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   miokine3posted 13 years ago

   Okay so my boyfriend and i have been dating for five years we broke up so many times but it only has lasted the longest like a week maybe two because i would always contact him and get him back. Another time we broke up tho was in 2009 for a whole summer because he was going through a maniac stage because he is bipolar, what happens is you become very happy like your on drugs (which you arent) ANYWHO he was acting like he didnt even no me I was highly depressed at that time! This time last saturday( april 16th) HE randomly called me and we werent even fighting or anything and said I want to be over im serious don't call me or anything and I was like please noo don't do this I love you and blah blah blah. He never answered and i stopped calling that night havent talked since. The next day Him and his twin brother blocked me off facebook (he has never blocked me, I always had blocked him if anything)The weird thing was that his twin brother did the same thing to his girlfriend) So she emailed him and was like why did you do this and so on. He said he didn't want her to get in the way of his career and his proffesional life. BUT NOW they talked and are back together, but my ex and I arent. This time though I feel like I should NC him because I think he needs his space I was immature and so was he and I need to learn to be secure and get it together for myself BUT I MISS HIM SO BAD AND HE IS THE ONLY GUY I WILL LOVE I WANT TO MARRY HIM hes everything to me and Its SO HARD because the twins are so stubborn and confident and are very strong and throughout everytime we broke up he never contacted me it was always me trying to get back with him but this time I feel different I want to learn about myself and grow up and become more mature I'm 20 hes 22...this time for once I want to give him space to miss me I KNOW HE WILL NOT CONTACT ME....but I wonder if he will contact me on my birthday because it is may 3rd (probably not) but my goal is to NC him until the middle of may I just don't no what to say I'm going to wait a month i kind of want to be like Hey how are you I miss you hope we can be friends and catch up.?.... Also my brother is getting married and I still want him to be my date.the weddings june 1st. IDK what to do I'm so scared he wont want me back or he just wants to move on with his life and is over it because we went through so much ! but I love him so much and I just want to start fresh I just don't really know how to approach him and when.

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   paradigmsearchposted 13 years ago

   Send this link to him.
   
   http://hubpages.com/forum/topic/73718#post1600531
   
   Whatever happens, happens.
   
   (Just an opinion. The final decision is yours.)

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      miokine3posted 13 years agoin reply to this

      sned what i wrote? You think I still have a shot

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         paradigmsearchposted 13 years agoin reply to this

         Your post was from the heart. I imagine it will resolve the issue one way or the other. However, what that resolution will be is unknown; and you may not like the results, or maybe you will.

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            miokine3posted 13 years agoin reply to this

            yeah but shouldn't I wait till he calms down or should I do it on EASTER

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               paradigmsearchposted 13 years agoin reply to this

               Very good point. Timing is everything. Only you can decide. Not only as to when to send it, but if to send it.
               
               Or rewrite it into an email. Or maybe a handwritten letter...

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                  miokine3posted 13 years agoin reply to this

                  OK THANKS!

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                     paradigmsearchposted 13 years agoin reply to this

                     Good luck.

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                        miokine3posted 13 years agoin reply to this

                        =_)

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   miokine3posted 13 years ago

   ALSO WHAT I DONT GET IS THE WEEK BEFORE HE BROUGHT ME FLOWERS AND A CARD HE SUPRISED ME

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   LeeWallsposted 12 years ago

   Aren't you the same person that wrote a similar question? You still want to be with this guy after all that drama?

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   puddingicecreamposted 12 years ago

   It sounds like he's going through something really difficult right now. I also agree that it's way too much drama. You should let us know how things ended up going.

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