a junkie ..no medical issues, and then he was selling and would run out and knock on peoples doors, even the elderly..this is a small town , of anyone who has a handicapped placard and give some big story on how he was hurt , in pain, and just needed a painpill...everytime he came here I pretended to know nothing and offer him dollar store ibuprofen, he would get mad and storm off saying I know you, you b**ch, you have pain pain pills..
   
   so anyway, I screwed up by thinking I was doing the right thing, and now the disabled person suffers and the kid rides by on his 4 wheeler , with a case of beer, chops wood, moves furniture, sits on his dads porch, with his 3 year old son  - a case of beer - and his arm tied off with an ace bandage as his wife heats up the spoon so they can get their fixes..
   I even turned them into the cops..
   
   They live high and mighty..and very HIGH..while I suffer in physical, permanent pain wondering if I will get my treatment I am to have or not..I even have a court order to stay on my meds ( long story ) or I lose my daughter because I can not physically do what I do, or sit and make my art...well, enough pity...
   
   I just ask for your prayers so I can be back to normal, I have a temporary amopunt of my regular meds for 13 more days...Im not asking for anymore than I need or an supposed to have, even though sometimes I have extra pain that is uncontrolled..Im not a junkie and I am tired of getting that lable because of losers like the one that I foolishly turned in and lost my doctor because the doctor has continued doing what he is doing and my therapist turned the doc into the medical board and the kid told the doctor it was me..He let me go for "inconsistencies"..thats the excuse, and he says my contract was at will and it was his will to release me as a patient

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      Stevennix2001posted 15 years agoin reply to this

      wow, im so sorry to hear that.  i guess bad things do often happen to good people, but that really ticks me off that your suffering while that junkie gets off scott free.  look, i wish i knew what to say to you right now.  all i can do is try to pray for you and hope you'll be okay.  (hugs you)

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         B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years agoin reply to this

         AND BIG (((HUGZ))) for you Steven, I have always loved talking to you..I appricate your sincerity and caring. I hate to sound weak, but sometimes, not often, I need it from others and I do not get alot, right now is one of those times in my life when I need it....

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            Stevennix2001posted 15 years agoin reply to this

            (hugs back as you hug me)  your welcome.  anytime.  what are friends for?  i just feel bad there's not much more I can do for you outside of praying and talking to you.  i hope you'll feel better soon.  its okay if your feeling a bit weak right now as we're all vulnerable at times.  however, i always believed that whatever doesn't kill us, only makes us stronger.
            
            and  know you've told me you've been through a lot adversity in the past, thats why i know you'll pull through as your one of the strongest people that i know.

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   B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

   Just being my friend helps me out, I lost all but 2 or 3 when I got into my mid to late 20's and the medical problems started keping me from doing what everyone else was doing...see somedays I can do things I enjoy, like jet ski ( carefully ) and go on small hikes, but I cant go to amusement parks, mosh pits, etc...
   then they started with the whole Kerry is a lazy pos stuff because of my SSI...believe me , I have 4 art degres, I did not ask for this body, so it is decent looking on the outside when cleaned up...lol...but it has alot of physical problems..
   
   Just be my friend, see me for me...not what that paper or papers say, and well.., Ill stop now, Im starting to cry, I hate that when i do it...

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      tantrumposted 15 years agoin reply to this

      Don't cry!
      
      4 degrees in art ! that's worth a lot
      
      And laughing is good for your health.
      
      Nice to meet you.

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   B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

   well hello baconmidget..nice to meet you, and thank you kindly, I need all the faith I can get for friday. Its always nice to met a new person who cares about humanity

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   B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

   Well, hello tantrum, it is a pleasure to meet you too

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      tantrumposted 15 years agoin reply to this

      I hope to make laugh sometime
      i'm always laughing !

