Movin' to my own groove
Holding my Groove! You can too.
I just got a hold of my own groove and I'm glad that I have. I'm a happier person than before, and I've been happy for over 6 years, I mean happy as an individual with all the things that have happened to me, in my life, that had nothing to do with me having any control from the beginning of my life (in the core years of my childhood and teen years) to the choices I made as an adult that were not of my best judgment. Oh, yes! I'll admit that, easy. Doesn't sound good but, I can move on and find goodness a hop, skip and a jump from it. Now, some folks have a problem with positive motivation. Some folks have a problem with someone motivating them personally and other folks just outright can't stand being in the same room with a Positive motivator! So much so, I've recently received a bug from someone just like this. I don't back down from being bubbly or telling my testimony when asked appropriately and at the right time and place. As a girl, I was taught to not speak for myself and as a teenager, I was pushed to not think for myself either. I was a vibrant and Godly fearing little girl, who accepted God in her heart at the tender age of five.
As a young adult, I struggled to become a normal person, with all the damages to me and my whole being, as a result of the Broken home I was taken from (Thank God) as a minor. A structured home, with plenty of gutters, sink holes and destruction on a daily basis, full of neglect and abuse. There's not a day that goes by where I don't praise and thank God for my existence on another day. To be a positive individual woman who happens to be a mother to a teen and pre-teen, leading them by example and with the grace and mercy of God. There are many ghost voices (of family members from years past) that I remember every now and then saying around me as a little girl: 'Oh, she's not gonna make it! She'll be a dropout!' She's not going to be anything.' Oh! I can't forget this one: Blaming me for the sins of my mother and father, telling me that the 'Horror and Tragedy' that occurred to me was my fault. These sayings are a Mountain of 
My Faith In God...., Moving me!
My faith in God moves me to the beat that I do these things and all else. Then, I kick myself in the butt and move to get back in-line when 'Self,' gets in the way. We all know something about this area when our mind has us thinking about doing something out in left field, that we probably ought to not be pondering in our heads. I enjoy being me: A positive minded, bubbly woman, mother of two and wife, who is a Woman After God's Own Heart. It is through these important roles that I am able to move at all. For you see, I have two beautiful children who are healthy and I have a son who is up in Heaven with the Lord (2001). I felt like I was going to die and did want to, that was a dark and painful period of time. Thank God for my daughters, because they were a huge encouragement. Yeah, he was six months old as a premature infant and his body and organs could not take any more. With all the steps I have made this far, I know God has a better plan for me and my household.
I enjoy being me: A positive minded, bubbly woman, mother of two and wife, who is a Woman After God's Own Heart. It is through these important roles that I am able to move at all. For you see, I have two beautiful children who are healthy and I have a son who is up in Heaven with the Lord (2001). I felt like I was going to die and did want to, that was a dark and painful period of time. Thank God for my daughters, because they were a huge encouragement. Yeah, he was six months old as a premature infant and his body and organs could not take any more. With all the steps I have made this far, I know God has a better plan for me and my household.
So, if you'll excuse me, I'm Movin' at My Own Groove.