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         Crazdwriterposted 15 years agoin reply to this

         Tantrum definitely can make you laugh when yer down

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   B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

   oh Steven, I try..but I am starting to lose my will, seriously..
   if only you were from ohio my dear friend, well...nevermind..it would be cool to someday hang out .You always make me smile...and so does Crazd, and Misti, and a few others too..
   but I do wish you were here right now, I need a hug

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      Stevennix2001posted 15 years agoin reply to this

      well im glad to hear that at least in some way i'm able to help you out.  yeah, it would be pretty cool to hang out with you sometime since you seem like such a nice person.  although, i don't know if i could just stand by and watch some of the people take advantage of you in real life, as im sure i would get into confrontations with them.  however, please don't ever give up okay.  your a lot stronger than think you are.  (hugs you even more)

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   baconmidgetposted 15 years ago

   bump

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    ouch..bumps hurt..lol

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    Stevennix2001posted 15 years ago

    lol.  you okay b.c.?  lol

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    baconmidgetposted 15 years ago

    yeah but in a good way or at least that is what someone said earlier lol

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    Stevennix2001posted 15 years ago

    

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    I forgot what I was gonna say..lol

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       Stevennix2001posted 15 years agoin reply to this

       you okay b.c.?

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    Crazdwriterposted 15 years ago

    ooo someone bumped B.C. too hard! she can't remember things. Okay who did that?

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    yeah, Im really worn down today/tonight..Im ok though, I think

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    Crazdwriterposted 15 years ago

    ugh...It is getting late and I know I won't be falling asleep anytime soon because I ain't tired.

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    Can I have some of your energy hun?

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    Crazdwriterposted 15 years ago

    YOu can have it all of you want. serioisly I will totally try and send it your way...it's no fun. Gonna have to use my pillow mister I think

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    Awesome !..... I claim it, it is all mine

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    Crazdwriterposted 15 years ago

    lol okay well i am off to go read and try to unwind to sleep. night peeps!

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    Stevennix2001posted 15 years ago

    see you later cw.  have a goodnight

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    Goodnight hun, I will definitly talk to you tomarow cradz and get some fudge essence items listed for ya

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    Stevennix2001posted 15 years ago

    hey b.c. are you feeling any better?

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    I was..but I just shared a complete secret, even my child knows nothing about, in your forum about erotic fantasies...read it..but I dont want to talk about the first part..the true thing, but the fantasy I would discuss

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       Stevennix2001posted 15 years agoin reply to this

       sure, i'd love to discuss that with you.  lol

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    baconmidgetposted 15 years ago

    lets start a new internet fad no more "bump" now let's "slide"

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    B.C. BOUTIQUEposted 15 years ago

    Im out of fantasy ideas for tonight, but I have many that I remember or think about on occassion:)

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       Stevennix2001posted 15 years agoin reply to this

       really?  am i ever in one of these fantasies?    lol

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    mega1posted 15 years ago

    war what is it good for absolutely nothin

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    cocopremeposted 15 years ago

    say it again

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       mega1posted 15 years agoin reply to this

       war what is it good for absolutely nothin

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    me!

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    huh!

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    bump

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    me

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    doh!

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    denno need 22 more post help

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    19 or 20 now

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    bump

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    bump

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    pee

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    poop

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    kmackey32posted 15 years ago

    Wow this is getting big.

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       Poppa Bluesposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       Your's too???

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          lyricsingrayposted 15 years agoin reply to this

           

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    bigger by the day

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       lyricsingrayposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       I definitely see the Irish but not the Scottish

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          lyricsingrayposted 15 years agoin reply to this

          poop just isnt the same denno

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    kmackey32posted 15 years ago

    I see that Ive been gone for a few months

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    lyricsingrayposted 15 years ago

    maybe by the minute :

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    or the second....

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    kmackey32posted 15 years ago

    

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    Denno66posted 15 years ago

    Really? Huh. I always thought I looked more Scottish.

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    bloodnlatexposted 15 years ago

    Have I won yet?

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       lyricsingrayposted 15 years agoin reply to this

       nope

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          bloodnlatexposted 15 years agoin reply to this

          No matter how hard I try, someone always has to have the last word.

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    mega1posted 15 years ago

    Just read LitaSorenson's poem about crows - its really great!

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    alexandriaruthkposted 15 years ago

    oh hi to all

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